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			STEEM (10/09/00)

    Chorus
G(bar@3rd)    /    D  /       C     /      /       / 
	Why is it true that every time I give a little
G(bar@3rd)  /        D   /  C         /   // 
	Oh so much more is torn from me
	Rebuilding walls and locking closed the doors I'd opened
	I'm fighting hard not to throw away the key
	

    G     /    D  / C     /        /         /
	Here I am  cut me I will bleed be careful
    G     /     D   /   C      /   /   /  
	Here I am only half a man
	You oughta know you're not the only one with troubles
	Just holdin on bout the best I can
	
	I don't know you. You haven't got a clue what makes up me
	But I just thought I could speak to you
	I offered love. I opened up my heart a little
	You took a knife and plunged right in.
	
	I'll lay me down. Kick me if you please don't worry
	You'd think by now I'd be used to it
	I know my place. It's just below the human race. I'm
	sorry I can't go no lower
	
	My lonely heart s'been beaten up and torn apart
	I'm empty now just a broken shell
	Don't lie to me. Don't tell me it will all get better
	There's nothing left that can make it be
	
	I've no plans. Yesterday, today, tomorrow
	Every day in the same old way
	I sit in fear fear of how the world will hurt me
	Can't even do what I've got to do
	
	I don't know why. But if I could I'd surely die
	At even that I'm a failure
	So I'll sit here and sit until the end is near
	Cause then I know I'll be happy

			WAITING (22/08/00)

Chorus
    D         /               C		/	     G	     /
	I'm waiting for the clouds to clear and the sun to shine.
    D         /          C	    /	       G	  /
	Been sat in this rainstorm for such a long, long time (and I'm still crazy)
    D         /   	      C        /       G(bar at 3rd)
	I'm waiting till the sky, not me, is blue.


    Dm	       /     C 	    / 	    G
	Did anyone ever feel this lonely
	Did anyone ever feel this blue
	There's darkness closed in all around me
	Don't know I've the strength to see it though

	I haven't the will to get up and go out
	I've hardly the strength to wake up each day
	Can't make a decision so full of self doubt
	The negative thoughts they wont go away.

	I've little to show now for years of toil
	And what I still do have feels like no gain
	I wake up each day my mind in a turmoil
	Don't know what to do to force on a change

	I've tried popping pills, I've tried hocus pocus
	I've tried all the therapies and mind games
	I've 'sat' every day attention all focused
	Wherever I'd go this is where I'd remain

	If I could feel love I guess I would love you
	But feeling this way I can't. It's a shame
	Don't know what I'm feeling-please give me a clue
	No matter what happens I just feel the same

	It doesn't seem fair I'm not a bad person
	My life wasn't planned to work out this way
	Such silly things will see my mood worsen
	So all I can do is hide me away
OFFLINE (19/8/00)
CG
In my darkest night you were my guiding light
F C
When I needed you I found that you were there
Amidst the loneliness and all the hopelessness
You showed me that it's not too much to bear.
Chorus
Am C G F
Now you're gone I know how much I need you
Am C G F
I don't know how that I can carry on.

Day by day we'd talk of troubles on life's walk
When I stumbled you would always lend a hand
You were there for me. Yes you supported me,
When I found it all too much to understand.

When I had to go you always would say NO!
And gave me strength to see it through the day.
And when I felt the pain, (red blood runs through my veins)
You showed me that I need not feel ashamed.

I maybe was to you one of the crazy crew
But you made me feel accepted all the same.
Bit crazy with the gin, head in an awful spin
You'd put up with whatever I would say.

And when the bitter pill, helped not and made me ill
You showed me there were others close at hand.
I've been low, confused, broken hearted and abused
But you were always there the load to share.

I lost all my friends and reached the bitter end
My friendship was their loss and yours my gain.

~ unfinished ~

SUNNY BLUE (19/8/00)
D C G
If it's sunny and a blue sky
My love I'll shine all over you
If it's cloudy and a grey sky
My love will rain down over you

Chorus
F G D
All I wanna do is see you happy . . baby
All I wanna do is show I care . . cause I love you
And I'm sining this song just for you . . baby
I don't know what else I can do.

If you want me you just call me
When you're down and feeling blue
If you're feelin sad and lonely
I'll come right over, be with you.

