December
31 - Woke a couple of times
earlier but managed to snooze on (Sally let me) before finally
up, after 9am!! . . . walked real late. The woman of that old
house on the corner which was egged the other night, was out in
her yard as I passed. I couldn't resist passing a word with her
and referring to the egging incident (as much as anything else,
just to make absolutely certain, they didn't think I'd done it!).
Turns out they've been 'having problems' with the group of kids.
Apparantly started when the kids were playing football in the
street, and the ball was continually kicked over the high fence
into their garden, followed by them knocking on the door asking
for it to be handed back. Yeah - you can imagine how that went
with those brain dead kids. The first time it happened would have
been an accident, but then they would have started doing it
deliberately as part of the game, just to wind up the house
owner. I can't recall the order in which she said stuff happened,
but apparantly at some point I think it was her husband who ended
up retrieving the ball from their garden, and puncturing it with
a knife before returning it. Nice one. (Ooooo yes - I remember
doing exactly that, in frustration years ago, when some kid
kicked his football at my chop parked outside in the street. (I'd
built and laboriously painted it with lots of spray cans - it
'hurt' to have a kid kick a football at it!) I was doing some
work on something, in the living room with the front door left
open, which involved using the knife, so I dashed out and stabbed
the football. They called the police on me, and I was in danger
of being charged with possessing an offensive
weapon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! A 'frenzied football stabbing'. :o/
I had to pay for a replacement football, to avoid the charge!) At
some other time, the boy who lives nearby (the one 'just' coming
out of his house when the egging was done the other night) called
at their door with his mother asking for the return of his ball.
The womans son had apparantly emptied a bucket of water out of
the bedroom window onto them, as they stood at the door below!
lololol Nice one (although it mostly missed them apparantly). I
wouldn't have had the nerve. Of course she was fully aware, that
was innappropriate behaviour, and she made it clear she'd
chastised her son. All these goings on lead to the group of
youths constantly hanging around near their house, the egging the
other night, and having snowballs thrown at their windows!!! I
commiserated - very briefly told MY tale - said I knew exctly who
one of the group was (and indicated how she could find out for
herself, just nearby - although it seemed that she knew many of
them anyway, through her son I think?) - and strongly recommended
she should call the police (she hadn't yet) if ANYTHING else
happened (after all - I have a vested interest in the police
being more aware of what is REALLY going on round here -
particularly with regard to little ******'s activities!). .
during the conversation, I finally got to ask about her disabled
son. Cerebral Palsy apparantly. So - not much point in saying
good morning to him as I pass, I think. :o( . . Dumped in the
nettles by the poop scoop bin at the top of the field was
something strange made out of chain. I've some vague recollection
of having seen pieces of dangling chain-mail acting as mud flaps
on lorries, or something like that, so I suspected it was one of
those. Couldn't resist picking it up for a closer look. It was
NOT one of those. Oh my god!
That has to be the absolute weirdest thing I have
EVER found dumped over that field - EVER!!. Absolutely bizarre!
It was a full blown chain-mail hood, of the type that ancient
soldiers once wore!!! A hoodie for the hood?!! MUST be a modern
replica because it was SO perfect and clean (once I'd taken it
home and washed the mud off it - very heavy to carry!). I could
have just left it there because it's hardly something I want, but
I couldn't resist the photo opportunity for here (funny how doing
this journal 'feeds back' into 'real life', and affects some of
what I do), so I guess I'll be having to hand it in to a police
station somewhere, some time. What on earth is the story behind
it ending up dumped there I wonder? Stolen from a 're-enactment'
person's car/house, seems most likely. Wow - if only I could find
the rest of the outfit - the shirt, a lance and a sword would be
good, then maybe I'd feel safe walking Sally again. I could
'prod' yobs from a distance with my lance! lol :o/ . . . left
wet, muddy Sally at home (put my footstool on my chair, to
prevent her being tempted to sit in it while I was gone, as is
here weird habit) and drove to Emersons Green. Popped in the
Argos store and clumsily asked what the gift vouchers I'd found
over the field, actually were, and if they were worth anything.
They'd not been 'activated' and were worthless, so they suggested
they had just been stolen from the display on one of the desks. I
handed them all back in. Damn - I was kinda secretly hoping they
may have bought me a camcorder! lololol. . . stopped off in
Sainsburys (YUK!! .absolutely packed with people!) and bought a
couple of new 100 watt screw cap bulbs for my outside light, just
a handful of groceries, and a full box of 50 cigarette papers. .
. back home to find Sally had sat in the OTHER chair in my
abscence, and COVERED the throw in mud!! So weird how she needs
to sit in one of those chairs if I leave her - rather than on the
'protected with an old sheet' setee, like normal. . . dragged the
old wooden step ladder out of the understairs cupboard and
succesfully fitted one of the new bulbs into my outside light,
before cleaning all the glass and putting it all back together. .
. ate liver sausage sandwiches with two bags of crisps and a
handful of biscuits . . . napped the rest of the day away until
around 5pm. . .PCd a bit of this . . .walked around 7pm - NOT
wearing the chain mail! . BIG firework explosions coming from the
direction of town, but they all finished 'just' as I reached the
field, and would have been able to see some of the display in the
distance! . .lots of people out walking, on their way to
wherever, to get even more drunk than they obviously already
were!! . heading back up and out of the field, right up the top
in the distance was a HUGE fire, somewhere behind the first line
of houses!!! Plenty of sirens echoing around the area, so clearly
the fire brigade were on their way/already in attendance. I was
convinced it was a house fire - the flames were leaping into the
air, at least twice the height of the surrounding houses!!! WELL
alight!!! Headed with Sally back up the field in the light rain
and out of the top in the 'hope' of maybe having a photo
opportunity, but by the time I reached the street in which the
fire engine was parked, I think it'd been brought under control.
Turned out it was kids who'd set fire to a garage up a lane
behind the houses (which made it inappropriate for me to walk up
there to rubberneck). They've done it before apparantly!! :o( Oh
well - at least someone wasn't gonna be starting off the new year
without a home. . . touched base with Sis2,BB,Mum . . . TVd . .
.ate four buttered crumpets and bowls of corn flakes . . .smoked
the last of that 'stuff' I'd found. .as midnight approached - I
felt - ummmm? - Yyyyyyes! - Scared!!!? Just - Scared! :o( Horrible feeling. Couldn't relax or feel in
ANY way happy about anything at all! Felt as though everyone
around was gonna be drunk and liable to do something nasty.
Couldn't help myself - spent a large amount of time, looking out
of a darkened bedroom window at groups of noisy drunks passing
by! Plenty of blue flashing lights visible through the living
room curtains throughout the night, as speeding emergency
vehicles went quietly down the road! . . .wanted to see in the
midnight hour and all the fireworks from the attic windows, but
eventually decided to stay downstairs with Sally, just in case
she was unnerved by the noise and my sudden abscence. . BB called
before midnight and was on the chordless phone with me as
midnight came and went and I went out in the front garden with
Sally and sat on the wall to watch the fireworks and listen to
all the hullabaloo. Wow - very loud and fireworky this year!
Couldn't even hear what BB was saying on the phone! Sally took it
all in her stride and amazingly just sat quietly at the gate,
happily looking about (for cats no doubt!). .Happy new year? Yeah
- that'll be the day! I think it's ended up being a pretty crappy
year - and it's gonna drag on into the next one (anxiety,
paranoia, court case and all!) :o( . . .TVd and maybe touched
base with BB again before eventually to bed (once 'most' of the
drunken noise in the street and the fireworks had calmed down)
around 3am or later. psss
30 - Woken earlier by Sally then
up at 9am . . walked in the rain. Wow - how weird that in such a
short amount of time, it can be several degrees warmer all of a
sudden. According to my outside thermometer, it's been regularly
below zero for the last few days - today it was suddenly up
around 6 degrees C. .a couple of days ago, someone dumped around
six full bin bags of rubbish in and against the hedge on the edge
of the field. Someone had moved one of those bags and left it in
the middle of the road on a fast sweeping bend, forcing cars to
awkwardly swerve around it. Dragged it back over to the hedge.
Looks like someones Christmas rubbish - wrapping paper and such
poking out of ripped holes. Why would someone dump stuff like
that? What reason can there possibly be in this day and age?
Scumbags! . .my 'obsession' with all the litter over that field
has changed somewhat since 'the attack'. I'm much less inclined
to do 'litter duty', something along the lines of just feeling
less secure in myself about doing so, not wanting to give the
yobs further reason to belittle, ridicule and abuse me - and
sadly, can't help feeling, why the hell should I do ANYTHING to
improve the environment of anyone else around here, when everyone
seems to go out of their way to ruin it for me and Sally! :o(
Maybe it's because of the Christmas season, but whoever it is
(alchoholic?) who throws those miniature glass wine bottles over
the fence into the field every day - they've been drinking more.