Do you ever think about me
I'm sorry. Gotta think you do
And every single waking hour
I just can't stop thinking of you

If you think that I'm just dreamin
I've heard that dreams they can come true
You don't choose who you fall in love with
My cupids arrow fell on you.

If you're happy and you're laughing
If your dreams have all come true
If you don't call because he's with you
I guess I hope he's happy too.

Till I Met You

G^bm E
I was lonely till I met you babe
G^bm E
I had no words to write a song.
G^bm E
Now the words I have I can’t go wrong.
D C CM7 E
I’m gonna sing my love to you.
D C CM7 E
And my fire it burns for you.

I was lonely till I met you babe.
I didn’t know quite what to do.
Now I’ve plans I’m gonna follow through.
I’m gonna start by loving you.
And my fire it burns for you.

I was lonely till I met you babe.
I lived a life of black and blue.
Now I’m bathing in your golden light.
I’m gonna paint my world anew.
And my fire it burns for you.

I was lonely till I met you babe.
All my skies above were grey.
You bring the stars out in my darkest night.
And the moon has come out too.
And my fire it burns for you.

I was lonely till I met you babe.
Work is all I’d ever do.
Now I’m working to be next to you.
All the doubts I had are gone.
And my fire it burns for you.

I was lonely till I met you babe.
On my face I’d wear a frown.
Now I’m happy all the lines have gone.
And I smiling back at you.
And my fire it burns for you.

I was lonely till I met you babe.
Lonely people’s all I knew
Now my friends are gonna join in
And sing a song of friends like you
And my fire it burns for you.

Bang Bang

B A
I saw you dancin across the floor.
B A
I knew the feeling. I wanted more.
B A
I know its early, lets find the door.
E E7 E E7 (D B A B)
I think I love you. Come now baby.

No need to worry I’ve got a car.
Lets go to my place it isn’t far.
It’s nothing special but it’s paid for.
I think I love you. Come now baby.

Take your coat off and feel quite free.
Put on some music, choose a CD.
Don’t be so shy sit next to me.
I think I love you. Come now baby.

Let me take you in my arms.
Let me kiss you and use my charm.
The bells are ringing but no alarm.
I think I love you. Come now baby.

We have a cuddle apart were torn.
You take your skirt off I’m gettin warm.
We both get naked like we were born.
I think I love you. Come now baby.

I feel your heartbeat next to mine.
As our bodies intertwine.
Get with the rhythm and get in time.
I think I love you. Come now baby.
( Fill )
I don’t love you. Bye bye baby.
E7 E5

Riddles

G F
Ill talk to you in riddles lady
G F
Like a tree upon a mountain
G F
Points the way up to the top,
C D
But stays upon the slope.

Will you see the hidden meaning
I’m not doing any cleaning
If that’s not your scene don’t you worry
It’ll reach a point in time.

There is no rhyme nor reason herein
A dozen fingers of the gin in
The ashtray’s full too. Where’s the pigeon.
I think I’m gonna cry

Control Alt Deli, bacon sandwich
Today tomorrow yesterday is.
Do it right but if its wrong
We haven’t got the time.

I’ve got a minute tell me all about
your life it’s just a pigskin
Bouncing off the crossbar
When you think it’s going in.

How can a leopard change its’ spots
When swimming in the midstream. Of course.
Does an elephant forget
It’s cash card pin number.

What did you say you must speak up
I’m not wearing any make up.
What’s for dinner? What no peas.
Have you read a book?

Next door has got a garden of full of
miniature hard backed armadillos
I think they’re kept in cupboards in their kitchen
On my wall.

What’s on telly? He’s got no hair.
What is that he’s always sucking
Rubber duck 10 4 were truckin
CQ DX on air.

Dear John I’m you you’re me get down
and boogaloo around a handbag
There are no problems to discuss
Apart from getting in.

Unclebob is coming back
It’s eight dot three and adders black
and Friday night is music night
God bless the Queen?

I think I’ve had enough to drink.
I’m sure I’ve had enough to smoke
Now what was I just singing of
I think it’s time to sleep.
I think it’s time to sleep.

Jamaica Jack

A G A G
Jamaica Jack worked and earnt a stack
A G A G
And blew it on a flight to Kingston
F E
Ya man.