Two or three a day on occasions. Rather than continually pick
them up and carry them to a bin, I've started to be silly about
it, to hopefully 'make a point'. Every time I find one of late, I
walk over to the chain link fence, push the bottle firmly in
between the wires at around head hight, and leave it there. The
most I've managed to have poking out, all along that side of the
field at any one time is, around half a dozen I think. Sadly,
every day, someone walking down the street, will push them back
through onto the grass - and I'll put them back!!! lololol DO
wish they'd leave them there. Kinda like a bizarre work of art if
I could fill that fence. Make a good photo. Even tempted to start
doing the same with all the plastic bottles that lay all over the
place. lolololol . . .skipped food and worked on the 'building
site', and spent the whole day, eventually successfully
installing the new back bedroom door, in the stud wall. Slow
laborious work cutting out all the hinge/latch rebates. Turned
out to be a pretty good fit first time (but swings shut! Damn!) ,
and although a tiny bit needs cutting off the bottom to clear a
carpet, and maybe just a millimeter off the side at the bottom,
it's quite serviceable for the time being, without any planeing!
VERY glad to have FINALLY got that done. It was holding me up.
With that in place to keep the dust back away from the computer,
I can start to think about all the nasty dusty reconstruction and
cutting in of socket boxes and cable conduit, etc, of the walls
at the top of the stairs. .all done, vacuumed and clean by around
6:30pm . . . touched base briefly with BB . . . walked in the mud
. .stopped for a bag of chips takeaway on the way home. Reheated
half a chicken in the oven and then ate half a chicken and chips
. . . BB called briefly . . . PS popped round for chats and
biscuits until early. . . touched base with BB before ending up
in the back bedroom, 'admiring' (!?) my new door for a while (as
one tends to do with DIY stuff) before bed in the early hours. ps
29 - Woke at 9am! Blimey -
Sally's getting good at getting up later. . .walked in more sub
zero temperatures. . . headachey. Crunched annadins to no effect.
Headachey and tired and ended up back in bed. Slept off most of
the day before eventually back up around 3:30pm! . . didn't want
to have completely wasted yet another day, so, just as it was
starting to threaten at getting dark, quickly dragged the old
wooden step ladder out, and had a go at dismantling the outside
light to replace the blown bulb. I'd forgotten - but it was
easier than I thought. Just one screw holding it all together
(although I DID have to cut through some overlapped masonary
paint with a stanley knife before it would come apart). Oh NO!!!
It's a screw fitment bulb, instead of a
bayonet!! How annoying. Don't have any of those. Damn. Ended up
having to put it all back together without a bulb for the time
being. I can't think of ANY local stores that are gonna have
screw fitting bulbs like that - it'll have to wait until I get to
a supermarket or DIY store (AFTER all the holiday crowds madness
is over!). . . ate a handful of chocolate biscuits just to keep
me going. . walked on a light dusting of snow . . . PCd listening
to music . . . ate bowls of co-co pops . . . touched base with BB
. . . TVd . . .ate a heated tin of steak in gravy with four
pieces of bread and butter . . . TVd/PCd until early. paas
28 - Woken by insistant Sally
more than once and finally up around 8am . . .walked in hat and
layers in the freeze . . . slow getting going but eventually
managed to force myself to do just a little more work on the 'top
of the stairs'/bedroom-stud-wall-end part of the building site.
Glued and screwed another upright to the right angled upright I
put in yesterday and then cut miniature noggins and happily used
some old bits of scrap door frame wood, to fill between the
noggins on a small section of the wall. Wanted to do that, to
give any future bedroom radiator cover, and or shelves, something
more substantial to screw to, inside the eventual plasterboard
covered stud wall. All went ok until I somehow managed to put the
electric plane blade, straight into its power lead, and with a
bit of a flash, cut clean through the live flex!!! Survived. .
dismantled the electric plane and got away with simply undoing
all the wires and shortening the flex by a foot, before putting
it all back together. It didn't work!? Changed the fuse and
luckily succeeded in getting it back up and running, little the
worse for the experience . . called it quits, tidied up, vacuumed
and got clean around 3pm. . . ate two bananas then garlic sausage
sandwichs and two bags of crisps followed by half of the box of
chocolates I got from the burgled woman up the road . . . napped
until around 6:15pm . . . walked in the freeze around 7:15pm.
Just down the road and round the corner, I became aware of a
group of kids who I would have to pass, hanging around on the
next corner up ahead. All of a sudden as I walked in their
direction (they'd definitely 'registered' I was approaching),
there were a couple of loud bangs, and then they all went running
off past me!? I recognised little ****** amongst the excited
running group. A kid just coming out of a nearby house to join
them, called out asking what they'd just done (but I didn't hear
any replies). . There is an old house on that corner. It doesn't
look that old but I've seen photos of it from years ago - it's
been there a while and IS of 'some' historical interest. The
family who lives there has a dog, and I've exchanged the odd word
with the lady of the house from time to time. They have a
tragically disabled son who lives in a wheelchair. Physically AND
mentally impaired. Very sad to sometimes see him parked by the
window, presumably for a change of view - and sometimes in the
summer, parked in the corner of their garden while he waits to be
picked up by the social services bus with the hydraulic platform.
I've dabbled on occasions with the idea of saying good morning or
hello or some such while walking past with Sally (not sure - I
may actually have done so once), but it 'appears' he isn't aware
- or if he is, can't show it. As if all that isn't bad enough for
the poor parents - he also seems to be one of those, who is prone
to a bit of screaming, for who knows what reason. On several
occasions walking past with Sally, I've heard some of the
ear-splitting noise they must endure. What hell for them all. SO
sad. :o( As I walked past, someone was attempting to peer out of
the egg covered window!!!! Those little bastards, with little
****** in the group, had just egged their windows, top and
bottom! For christs sake! Once I'd realised what had happened, I
hesitated and walked back a few feet to look round the corner
after the fleeing kids. Nothing I could do really was there? As I
wandered hesitantly back and forth, I got all up tight about
whoever was looking out of the window maybe thinking I'd just
done it, so I gesticulated in the kids direction and motioned
'kids' ('short' people) with my hand. I think the person at the
window understood. . carried on walking Sally as usual, full of a
mixture of anger and deep sorrow - um - 'as usual' these days
actually!! I also felt maybe just a hint of satisfaction, that
I'd actually seen what I'd seen, and little ****** had been right
in the thick of it. Reinforced my belief that HE, especially HE,
really is a problem for this neighbourhood. . walking back from
the field, I passed little ****** and a no good frizzy haired
friend of his, heading in the opposite direction, presumably
heading to the store across the field. My hate-filled, paranoid
mind working ridiculously overtime, I convinced myself they were
quite likely going over there to buy more eggs! As they headed
across the field into the distance, I ended up back in the field
and giving Sally a bit of an extra walk. Sat on a boulder for a
cigarette. Just finishing my cigarette when little ****** and his
friend returned across the field, eating something from a bag and
with something to drink - without eggs. Headed home and ended up
walking thirty or so feet, right behind them for part of the way.
(Inevitably, the minute little ****** had finished eating, he
threw the empty bag to the floor). I assumed just past the house
they'd egged earlier, they would be heading off towards his house
(the way I am no longer 'allowed' to walk!) and our paths would
go our seperate ways. That didn't happen. They turned the corner
and joined the same group of six to eight kids just down the
road, all hanging around and writing in the frost on someones
car. I was forced to walk past them all. Little ******, cocky as
ever, looked me square in the eye as I passed him. I met his eyes
and scowled back - with hopefully visible, utter contempt on my
face. As I carried on and rounded the next corner out of their
sight, one of them called out after me "Why are you
following us?". . F****** idiots! Almost tempted to return
and explain that there are only SO many ways to get from my house
to the field twice a day, and since I'm 'no longer allowed' to
use little ******'s street, I have little choice but to walk THAT
way! Where the hell is all this gonna end? :o( . the bulb in my
front outside light blew as I returned home. Can't recall how
that light comes apart to replace it!! . . . touched base briefly
with BB while 'on guard', watching out of a darkened window.
.with all this anti social nonsense that has being going on of
late, I've started to - um - kinda 'doubt myself'. Kinda like,
I'm no longer sure what is and what is not 'acceptable' and
should be ignored like most people seem to do. Am I actually
'just' a grouchy old man, living in the past, getting up tight
and obsessed about nothing? Well - no, I don't think so. A couple
of recent national/local news items struck a chord with me, so I
surfed to find them and include them here.
MOPEDS AS GIFTS - NOT A GOOD
IDEA
Police have advised parents not to buy their children mini
motorbikes as Christmas presents, as they could be encouraging
their youngsters to break the law. Officers now have the power to
seize mopeds from persistent offenders and charge them a daily
rate for storage. Many youngsters who already use these motorised
machines are riding them illegally.
Riding them on the road, pavement, cycle-path, roadside grass
verges and public parks is illegal if the vehicle is not insured
and taxed
Police across Avon and Somerset have received numerous complaints
about the bikes being ridden in an anti-social manner and
illegally on private land, despite strong warnings from the
force's road policing unit.
Vehicles being used anti socially do not have to be witnessed by
a police officer but reports can come from members of the public,
informing the police where and when it was being used.
DOGS KILLED BY 'MINI MOTORBIKES'
Miniature motorbikes are illegal on land which the public can
access.
Children riding miniature motorbikes are thought to be
responsible for killing two dogs in Wiltshire.
The lurchers were being walked by their owner on Poulton Fields
in Bradford-on-Avon on Christmas Day. Pc Gary Jones, from
Wiltshire Police, said: "At the time there were a number of
children riding mini-moto bikes on the fields." One dog was
killed at the scene while the other was put down after it
suffered serious injuries. Owner Christine Ford said the animals
had run ahead and she did not see what struck them. "Their
injuries were horrific, the younger one had a broken back and his
paw and legs were just smashed." Pc Jones said: "The
vet believes that the dogs were struck by a vehicle, a motorcycle
or something similar. "As there were no other cars or roads
nearby, we believe that the dogs were both killed by mini-motos
being ridden by very young children. I would remind all parents
that these mini motos are completely unlawful for use on land to
which the public have access."
. . PCd a bit of this. . . returned
Mums ansaphone call. . . TVd and ate the last of the chocolates.
. .touched base with BB . . . TVd. . . ate a couple of bananas
and then a couple of defrosted meat pastry pies with two bags of
crisps. . . TVd and ended up watching 'Rio Bravo' (again!) until
the early hours. Brilliant film. . eventually to bed after 3am! pss
27 - Woken around 8am by BB
calling the ansaphone . . .returned BBs ansaphone call . . .
walked on ice. Really cold, biting breeze! :o( . . . somehow
mustered the energy and did a little work on the building site at
the top of the stairs/back bedroom. Skimmed the edge of the
bedroom firebreast with cement and then screwed and glued a
length of 4x2 in position, to fill the gap between the stud wall
and the firebreast. . 'stippled' in, a layer of varnish on the
piece of dark flagstone on the low wall at the top of the stairs.
Looks ok. . . PCd. . . walked. More abuse called out from a group
of kids as I passed by. I've got into the habit recently, of
walking carrying my small, six inch long, rubber pocket LED torch
in my hand, held not by the handle, but by the lens/reflector
end. It's a bit heavy to have knocking around in a pocket. I've
got into the habit of using it quite a bit around the field, not
only for poop scooping duties in the dark, but also to light up
the hedges and overhangs here and there, to make sure there is no
one hiding there ready to pounce on me!! I carry it by the lens
end so that the reflector is covered and doesn't make me
'noticeable' in the dark! Amongst the taunts and abuse I received
from the kids, one shouted out "Why are you carrying a
Stanley knife!" (presumably having mistaken my torch). Good
grief - I suppose that'll be the next story that goes around the
neighborhood - the paedophile who walks the streets with a
stanley knife!! :o( Miserable existance. . . touched base briefly
with BB while the oven reheated. . . ate half a chicken with
garlic bread . . .PS popped round for chats, coffee and biscuits
until early. . .touched base with BB before to bed in the early
hours. pss
26 - Woken by Sally at 8am . . .
walked . . . PCd a bit of this . . Mum called to touch base. .
.TVd . . ate garlic sausage sandwiches with two bags of crisps .
. . TVd . . napped . . . walked . . . drank the can of cider I
found over the field that's been sat in the fridge for months. .
. touched base with BB . . .TVd . . . ate half a chicken and
garlic bread . .TVd . . . ate bowls of co-co pops. . .back to bed
around 1am. pssssd
25 - Humbug!
Woken by Sally just after 8:15am . . . walked late. VERY quiet
out - really nice. Found three cigarettes in a pack and a pile of
16 Argos gift cards laying in the field!? Weird little things -
cardboard, about the size of a credit card and all serially
numbered. No indication of any value?? . . . TVd feeling tired.
Wanted to go back to sleep! Tried calling Mum to touch base and
get that out of the way but she was engaged for ages. Eventually
she called . . . napped . . .
drank a glass of
red wine and ate roast potatoes, chicken, peas, beans and a pint
of gravy. . Well - looks like a 'traditional' (???) Christmas
around the neighbourhood!! Fireworks being let off somewhere and
kids riding around the streets and pavements on their new
motorbikes. Missed getting a picture of the toddler sat on the
petrol tank with his legs over the handlebars, being given a ride
by what I presume was his older brother! What utterly crazy
parents to encourage THAT! The next kid given a ride, was at
least wearing a helmet. . . back to sleep . . . walked. Really ,
REALLY quiet out. Rather nice. Dabbled with the idea of just
keeping on walking, but too lazy. . . missed a couple of
ansaphone calls (Mum and Sis2) but absolutely could NOT face
having to make any conversation - with anyone. .touched base with
BB . . .TVd . . ate huge amounts of chocolate biscuits, chocolate
and bowls of co-co pops . . . TVd until bed around 2am.
'Difficult' day. :o( passd
24 - Woken by Sally well after
8:30am . . . walked . . . set the PC converting more MP3 files.
TVd . . . ate garlic sausage sandwiches with two bags of crisps
around 11:30am . . . back to bed (leaving the PC still converting
files) and ended up sleeping off the day until around 4:30pm!!!!
. . . PCd MP3s/PCd this . . . walked after 7pm . . .PCd/TVd . . .
touched base with BB . . . TVd . . . ate a couple of defrosted
meat pies and two bags of crisps . . .LB called to touch base a
little after midnight, but I don't know why. . . TVd/PCd until
bed in the early hours. ps
23 - Woken by Sally around
9:15am!!! Blimey - first 'lie in' I can recall Sally ever letting
me have. . . walked late . . .PCd and polished off ripping the
last of LBs CDs. All done and returned them to her around midday
. . . ate a handful of chocolate biscuits to keep me going. A bit
of sunny sky so set off around 2pm with Sally for a walk. Did our
usual 'long' three hour walk - in reverse. Down through Fishponds
to Oldbury Court, along the river to Snuff Mills, up onto the
hill at Purdown for a cigarette by the monument, back down along
the river to Eastville Park and a sit by the boating lake, and
then all the way back. . stopped for a bag of chips on the way
home. Found 2p. . ate half a microwaved chicken with the bag of
chips. . .timed the earlier walk with Sally a bit wrong (but
actually because I didn't want to be walking home in the dark) so
felt obliged to take her out again, to keep to her routine.
Walked. Sat on the seat by the swings in the dark for my
cigarette, I spotted a car over on the road, pull up and stop in
an 'unusual' place, which captured my attention. As I watched,
the car reversed into a pedestrian pathway and then continued to
reverse down the narrow sloping path and almost out of sight
before turning off its lights!! Uhuh - so what illegal are THEY
up to???? I'll never learn will I! I just couldn't help myself
hooking Sally up, crossing the road, and walking down that path
to see what was going on. The car was parked almost completely
blocking the path. The asian driver still sat inside, kept the
side-lights on so that the asian woman who'd emerged from the
passenger seat would be able to see in the pitch black. She was
moving round to the back of the car, obviously about to open the
trunk. I was forced to squeeze between the car and the hedge to
walk past. On the back seat of the car were three small asian
children!!! I kept walking, looking back lots. Sure enough, the
woman opened the trunk and started taking out rubbish and
throwing it over the fence into the hedge!! Good grief - a
'family outing' to do some fly tipping!!!! How utterly bizarre!!
The way the man remained in the car, as the woman had to do all
the work, seemed to confirm something unpleasant to me about
their culture! . . this 'fly tipping' business has started to
become a bit of an issue around here of late. A whole load of
rubbish has been dumped next to the rugby club gates - the
remains of a two seat sofa dumped months ago, remains rotting in
the hedge - the lightly covered in foam, metal base of a complete
set of old style bench car seats (front, back, AND a section of
floor pan maybe?) have appeared dumped on the grass in the field
in the last few days!!