Jamaica Jack touched a crocodiles back
ate some goat kid curry and smoked ganja
Ya man.

Jamaica Jack she’s seen Bob Marleys shack
spoke some Patwa and got hit on for some Pom Pom
Ya man.

~ unfinished ~

The Day Is Done

G C
The day is over it will soon be time for another one baby
G C
But rest your shoulder upon mine for a little bit longer maybe
D C
Stars will shine and given time I’ll hold you in my arms
And say I love you.

When I was younger I didn’t know what it was to be lonely baby
But as life passed me by I learned to love and found that I was
Missing out on all those things that matter most to me
Like having you .

My Mother and Father gave me everything they could give to me but
with all the riches in this world they put at my command I
didn’t know just how to show them that I loved them too
But I’ll show you.

~ unfinished ~

One Day

G C
You lifted the darkness away
G C
But can these feelings of love stay
Will tomorrow bring another day
of living life in that same old way
If I asked them to
would these feelings stay with me.

I see the sky is all blue
the sun lays on a golden hue
and strangers seem to smile passing by
there’s not a rain cloud up in the sky
And if I called on you
are you feeling like this too.

~ unfinished ~

Life’s a Silly Thing

G G/ C
My life before you is a dream.
G C/G/C
My life before you was a silly thing.
D C
But now I’ve found you I don’t wanna let you go
G
Til the morning...when I’ll join the sun up in the sky

~ unfinished ~

Box Of Chocolates

F#m Em
They say that life is a box of chocolates
F#m Em
And you never know what you’re gonna pick out
C D
All my life I have dreamt of you.
C D
And now all my dreams have come true.

In this world are so very many
Lonely people looking for somebody
I was once just like them too
But I’m not now that I’ve found you.

Is this love that I think I’m feeling
Not sure what it is but it’s sent me reeling
The only cure is to be with you
When you’re not around I feel blue.

It’s three o’clock having trouble sleeping
I look across to you and I hear your breathing
I want to be so close to you
I’m in a dream now can it be true

Wake up in the morning and you look so pretty
I’ve got to go to work it is such a pity
I’d like to stay at home just with you
And do the things that lovers do

In a silly meeting at the office
All I’m thinking of is when I’ll next see your face
Two more silly hours till I’m through
And I’ll be going home for you.

Sitting at a red light in the rush hour traffic
Now you’re in my life it is almost perfect
It wont be long before I say to you
All those silly things that I do.

I park the car in front the driveway
I can’t believe my luck you’re home already
You came home early like me too
You say you’re feeling this way too

They say that life is a box of chocolates
And you never know what you’re gonna pick out
All my life I have dreamt of you.
And now all my dreams have come true.

Work Away Day

(Getting There..)

E C
Mobile phones wait in line
E C
When’s the next train what’s the time.
E C
Standard seats are at the rear
E C
Lovers parting shed a tear.

F G C
And I’m running out of time like a wagtail on
G
the line.
F G
And I don’t know where I’m gonna sleep
C
tonight.

What’s that accent Where are you from
Clear the station threat of a bomb
I’m a smoker where’s the carriage
Can I help you with your baggage

Swiftly passing fields of green
Bits of lives you’ve never seen
Monoculture fields of yellow
This seat is free here don’t say hello

Wheels on rails go clickety clack
Put your luggage in the rack
In a tunnel there’s no light
Out again. Home’s out of sight

Read the paper spend some time
With your eyes closed. What’s the time
Listen in to other s talking.
Lucky people with dogs walking.

Musical chairs where is the toilet
I stumble like I have two left feet
A plane is flying in the sky
These visions did my ticket buy

A river. Fishermen with rod and line.
Rush hour traffic what’s the time
Tescos Asda out of town store
Kenco Coffee on the floor.

Cows in pastures sheep there too.
Where am I going what to do.
There’s a steam train in a siding
There’s a rabbit thinks its hiding.

There’s a river. A road. A car.
What’s the time we haven’t come far
There is a man in horn rimmed glasses.
I look away, shy as he passes.

It’s raining over on a hill
Welsh accent woman’s talking still
Horses running in the sky
I’ve got some smoke stuck in my eye

Sleepy hamlets rushing through
The clouds are going the sky is blue
Refreshment trolley what’s your pleasure
‘To be at home and at my leisure!’