My OUTRAGE at
being confronted by such behaviour (SO unecessary in this
society) , got the better of me again (as it always does!!), and
I walked back up the lane towards the car and took a couple of
photos - complete with flash!!!!! That got their attention -
focused on me!!!!!!! Ooops - again! (I SO need a camcorder with
low light ability! I'm gonna get one - I AM - it's only a matter
of time!! Not only for all this nonsense though - I want to have
a go at doing my own videos to go with some of my MP3
collection.) The man got out of the car and joined his wife and
they both came over to me asking in pigeon english if I'd just
taken a photo. I confirmed I had, and bleated on about how it was
totally inappropriate to be dumping stuff like that. They claimed
it was 'just' garden refuse - didn't want to get in any trouble,
and would put it all back in the car. I was feeling 'vulnerable',
(and who the hell did I think I was anyway!!) and really was NOT
gonna stand there arguing about it (especially when I could
hardly understand a word they were saying) and eventually
withdrew, saying they should just get on and do whatever they
wanted, Happy Christmas (which was probably the wrong thing to
say to someone of Asian origin) and goodbye. . I left them to it,
walked round the block and eventually made my way back past the
end of the lane (they were STILL parked there) and back over into
the field . . . Returned to the seat by the swings and sat for a
bit. The car eventually emerged from the lane, drove back onto
the road, and away. Sat for a bit longer, eventually intending to
go back down that path to see what had been dumped. Just then,
from the direction of the main road, a guy started walking
towards me!!!! Uh oh!!!! Yep - it WAS the driver of the car!!!! 1
made ready with my phone (all dialed in - just one more button to
press to connect), just in case I was gonna be needing the
police! Turned out, as far as I could tell from his broken
English, he wanted me to know he'd collected all the refuse back
up and put it back in his car, and he pretty much just wanted to
'plead' with me and make sure I wasn't going to be reporting him
to anyone!! That was of course all a 'bit of a relief' to me
(much better than being attacked!), and a bit embarassing, and
under the circumstances, after I'd ranted on about how dumping
stuff like that was SO unecessary, I assured him I'd be doing
nothing. He wished me a Merry Christmas (which seemed doubly
absurd because I wasn't going to be having one, and considering
whatever religion it was he followed, nor was he) insisted on
shaking my hand, and off he went! Crazy. Crazy, crazy, crazy!!!!
Wonder what their immigration status is?. . I leisurely smoked my
cigarette and then wandered back down the lane to have a quick
look around with my torch. I think he was true to his word - I
could see no signs of any 'new' dumped stuff. Wonder where he
WILL be dumping it now? . . on the way home, as usual I crossed
the main road on the pedestrian controlled crossing after having
waited for the traffic lights to turn red and stop the
approaching traffic. (That is the theory of course - I've had
several near misses and have learned to keep looking both ways
inspite of the red lights, because people on that road seem to
regularly simply not see the stop lights, or often actually just
choose to drive through them!) Half way across the road, I became
aware of the revving of a motorcycle engine behind the stationary
traffic to my right. The kid without a helmet on the trials bike
with no lights, pulled out past the stationary cars, drove
through the red traffic light behind me, straight across the main
road and raced off out of sight, barely under control, down past
the shops!!! Oooooh what I'd have given to have been able to pull
him off! Grrrrr. .what I just can't reconcile in my mind of late,
is the two images - these nauseating kids running riot around the
area with their self centred antisocial behaviour - and the same
kids having trouble sleeping on Christmas eve because of their
excitement, and waking up early on Christmas morning to open
their presents!! Weird. Wonder how many local kids are gonna get
miniature motorbikes this year? :o( . . . PCd a bit of this . .
.touched base with BB . . . PS popped round for coffee and chats
until early . . . TVd/PCd until earlier. . . touched base with BB
briefly before finally to bed around 4am!! pss
22 - Woke around 7:30am to the
sound of slightly raised voices from next door. Snoozed on and
then woken by Sally after 8:30am . . . walked. . . left Sally at
home and shopped for just a couple of things - butter mostly, but
ended up buying a few other things too. Jeeze - what a nightmare
that was! Definitely started feeling a bit of 'trolley rage'!! .
. . ate half a chicken with four pieces of bread and butter. . .
napped. Woken somewhere around 4pm by LB calling in with a
christmas card (I'd told her not to!) and a small pile of more
CDs for me to rip. Uggh - more ripping. :o( . . . walked . . .
PCd music . . touched base with BB . . . PCd and listened to a
bit of music, loud with the headphones on . . . ate bowls of
co-co pops . . . TVd until bed getting on for 2am. ps
21 - Up at 8am again. . .walked.
One of the old lady dog walkers was in a bit of a panic because
she'd mislayed her dog lead. Ended up walking up and down the
field looking for it. I found it - eventually. :o) Damn - I must
know just about every blade of grass over there!!! . . . PCd
music. Actually - I never did finish converting all those tracks
(masses!!) DS sent me at 192kbps down to my more usual and
entirely acceptable 128kbps (I just want them all the same for
'consistancy'). I'm not in the mood for doing any DIY - think
I'll put in a little time sorting some of those out. Converting
the bit rates like that, saves me around 100MB per four albums,
or thereabouts. Only trouble is, the software I'm using can't do
it in one step, so I have to convert to WAV and then back to MP3,
which means I have to rebuild from scratch all the MP3 tag data!
VERY time consuming. :o( Satisfying when done. . . left the PC
running, transferred some of my savings, left Sally at home and
popped up the local PC shop and treated myself to a 200GB Maxtor
hard disk (£73) to put in the living room PC. That way (since my
secondary 'back up' drive in my main PC died on me) I can pretty
much keep a copy of everything I want to attemp to safeguard (MP3
music collection and my journal), on the machine in the living
room. Also - I'll be able to play all my music through the living
room stereo, without having to run BOTH PCs networked. Threw away
£6 on a cheap new 'Intelligent' keyboard too. (Is EVERYTHING
made in China these days?) I'm getting sick and tired of
mis-typing stuff because all the letters have worn off all my
keys - again! Maybe I should trim my nails more - although I
rather suspect it has more to do with the abbrasive effect of all
the brick dust laying on everything all the time!!. . .Mum called
to touch base and report her water heater/central heating system
had broken down!! Sheesh - what timing!! Fingers crossed for a
successful engineer visit tomorrow . . . installed the new hard
drive and set it formatting. Took a while. . . drank a glass of
red wine while the oven cooked a meat pizza with extra onion,
tomato and grated cheese. . TVd and ate pizza and then some
chocolate . .set both networked PCs copying my websites data and
all my MP3 music onto the new drive. Around a three hour
process!!! My incredible/outrageous MP3 collection now runs out
at around 21,500 files/tracks!!! OUTrageous - but SO cool to be
able to search, point, click and play any track, immediately,
on-demand like that. :o) . . .TVd . . just about to nap when Sis1
called to say she was popping in . . . Sis1 stopped by for
coffee, chats and to give me a christmas card and something
wrapped. I apologised and informed her I absolutely was NOT doing
Christmas AT ALL this year - not even a card - for anyone!
I'm just SO not in the mood, and begrudge kinda being 'forced'
into sending cards and all that nonsense - so I'm just not! First
time ever. Just tell everyone I'm Jewish this year, ok! :o! . . .
walked. . . PCd this while listening to multiple 1971 Bonnie
Raitt tracks ('Walking Blues' more than once!). . .touched base
with BB . . . ate multiple bowls of muesli . . . TVd/PCd until
bed around 1:15am. pads
20 - Up at 8am. . . walked late.
Did a little 'litter duty' and found 10p. The school breaks up at
midday today apparantly. . . PCd music files and worked at
getting into order and assimilating into my collection, the
latest batch of rips. . .in the middle of PCing, the doorbell
rang. Some young kid? Huh? Good grief - how unexpected!!!!!! :o)
Turned out to be the kid of that woman up the street who's house
was burgled on the 25th November, whose purse and store cards and
such I'd found in the street and had been able to return to her.
She'd sent him up with a Christmas card and a present, to say
thank you!!!!!!!!!! Blimey - I didn't know what to say ("You
shouldn't have!") or how to say thank you enough! The card
read "To Mr Jones. Please have a very merry christmas.
Thank you once again for helping us to regain some of our
belongings." The present was a box of expensive
'Thorntons, Premium Selection' chocolates! I was - um - 'touched'
and 'moved'. Very nice thing for her to do. See how neat the
world 'could' be?! Actually, it made me feel a bit awkward. I
mean - it wasn't as if I'd done much was it. Wasn't it what most
everyone would have done? I just don't know anymore. . despite
the 'soft and fluffy' feelings that gave me, my mind pointed out
' Yeah - but you STILL have to face the anti social yobs and
nastiness EVERY time you step outside the door don't you!!!! You
still gotta walk Sally later!' :o(. . . ate grated cheese, onion,
lettuce and tomato sandwiches with two bags of crisps, and then a
bunch of chocolate biscuits. . napped until just before 6pm. Woke
overheating and feeling sick! Too much food before sleep - or
maybe that furry, funny coloured cheese IS past its best!. . .
left the PC running convering files and walked. Found 6p. .
.threw up! PCd . . . touched base with BB . . . TVd / PCd
listening to music. Wow - who is 'Solas' (celtic music). They are
soooooo gooooood!! :o) . . .ate bowls of co-co pops and
chocolate. . . TVd until bed around 1:30am or earlier/later. pas
19 - Woken by Sally at 7:45am . .
. walked in the thawing frost around 8:30am. Damn - PS had
suggested all the kids were broken up for Christmas, and my walks
should be 'clear' now. Wrong! :o( . . . PCd all day, ripping LBs
boyfriends CD collection. .returned all but a handful around
6:30pm . . . walked after 7pm. Approaching the field, a large
group of maybe a dozen kids, some walking, some with push bikes
passed me. Shortly after, something 'wet', thrown, hit the
pavement right next to me! Couldn't figure out what had been
thrown, but something for sure. I stopped and turned and just
stared at the group, as they slowly walked down the middle of the
road, looking back to see what my reaction was. Several stopped.
One rode back a little distance, got off his bike and got one of
his friends to hold it for him. He took something from the kid
who was holding his bike and then in a very deliberate and
strangely 'careful' manner, launched something high into the air
in my direction! It was dark and I couldn't see what was aloft,
or where to go to avoid it, so there seemed little point in
moving. I didn't move. It missed - just! I started walking
towards them (definitely a pathetic bluff, considering recent
events!!) and thankfully they all ran off (blocking the main road
as they went and getting car horns blowing at them!). Heading
back into the field I fired up my torch in an attempt to see what
they had been throwing. Eggs - of course!! Little bastards! :o(
Comes to something when you can't even walk down the street
without kids throwing eggs at you. Outrageous! On THIS occasion,
I did NOT take it 'particularly' personally. After all, they were
already 'armed' weren't they. I've also seen a few egg cartons
littering the field of late, so I guess it has become a bit of a
common occurance for local kids to be throwing eggs at stuff (but
at people? That's going a step or two further isn't it?).
detoured out of the field half way through the walk, and bought
some milk. Finished the walk and then a VERY nervous walk home -
but, as it turned out, without further incident - and even the
house had NOT been egged, as I'd imagined it surely would have
been. . . called the police (seems SO silly!), just so there was
a record of tonight's incident. The guy on the phone apparantly
filled out a '420' form, which seemed fair enough, until after
he'd finished, he went on to explain how nothing about that was
computerised! The form would be paper-filed under todays date at
that police station!! Jeeze!!! Well no wonder there are never any
police around - if all the reports of anti social behaviour
incidents are just filed away in a box in some station somewhere,
never to be computer analyzed!!! What nonsense. I give up! :o( .
. .PCd just a bit more but very soon had enough for the day. .
.touched base briefly with BB . . .TVd feeling pretty fed up and
miserable. . .ate half a chicken with garlic bread and extra
butter, followed by chocolate . . . TVd until bed around 11:30pm.
pas
18 - Up just before 8am. .
.walked in the frost. Attempting to retrieve some litter, a large
glass bottle thrown under some tree branches, I succeeded in
poking my right eye with a branch!! Ouch! Ended up stumbling
around the field with water streaming from my blinded eye!
Luckily after a bit of a sit on the seat and some mopping with a
handkercheif, I was soon relatively recovered! . . . called LB
about the CD she'd said last night, I could borrow (to rip).
Popped up LBs to pick it up and ended up borrowing a huge box of
all her boyfriend's CDs! Blimey - that'lll be a few more for my
HUGE MP3 collection. Better race to get all those ripped and
returned as soon as possible - although I'm really not in the
mood for all that work! :o( . . PCd ripping CDs . . PS popped
round briefly for a quick coffee . . PCd . . ate six pieces of
bread and butter with a tin of microwaved stewed steak. . slept
the afternoon away and didn't wake until around 7:30pm!! . .
.walked . . . ripped more CDs. . . touched base with BB . . . ate
a couple of defrosted microwaved pasties with two bags of crisps.
. . TVd . . . to bed at 1am. pss
17 - Woken by Sally around 6:45am
again!? . . .walked. Huge amounts of litter all over the place so
did some 'litter duty'. I don't 'dare' to do any on a week day
now, because of the likelihood of inciting more hassle and
ridicule from the school kids!! What a world! Filled and binned
three carrier bags full, but hardly made any impression on the
mess. Can't complain though - found a £10 note. Yayyyy. :o) . .
.checked my accounts . . . back on my knees and fitted the new
hot water stop tap beneath the boiler, without any particular
trouble, and still not a leak in sight thank goodness. Dismantled
the old stop cock and verified that two rubber washers (actually
looked pretty impossible to just replace the washers) had pretty
much turned to hardened powder, as I'd suspected!! I imagine the
heat from the HOT water, reduces their lifespan considerably. . .
Mum called to touch base as I was running hot taps and checking
everything was ok . . . put a couple of the floorboards in the
bedroom back in place and then vacuumed and tidied up a little
around the place. . . LB called to touch base and report she'd
got herself a half share interest in a local allotment!!!!
That'll be a lot of work. I bet! lol . . . did dishwashing chores
while the oven reheated. . . ate half a chicken and a cheap
garlic bread stick with extra lashings of butter and then some
squares of chocolate . . . napped the afternoon away until around
5:45pm. Woke with renewed aching and stiffness in my legs. :o( .
. PS called . . .PCd this while sucking an annadin tablet, to
take the edge off my aches for walking Sally. Silly really - I
have most of that large box of co-codamol left. I ought to be
popping one or two of those instead. . .walked. Taunts of 'bin
man' and possibly some other abuse from a group of around a dozen
kids outside the chip shop :o( . . . touched base with BB . . .
PS popped round for chats and biscuits . . LB popped in briefly
during the evening. . .TVd/PCd until early. pass
16 - Woken by Sally climbing up
on the bed around 6:45am. Bit of stroking and then up at 7am. . .
walked around 7:30am. Oh my god - I am SO stiff and achey!!!!??
All the muscles in my legs seem to be aching the worst. Couldn't
even bend my legs to crouch down to do poop scooping duties (if
I'd squatted down, I wouldn't have been able to push back up!!)
and ended up trying to reach down at arms length. Big disaster
and got poop on a couple of fingers!! EEEEwwwwwww, eewww,
eeeeewwwww!!!!!! . . . PCd this with the heating on again,
occasionaly running around and looking at the pieces of newspaper
I'd placed under all the new soldered joints, looking for signs
of leaks. Fingers still crossed. :o) . Funny the timing of some
of the junk mail I get in the post. This morning I got a letter
from Bristol Water trying to get me to sign up for some expensive
Plumbing and Drainage Emergency Cover. A week or two ago I was
suddenly coincedentaly getting frequent fliers through the
letterbox from estate agents looking to sell my house for me!!!
Yeah - well - they're gonna have to wait a bit. . . .left Sally
at home and drove to Lidl for four boxes of jaffa cake supplies
and then on to Wickes at Longwell Green to buy a replacement stop
cock (£3.39) and then on to ASDA for a couple of chickens and a
handful of other stuff before filling the car up with petrol
(35.34ltrs @ £30). I'm SO stiff and achey, I even had trouble
just getting in and out of the car!!. . ate six pieces of bread
and butter ham sandwiches with two bags of crisps for an early
lunch. . . lay down before 1pm and napped the afternoon away
until shortly before 5pm! . . .PCd briefly while sucking an
annadin tablet. Walked. . . TVd and ate six pieces of bread and
butter ham, lettuce and tomato sandwiches with two bags of crisps
. . . touched base with BB . . . ate a couple of bananas . . TVd
and ate even more!! Some chocolate, a handful of chocolate
biscuits and then a few bowls of cornflakes!!! Blimey - guess I
was hungry. . eventually to bed just before 1am. pass
15 - Woke around 5am something,
snoozed on then up around 7:20am . . walked. Very
stiff and achey. :o( . . A couple of kids on their way to school
were throwing stones at stuff. (Some early twenties guy walking
across the field actually threw one back at them in anger!!) As I
walked around the field near the rugby club building, they were
launching stones over from the road, onto the roof of the
building and roundabout (and some bouncing off not far from me
and Sally!!). I walked over to the hedge and just shouted 'STOP
IT!' - which of course they didn't . . walking back past the
school with those two kids somewhere behind me, a thrown stone
bounced off the road next to me and hit a nearby parked
minibus!!!!! Grrrrr. I ended up walking back towards them and
giving them some "Idiots! Haven't got a brain cell between
you!" abuse. Amazing how all these kids around here are
brought up to immediately lie and deny
having done anything - even when they know, you just saw them do
it, right in front of your face! Idiots, all. . .PCd this,
putting off having another go at tackling that really awkward
leaking central heating joint. Much colder weather forecast for
the weekend apparantly. Typical! :o( . . . ended up being pretty
much a re-run of yesterday, racing around for hours, draining the
heating system, re-soldering leaky joints, refilling the system -
repeat, repeat, repeat!!!! I need more practice at soldering
pipes. How on earth that plumber guy who did my gas pipes was SO
100% confident his joints wouldn't leak, is beyond me. I seem to
have a knack of being able to solder up a joint, only to find
that the flux forms part of the seal, and as soon as it gets warm
under pressure, it blows the flux out and leaks!!! . . at some
point during the battle, the electric meter reader called at the
door. Poor guy. He was nervous of barking Sally (shut in the
kitchen) and wanted reassurance it was safe to come in. That was
the least of his worries! I answered the door with a knife in one
hand!!! :o( . . .at long long last, approaching 6pm, it appeared
that I MAY have succeeded in making all the joints watertight.