I’ll have a coffee with some sugar
An ambulance with a life at deaths door
Inner city renovation
Inter City what’s this station

The clouds are made here in man made towers
They say it’s safe but where are the flowers
Gas and pipes and tanks and things
A small green space for birds to sing

Man behind me on the phone
He thinks he’s important just hear his tone
Places to go and things to do
‘If I’ve the time I’ll have a drink with you'.

I’ve had enough now. It’s a bore
Coloured graffiti on the wall
This trains now terminating end of the line.
London Paddington What’s the time.

Now You’re Gone

Dm G
Now you’re gone all I think is about you baby
Dm G
Now you’re gone I think I will cry for a little while
F G
And all I can do is remember how good we used to be together
F G
And all I wanna do is kiss you and hold you in my arms.

Now you’re gone all I think is about you baby
Some people say there are plenty of fish swimmin in the sea
But once I’d landed the best I’ve got no time for fishing for the rest
And all I wanna do is kiss you and hold you in my arms.

Now you’re gone all I think is about you baby
I think of your eyes of your lips how you look with a little smile
And wearin that dress in the breeze in the sun you looked so very pretty
And all I wanna do is kiss you and hold you in my arms.

Now you’re gone all I think is about you baby
Of how your eyes lit up when I said some silly things
Oh how my heart would lift up when you’d cry out and I’d hear you coming
And all I wanna do is kiss you and hold you in my arms.

Now you’re gone all I think is about you baby
I’m oh so tired but can’t sleep in a bed that was made for you
I’m rattling around in this room there’s a space here empty you belong in
And all I wanna do is kiss you and hold you in my arms.

Now you’re gone all I think is about you baby
Of what I said and you with a teardrop in your eye
And if the sky wasn’t blue I would sing some words to make things better
And all I wanna do is kiss you and hold you in my arms.

Now you’re gone all I think is about you baby
Where you are who you’re with do you do what you did for me
Will he be there for you and protect you from the stormy weather
And all I wanna do is kiss you and hold you in my arms.

Now you’re gone all I think is about you baby
Now you’re gone I think I will cry for a little while
And all I can do is remember how good we used to be together
And all I wanna do is kiss you and hold you in my arms.

Mow-nin..

A G F#/G F#/E
I wake up in the morning it’s another day through tired eyes
A E
Another day is dawning I try to lift my spirits with the sunrise
G A E
But the sky is grey and clouds block out the sun
G D F#/G
There is nothing to do but what’s already done.

There is dust upon the worktop last nights washing up I’ve still got to do
I’ve some shirts I’ve got to iron and another load that needs washing too
And a heap of bills lies stacked upon the table
There’s a final reminder I’d pay if I was able.

I’ve got to take a shower and the bathroom’s only five degrees
I’ve blown a fuse no power wrapped in towels I think I’m going to freeze
And the milks gone off the coffee tastes like Cheddar
Maybe if I wash my teeth it will taste better

The first smoke of the day puts my head right back into a spin
The neighbours are up early don’t they care how much they’re making a din
And my star sign on the TV isn’t helpful
I’ve got no channel one two or three so much for cable

Getting dressed for work I’ve lost a button off my only clean shirt
I haven’t got the time where’s yesterdays it’s black and wont show the dirt
And I’ll cover up with some Brut aftershave
Next doors mother to her child shouts out behave

I’ve got petrol in my lighter, keys, tobacco, cheque book and some cash
It’s getting kinda late I’ve got no time its now all just a mad dash
And I step outside close and lock up the door
I didn’t take the milk in a new pint’s on the floor

I’ve got to scrape the windscreen cause the car is all covered in ice
I pretend I don’t see a neighbour cause I really don’t think he’s very nice
And the car starts up fourth try and with a splutter
I coax it down the road but it soon stops with a shudder

I’ve no more words to say now each and every day is just like the rest
I’ve lost the morning battle down looks up to me at very best
I can see no point in this petty existence
Don’t condemn me if I want to keep from you my distance

Saturday Reefer Blues

I aint got no lady , to call my own
I aint got no lady , to share my home
I’m feeling lonely , I’m feeling low
I got the blues , lonesome blues
When I was born I was born to lose
I’m gonna smoke another reefer
Stoned out lonesome man blues

Saturday night , I’m on my own
Saturday night , I’m stuck at home
I’m watchin TV , I’m drinking wine
I got the blues , drinking blues
When I was born I was born to lose
I’m gonna smoke another reefer
Stoned out lonesome man blues

I aint got no lady , to cuddle up to
I aint got no lady , who wants me to
I want a cuddle , I need it bad
I got the blues , touch me blues
When I was born I was born to lose
I’m gonna smoke another reefer
Stoned out lonesome man blues

Insight

Do you feel it have you read the book
Have you changed inside you
Review your life and you’ll realise
You are living more than you thought
Coincidences as we race on by
Time to look more closely
Syncronicity see it if you try
To our destiny we’re led.
Something’s gonna happen
The best is yet to come
And I’m feeling like my life has just begun.

You can see it all in a history book
The changing of the world view
Rejection of the mystical light
Commanding mother nature
Another mans view doesn’t have to be right
Listen to the voice inside you
Break your chains to the science review
You have to suspend disbelief
Something’s (etc...)

As you look out on the world around you
Feel the energy as I do
Look in depth beyond the physical plane
it reverberates around you
You’re not alone you’re a part of it too
Open up allow it in
If you join in with the power of love
What you want may soon come true.
Something’s (etc...)

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~ unfinished ~

How can I Tell You

Chorus

C G Am G
How can I tell you I love you when the sun is out
C G Am G
How would it sound in the cold light of day
C G Am G
How can I tell you I love when I know you’re near
F G F G
Love is a word I never could say. Love is a word I never thought I’d use.

~ unfinished ~

Hugs And Stuff

F C
I thought you were so cute when I first saw you
F C C/G
Dressed in a suit with your long blonde hair
F C Cmaj7 C D
Acting out your job like you should with a confident air
G C D
Crissy if you need a hug just call me
G C D
Crissy if you need a hug I care
G C D
Just pick up the phone and call my number
G C D
Give a little sign and I’ll be there

I didn’t want to speak in case I bored you
But inside I knew that I just had to
There was so much more to you than first met my eye
Crissy if you need a hug just call me
Crissy if you need a hug I care
Just pick up the phone and call my number
Give a little sign and I’ll be there

You read me a chapter of your lifes story
Your still on a journey no happy ending
I think you’re gonna find you have still more tears to cry
Crissy if you need a hug just call me
Crissy if you need a hug I care
Just pick up the phone and call my number
Give a little sign and I’ll be there

Your good at keeping working all those around you
They haven’t time to stop and look closer at you
And maybe see a tear. Look away maintain the lie
Crissy if you need a hug just call me
Crissy if you need a hug I care
Just pick up the phone and call my number
Give a little sign and I’ll be there

I’d like to take you with me and show you forests
I’d like to show you things you’ve never seen
If I was the King of this land I’d make you Queen
Crissy if you need a hug just call me
Crissy if you need a hug I care
Just pick up the phone and call my number
Give a little sign and I’ll be there

I’m putting down these words like a dozen roses
Making sure my feelings for you are seen
I know there is no hope of more hugs will have to do
Crissy if you need a hug just call me
Crissy if you need a hug I care
Just pick up the phone and call my number
Give a little sign and I’ll be there

(Chorus repeat end on G)

Gift

Chorus
C G
Dancin round the fire
C G
Feel the heat of the flame
(And I think it’s raining)
C G
Would you think me a liar
F C G
If I said I feel no pain, I’m cryin in the rain

G C
I’ve lived a life long journey
I’ve been there and come back again
I’ve walked on fires that didn’t burn me
I’ve flown away without a plane
Dm Dsus4 Dm C G
I never saw those things you showed to me
Dm Dsus4 Dm C G
But now you’re here with me I think I see.

I’m a song I’ve not yet written
I’m the next word in a rhyme
Like a cat that was a kitten
I’ll live my nine lives given time
I’m looking forward to my destiny
Now I can take it what will be will be.