The trade off for that was, I now have no hot water!!!!!!!!! The
stop tap/valve just beneath the boiler on the hot water supply
has developed a leak. Understatement actually. Obviously the seal
around the tap handle part has failed completely, and with it
open even the smallest amount, a jet of water rushes straight
out! WHAT a pain! Gonna have to replace all that now! Oh well -
with a kettle and electric shower, I hardly ever use the hot tap
anyway. Forced to make a choice at this time of year, I'd rather
have heat than hot water. . . ran the heating up pretty hot,
until the house felt like a greenhouse (but probably felt that
hot because I was all up tight and hot and bothered and racing
around checking all the pipes and radiators everywhere) and still
no leaks. Oooooh fingers crossed. . . walked just before 7pm.
Just inside the field was a small dark shape on the grass.
Luckily I spotted it before Sally and managed to get her back on
her lead before shining my torch on the cute, grass munching
rabbit. The stupid thing just sat there! Eventually Sally,
straining on her leash, dragged me towards it (almost off my
feet) and it suddenly ran off into the cover of the brambles. :o)
. . Stopped for jumbo sausage and chips takeaway on the way home.
. . TVd and ate . . tidied up just a little and then put the
heating on again. It'll be a few hot/cold 'cycles' before I'm
confident nothing is gonna leak and I can put the floorboards
back down. :o/ . . . touched base with BB, but only briefly. SO
exhausted, I just wanted to 'sit', quietly. . . blobbed in front
of the TV (although occasionaly my paranoia got the better of me
and I had to go checking for leaks) until bed around 11pm. D.I.Y.
tip of the day. Do not use a gas blow lamp on the back of your
fingers. It hurts like hell and makes all the skin bubble up and
come off!!!!! ps
14 - Woken by Sally just after
8am. . .walked . . . slow getting going but around 11am
eventually mustered up the courage/energy to have a go at
altering the central heating pipes and getting the back bedroom
radiator re-connected in its new position, and have a couple of
capped off pipes for an eventual connection to a run up into the
attic, clipped to the side of the firebreast wall in the back
bedroom. Doesn't sound like much, but with having to run around
all over the house turning off radiators, pulling up floorboards,
draining the system, cutting into the existing pipes, making new
runs, blow lamp soldering in awkward tight spaces, etc, etc, etc
- it was a LOT of work! It didn't go well - and the first attempt
at a re-pressurisation of the system revealed that just about
every joint that I'd soldered was leaking!!!!!!!!! :o( Trouble
with that happening so I've found is that once you've
reintroduced water into the system, it's damn near impossible to
drain it all out to enable an attempt at re-soldering. Ended up
having to cut out a couple of pieces of new pipe and re-do it
all. :o( . . around 7pm I had another go at pressurising the
system, only to find I STILL had a leak, from one of THE most
awkwardly placed 'T' joints! Bugger! So - no heating in the house
for a while! :o( . . . walked, aching all over (bad back in
particular) like I'd just done a strenuous work out! Found 8p.
Actually relatively mild out for the time of year, and I was
wearing too many layers and overheating. . All but one of the
street lights near the field were all intact, lit and working.
:o) Seemed strangely quiet out. . One of the dog walkers remarked
on how there had been a 'large' police presence in the area
lately. Huh? Turned out she'd seen several of them last night, a
little further down the main road - two on push bikes and one on
a horse!!! Blimey. Wonder what (really bad?) must happened to get
them out (temporarily) in the area like that? . . stopped for
jumbo sausage and chips takeaway on the way home . . just down
the road (in my 'usual' direction, I no longer walk) , a large
group of kids were taking it in turns to go running across the
road and then throw themselves into someones garden hedge and
garden!!!!! I don't suppose the occupant of the house would dare
to object would they! :o( . . . ate chips in front the TV and
then touched base with BB . . felt oh SO
EXHAUSTED!! Struggled to stay awake watching TV before eventually
to bed around 10:30pm. p
13 - Woken by Sally at 8am.
Headachey! :o( . . . opened the living room curtains only to be
immediately confronted by a couple of schoolkids on their way to
school, stop opposite and attempt to remove the badges from the
neighbour's cars parked on their drive!! They were unsuccessful I
believe, and eventually carried on their way, little angels! :o(
. . PCd this, so I could walk later avoiding the school kids . .
. walked around 9am. Bumped into that guy down the road who does
up houses and who'd also been the victim of a yob assault. He
asked me if I'd had any more 'problems' recently. I said, 'touch
wood', things seem to have quietened down a bit of late.
Suprisingly, he mentioned the name of Little Xxxxxx (despite me
never having told him)!!!!???? I asked how he knew and he said
something about how 'people talk'. I asked what he'd heard about
the incident and he said the story was that I'd hit the kid!
Grrrrr. :o( He confirmed he knew the kid and that he was no good
and out of control. He'd allegedly - seen him jumping up and down
on a nice old car that used to be parked near his house, and had
also seen him walk into the road and deliberately stand there
laughing, obstructing a learner driver in the middle of doing a
driving test!!! Ahuh! :o( . . . just about to go into the field
when I spotted a van pulling up about to start doing maintainence
on the street lights. He pulled up underneath a light which was
fixed just a couple of days ago, but which now once again had the
lamp fitment at the top dislodged from its post mount and
dangerously just hanging from its wire and swinging in the
breeze! Doing my 'old man busy body' thing, I wandered over and
explained that I'd called the council the other day, and then
pointed out ALL the lights in the vicinity which I knew needed
attention, a couple of which they'd missed the other day (and
also mentioned my suspicion that one light had been removed and
not replaced when the road was dug up - but I don't think he
cared). He didn't seem to mind me sticking my nose in (I
justified having a word with him by saying how scary at night it
was around there without decent lights), and I asked him out of
interest, how on earth the vandals manage to destroy the tall
ones like that. Turns out, despite the lamp fitments being
clamped to the top of the pole, if you just continually
push/shake the pole from the bottom, the oscillations will
eventually dislodge the fitment!!! Good grief - given they had
that knowledge - you'd have thought it would be pretty easy to
alter things to prevent it, and save all that money on sending
someone out with a hydraulic platform every few days!!!???
Bizarre. . by the time I was leaving the field he had moved on to
the other lights I'd pointed out, and was adding a whole new
fitting to replace the one which I'd seen laying in the hedge
(and which was subsequently moved into the street and smashed to
pieces by someone and traffic). Wonder how long they'll last this
time? Found 11p. . .Yayyyyyyyy. Five £50 premium bond wins in
the mail this month. Happy Christmas. :o) (although - I've
unilaterally decided to utterly ignore christmas this year. Not
even sure I'm gonna bother with all that nauseating
obligation/hassle of sending cards. What exactly IS the point?
HUMBUG!). . balanced my accounts and then rang up my bank and
transferred some money. . . walked with Sally up to Kingswood to
bank the PSB cheques . . . returned Mums ansaphone call and
touched base . . . ate six buttered, grated-cheese covered,
toasted crumpets . . . napped from before 2pm until around
4:30pm. Healthwise, (aside from the subsiding pain from my ribs
and increased congestion in my lungs) I've not been feeling quite
right since 'the attack' . Can't quite put my finger on it, but I
don't feel as 'clear' in my head much of the time somehow, - and
it seems as though I'm only able to muster the energy to do less
and less each day. Walk Sally, a quick wander up to the bank, and
that's me pretty much done for the day!!!!!!??? :o( . . .walked.
Found 2p. The street light that guy attended to this morning, and
one of the others wasn't lit! Surely he would have tested them?!!
Approaching the field, a large group of maybe eight kids were all
assembled in the shadows. One of them called out to me, but NOT
with the more customary abuse I've become used to. He seemed
insistant so rather than continue to ignore them, I DID walk over
for a word as he'd 'requested'. Turned out to be that same kid
that's been calling out about me having taken his Betty.
Basically, I think he pretty much wanted me to recount the tail
of the policeman driving it away, to his disbelieving friends. It
was a coldly calulated act on my part, that engaging in such a
conversation with those kids and having at least a little kinda
non confrontational 'lets laugh about it - together' dialogue,
could actually make MY life a bit easier around here!! I used the
angle of explaining that on that night when they'd been stood
there in the bushes with the bike, if I hadn't intervened, with a
police chase and helicopter going on all around, it was THEM who
WOULD have been caught! Unfortunately I couldn't help going a
little bit into 'preaching mode' and tried to explain why I'd
call the police if I ever saw someone (them) breaking the law.
"Would you call the police if you saw someone bunking
off?" one of them asked. No - but I'd like to! And then off
I went into why they shouldn't bunk off!!!!! "Yeah, but you
wouldn't call them if you saw us smoking dope would you" one
said (because clearly I HAVE seen them smoking before now - yep -
I think I can remember the time), and I had to admit, I probably
wouldn't - but added I WOULD if I saw them dealing (which - don't
ask me to explain how - but I'm pretty sure that kid DOES deal a
bit!!!). Then I was encouraged by comments from one of them about
the risks of psychological problems, to launch into why people of
such a young age shouldn't smoke. (I'm no judge of such things -
but if that little Xxxxxx person was eleven, then some of those
kids MUST have been in single figures!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!). Yeah -
like anything 'I' say is gonna make a difference to the way they
are flushing their lives down the toilet! Well - that'll teach
them to speak to me! lolol Eventually carried on with the walk -
feeling as though the conversation had been 'beneficial' - to me.
.back out of the field and the kids had gone. Checked out a big
new notice, hardly visible in the dark, attached to the lampost
that wasn't lit that the guy had worked on this morning. Turned
out to be one of those crazy (bluff/wishful thinking?) police
notices announcing that regular off-road patrols were being done
in this area! It actually had the effect of making me say out
loud "Yeah f****** right!" in disbelief. . found 2p. .
some of the same group of kids were now hanging around by the
chip shop. As I passed, I became aware of some 'slightly' older
guy dressed in black, wheeling away a push bike from them and off
across the main road. Huh?I couldn't work out what was going on,
and became fixated on a strange red flashing light coming from
his mobile phone clipped to his lapel!?? I was so preoccupied
staring at his red light, I didn't respond particularly well when
he said good evening and I belatedly realised it was a
policeman!! Funny thing was - that same kid who said I'd taken
his Betty, was the one who'd just had the bike taken from him. He
'good naturedly-ish' called out to me across the road that he'd
just had his ?????? (another nick name) taken!! Being all
'matey'-ish again, I exchanged a word or two and asked him who
HE'D taken the bike from and how come the 'copper' wasn't taking
HIM as well! His story was (and around this crazy twilight zone
it WAS 'almost' believable) that he'd found it dumped at another
small nearby grass area (from where I actually salvaged some
dumped bike parts myself once!!). Well - I guess the policeman
believed him. Bet it didn't even cross his mind to do a search
for drugs on such a small child!! . Bizarre, bizarre bizarre.
Ended up walking home actually talking out loud to myself (which
I can get away with, cause I 'could' be talking to Sally) saying
how absolutely f***ing crazy the world, especially round here,
has become! . . .BB called briefly from a payphone, because her
phone line was laying in pieces in the street!!?. . .PCd this . .
. TVd and 'did my duty' of watching this months Crimewatch UK . .
.ate bowls of co-co pops. . . touched base with BB . . .TVd/PCd
until early. paass
12 - Woken by Sally at 7:30am. .
.walked. On the way back from the field I had to pass a small
group of kids by the school, all stood chatting and smoking
(instead of actually going IN to lessons!). A couple of them
started on about how I used to be a policeman!!??? One of them
started up with that same calling out that I've been confused by
before. This time I understood the words. "He took our
clunk. He took our f****** Betty!" In as good natured a way
as I could, I stopped and pointed out that I was not and had
never been a policeman, but I WAS 'old fashioned' and WOULD call
the police if I EVER saw something illegal going on right in
front of me - and just exactly what the hell did he mean by
calling that out at me all the time? Aha. I'd suspected as much
(despite not being able to recognise one hooded yob from
another!). God - it's SUCH a relief when my tortured, paranoid
mind is proved to have actually reached the right
conclusion about such things!! He'd been one of those kids in the
bushes on the 3rd of November with the stolen C90 motorbike!!!!
He claimed it was his ('Clunk' and 'Betty' being his nick names
for it) and he'd bought it - and I'd taken it away from him.
Trying to keep up my good natured 'matey' act, I actually told
him about how the policeman had turned up and then driven it off,
and how funny it was to see. As I carried on my way with a smile,
he was complaining that he'd put half a tank of gas in it! lolol
Well - lets hope that puts an end to his calling that out at me
all the time. Probably not. At least, now I know - and will be
less fearful and more able to smile when I hear the taunting. :o/
Found 3p. . . PCd this. . .left Sally at home and drove to Wickes
at Longwell Green for a couple of short lengths (2.4m) of plaster
edge bead, some plaster and some galvanised clout nails (£7.84).
. . cut to fit, nailed and cemented the edge bead onto the bit of
wall at the top of the stairs. The wall is SO uneven, it didn't
go very well and will require quite a bit of further attention -
and maybe some grinding back with the disc cutter before any
attempts at plastering! :o( . .too late for a nap so PCd a bit.
.walked. Round by the shops, a group of kids including little
Xxxxxx were hanging around. Little Xxxxxx was attempting to
vandalise/remove the top of the pillarbox as I passed by!!!
Taunts of bin man etc. called after me. . On the way back from
the field the kids had gone - and so had the entire little
plastic covered 'window' on the front of the pillarbox that gives
details of the collection times etc. :o( . . . TVd while the oven
reheated food. . ate garlic bread and half a chicken and then
half a bar of chocolate. . .touched base with BB . . . TVd until
bed at midnight. ps
11 - Woken by BB calling around
7:30am . . today I will NOT be doing any rendering! Ouch! :o( .
TVd and watched a bit of the live coverage of the big oil fire in
Hemel Hempstead. . . . walked. The recently repaired street sign
illumination light has been smashed again.
Found an 18" hacksaw with a weird wide blade
(badly worn needing replacement), frosted to the grass. Salvaged
it to add to my tool collection. I think it'll take a more
'normal' blade . . TVd more news channels while eating four
pieces of toast with marmalade and jam. . . felt dreadfully tired
and ended up going back to bed! Slept through ansaphone messages
until early afternoon. . . TVd/PCd. . . PS called, still battling
away with his PC problem. Made a rather useless suggestion or two
. . . PCd and put in some hours attempting to come up with a new
list of all the music in my collection, for my badly outdated
website page. Ended up downloading a 'Windows XP Winter 2003 Fun
Pack', just to be able to get hold of the media player 'Media
Info Exporter' plug in. That enabled me to export all my media
player library Tag information for manipulation in Excel/Access
etc. Put in hours of work before coming up with a half finished
decent list. . walked in the fog and found a penny. . .PCd some
more, only to end up with a massive list of over three and a half
thousand entries!!! Eventually had to conclude (after crashing
the machine more than once ) that no way was I gonna be able to
get that lot on a web page! Stupid waste of time!! . . . touched
base with BB . . TVd . . ate a tin of stewed steak and five
pieces of bread and butter followed by half a bar of chocolate.
Felt increasingly weird/unwell and 'out of sorts', almost fell
asleep in the chair in front of the TV, and eventually ended up
in bed before midnight. ps
10 - Woken by Sally earlier but
she allowed me to snooze on until I woke around 8:20am. . .
walked late. There's been a broken spade laying in the field for
the last few days. Actually - I think it's been laying under a
bush for several months, but the recent fall of leaves has
revealed it. Someone in the night had picked it up, walked it
over to the school fence and hurled it high in the air and over,
smashing one of the sports hall windows! :o( . . . trimmed with
the disc cutter, that piece of black Indian flag stone I bagged
from the reclamation yard, and cemented it in on the top of that
low wall at the top of the stairs. Not sure it worked out too
well - but I'm working at stuff with a different attitude now -
definitely less 'perfectionist' (although I wouldn't call
ANYTHING I've done in this house, 'perfect' at all! Just
remembered - I've not yet mentioned here how over the last few
weeks, all the plaster on the wall immediately behind the central
heating radiator in the living room has been 'cooked' off the
wall, is threatening to actually fall off, and will have to all
be re-done!! Not sure what I did wrong - won't know until I
remove the radiator to investigate and attend to it. I BET it's
something to do with that rubberised damp proof sealant, drying
out too much with the extreme heat of the radiator. :o( ) .
trimmed a floorboard and a couple of ceiling laths out of the
way, hacked off just a little more of the dust plaster from the
edge of the back bedroom firebreast and then mixed up a load of
cement in the mixer and rendered the bit of wall in the corner.