I’ve still doubts in this knowing
I am my fathers son
I’ve no faith but it is growing
Proof the best is yet to come
My mothers love she gives so easily
This strength of balance was their gift to me

I’m a phone call cross the ocean
I’m a friend to feel your pain
I touch your heart when it is open
And for me you do the same
Some people say they love so easily
Can words express this love of family

I’m a rain drop in the ocean
I’m a cloud up in the sky
I sit still and feel the motion
Of a love that’s passing by
I never could say words like I love you.
But now I know your love I’m going to.

Journeying

Chorus
I am a journeyman. Travel a lonely road
I go where my spirit guides me. Where the wind blows.

A river flows it’s winding course down to the sea
And like that river is a force that ebbs and flows in me.

Awakened from a restless sleep I’m starting out anew.
An image of a dream I’ll keep. Some things I’ve yet to do.

Like a train upon a track there’s outward or return.
The voices they keep coming back. If I listen now I’ll learn.

Yesterday I was so scared of life and what I see.
But now maybe my soul is bared. I’m living just to be.

Lay on Macduff and damned be him who first cries hold enough.
I’ve strength to fight. I’ve spirit in. I’m ready for life’s rough.

Coming Home

Chorus (Folk)
I’m travelling home. It’s where my heart is.
Travelling home to where my love lives.

I’ve walked the rough ground for many a year
But now I’ll come home without my fear.
I’ve lived the life of a travelling man.
I’ve travelled far o’er many a land.

I’ve walked in long grass I’ve walked on stone.
But all that long walk I walked alone.
The sky was blue and the fields were green
These are the least of what I have seen.

What friends I’ve made along the way.
But with the sunrise another day.
And if I think I’ve laughed a lot.
Some days of tears remembered not.

I’ve eaten foods I’ve tasted wines.
I thought of home so many times.
And on some half forgotten shore.
I’d had enough no wish for more.

‘Just’ A Friend

Chorus
C G
You were there when I needed you
G F
You were there for me to talk things through
C G F
I just want to say to you I thank you
I think I love you too.

C G
What’s this fragile thing called sanity
Sometimes the darkness closes over me
And when life’s so hard that I want an end
I know you’re there and I can call you friend

You are the calm in my stormy night
You are the clarity of my insight
To my desert you’re a drop of rain
You are the rule book to my silly game.

You are a thermal to my bird in flight
You make my shattered dreams seem allright
You make the sun come out on my cloudy days
You make me laugh so much in your silly ways

You are the red rose to my life’s thorns
And in my darkest night you are the dawn
You are the moon and stars in my void of space
You stop me running and set my pace.

If you need something rely on me
What’s mine is yours Just take it all for free
You’ve given me riches I cannot repay
I’ve not the words these feelings to convey

Black Hat
(The IVth)

Chorus
Am
Hey someone spare a thought for me
G Em
Whatever you get it’s not for free
Am
I have yet to find my way
G Em
For whatever I give I have to pay.

Am C G Am
Lady Jayne what’s going on you’ll find no answers with me
If you’ve faith then you will see what you want to see
I’ve just the same old words singing to a different tune
Today’s a darkened day the light above is just the moon.

Lady Jayne what’s going on thinking of you with this song.
I’ve confused the distance travelled with the measure of how long
Look down deep into your soul and you will find out what’s your goal.
Follow not misguided light disappearing in black holes.

Lady Jayne what’s going on the light has dimmed around me.
Something’s changed now and these words don’t come so easily
Can it be I gave too much. Too much and too soon.
Or is this just a visit of my friend the shadow of the moon.

Lady Jayne what’s going on I feel so low on energy
I feel like I’ve been running and no ones keeping up with me.
I’ve helped to clear some path for others to follow in this plan
I’ve done my best alone but now ‘I’ need a helping hand.

Just Rain

Chorus
Am C G
I once thought you could understand me
Am C G
And that you heard all the things I said
Am C G
It seems I was wrong what you said just hurt me
Am C E
You’re making different meanings deep inside your head
C G D A

~unfinished~

Dancin With The Devil

Chorus (Rock with agonised despair)
Dm
And I’m dancin with the devil
C G
Come on join in
Dm
Oh I’m racing gainst the devil
F C
Don’t know if I’m gonna win
(Lets start again)

Dm G A
I can feel the darkness coming I’m puttin it back on like a well worn coat now
There is no point in running cause a soul of lead stakes me to the spot now.
Dm F G

~unfinished ALWAYS !!!!!~

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