In that corner is the couple of inches void I've left between the
firebreast and the new stud wall, to take the wiring and
eventually some central heating pipes up into the attic. With
that bit of wall all rendered, when it's dry, I'm clear to start
thinking about altering the heating system pipes and maybe
reconnecting the radiator in the back bedroom. Unfortunately, my
plan of temporarily having the pipes just go straight up into the
attic a couple of feet above the floor level, to be capped off
with a compression fitting, isn't going to be possible! I'd
forgotten that right above where they will go up, is one of the
double joist attic floor beams. That's gonna complicate matters
and may force me into doing more of the plumbing in the attic
than I'd wanted to at this stage. :o( . . mixed up too much
cement and ended up having to use it to render up a
'vertical-to-aim-for' on part of the stripped-back-to-brick wall
facing the top of the stairs. Lots more strenuous work than I'd
planned!! . . vaccumed a little and cleaned up by around 2:30pm.
. ate half a chicken and a cheap garlic bread stick, re-heated in
the oven, with massive amounts of extra
butter!!. . . napped from around 4pm until PS ansaphone message
woke me around 6pm. Ouch - my chest is hurting - differently!
Definitely over did it with all that rendering earlier, although
I'm gonna try and resist taking any more of those pain killers I
think. . .walked . . . PCd this . . .touched base with BB . . .
PS popped round for chats and chocolate biscuits until early. . .
touched base with BB until early before bed long after 2am. ps
9 - Woken by Sally around
7:15am. . .walked. Someone taunting me with calls of 'bin man'.
Yet more evidence of vandalised street lights near the field! It
really is getting frighteningly dark on that corner at night
these days. Can't imagine how those lights are vandalised like
that - to the extent of having the entire light fitment removed
from the top of the high pole and smashed all around. One
'relatively' intact (almost tempted to salvage the light
sensitive sensor) was actually laying in the hedge! . mentioned
the state of the school wall to one of the teachers on gate duty.
A large portion of the bricks below the fence near the side
entrance, where all the kids climb over, had been dislodged and
was clearly pretty dangerous and would require some serious
rebuilding!! . . . sat down to address a couple of envelopes,
noticed the 'Important Numbers' leaflet next to me, and actually
ended up ringing up the listed council phone number and informing
them of the location of multiple broken street lights and street
sign illumination lights. Actually - I'm still pretty convinced
that an entire street light was removed and not replaced when
those guys from the building site dug up the road a while back. I
really have turned into the local 'old man busy-body' haven't
I!!! . . walked with Sally round the local sub post office and
mailed a couple of letters . . . TVd . . .my chest is still
feeling permanently 'uncomfortable' in places, but it IS a lot
improved. Dared to put in a couple of hours messing around at the
top of the stairs with cutting/drilling/fixing and cementing a
couple of edge beads to the end of the low bit of wall adjacent
to the attic doorway. Nothing heavy or strenuous. Think it went
ok, but sure felt exhausted afterwards, for such a small amount
of work!!! . . . ate corned beef, grated cheese, mayo, onion,
tomato and lettuce sandwiches with two bags of (eat before
October'05!!) crisps and then a handful of biscuits . . . napped
from around 3 until 6pm. Felt a bit achey and nauseus for a
while! :o( . . PCd this . . . walked. Some kid playing football
in the road with a friend (REALLY dangerous place to do so!!)
suddenly spoke to me and thanked me for returning their
stuff!!!!?? Turned out it was a kid who lived in that house that
was burgled last week . just round the corner a large group of
kids hanging around outside the chip shop was truer to form. Some
verbal abuse and what I presume was the same kid as once before,
swearing at me and calling out 'E took our
<unintelligable>, 'e took our f***ing betty!!'. What on
earth does that mean? What AM I being accused of??!!???. .at
least one of the street lights, and the vandalised street sign
illumination light had been fixed - although there are STILL two
consecutive street lights down that road missing the light
fitting/not working!. . . surfed property sites . . . turned on
both networked PCs and listened to music, loud through the
stereo, in the living room. . . returned BBs call and touched
base. . . ate two defrosted pasties with two bags of crisps . . .
TVd/PCd until bed around 2am. ps
8 - Up around 7:45am. . . walked
. . . walked with Sally up to Kingswood to draw out some money,
pick up a passport application form from the post office (mine
has expired!) and buy a handful of birthday cards. Found a penny.
. ate a couple of buttered crumpets . . . TVd/PCd . . . napped
the afternoon away . . .ate a couple of bananas and a handful of
biscuits. . . walked . . . returned Mums ansaphone calls . . .
TVd . . . BB called . . . ate multiple bowls of co-co pops . .
.LB called briefly, enquiring if I wanted to have, to have a go
at fixing, her relatively new washing machine which she can't
seem to fix and which she's gonna replace. It is SUCH a new
expensive one, ordinarily I would probably have given it a go,
but I've changed of late - I just can't be bothered with such
things any more. :o( I declined. . .TVd until bed around
midnight. pcccs
7 - Up around 7:15am. Headachey
again! . . . walked in the frost . . . balanced my accounts . . .
left Sally at home and drove to ASDA at Longwell Green to stock
up on coffee, sugar, dog food etc. . .cooked and ate mushrooms,
onion, fried potato, ham ring and four pieces of bread and butter
followed by squares of chocolate. . .TVd . . . napped from around
3pm until 6pm . . . walked in the rain . . . TVd. . . touched
base with BB . . . ate corned beef sandwiches with two bags of
crisps. . . TVd until bed around 1am. pccs
6 -
Woken by Sally
around 8:30am. . . walked late after 9am. Did a couple of carrier
bags of 'litter duty'. Collected up all the fire extinguishers
that were littering the field and then reported where they were
(until the school kids get out) to the local police, for what
it's worth. THAT explains the weird 'metalic banging against the
swing frame' noises that were emanating from that rowdy group of
kids last night! Found 3p. . . PCd this . . .TVd . . . ate half a
chicken with four pieces of bread and butter and then a few
squares of chocolate . . .napped until around 3pm . . . Tvd/PCd
and put in a little time bringing my 'Hood' page a little more up to date with most of the
relevant recent events. I live amongst all this, so it's
difficult to be objective - but with it all layed out in front of
me like that, considering how small a world I live in (just
walking my dog twice a day round the local field - I've seriously
considered counting the paces to record here, so few are they!),
it IS a lot of 'stuff' going on, isn't it??? Been a busy month!!!
:o( . . .walked. The fire extinguishers (three of them at least)
were still there, thrown around by the kids and by now all dented
and the worse for wear. What a waste! . . TVd more bike building
channels . .ate multiple bowls of co-co pops and squares of
chocolate. . . touched base with BB. . . TVd until bed around
midnight. pccs
5 - Up around 7:30am. Headachey.
. .walked around 8:15am. Carried on and walked down to Eastville
Park, along the river (past a burned out car) and then up onto
the hill at Purdown. Well - if I'd 'put money on it' last night,
I would have lost it! No sign of any new burned out car up there
anywhere - and in fact, the one I took a picture of the last time
I was up there has been removed. Weird - wonder what it was I saw
making that light in the distance last night? Intriguing. . was
sat on the top of the hill by the monument with Sally when I
spotted a fox, way off down below in the distance near the lake.
Sally eventually saw it too, and ignoring my frantic calls for
her to 'come', she raced off down the hill after it. The fox
thankfully disappeared into the safety of some brambles. Very
weird feeling to be stood at the top of that hill and just have
to powerlessly watch, as Sally did her wolf impression/hunting
thing far off below. Eventually she returned. . . back down to
Snuff Mills, along the brown and swollen river and then back up
through Fishponds and a quick stop off at the Morrisons store for
a couple of ready cooked chickens. Blimey - two for £4 now!!
They'll be giving them away soon at this rate. :o) Back home by
around 11:30am. Found 10p along the way. . . returned Mums
ansaphone call . . . ate half a chicken with four pieces of bread
and butter and then a few squares of chocolate . . .napped until
around 4pm. Still a bad headache!!? . . . TVd/PCd. . .walked and
found a penny. Some passing kid actually passed the time of day
with me and wanted to stroke Sally and such! Took me SO by
suprise (and with my poisoned mind I assumed there was probably
an alterior suspicious motive) I probably appeared abrupt and
rude. It's just SO unusual these days around here - although - a
kid (maybe the same one?) said something like 'all right?' as I
passed a couple of them last night. I'd concluded he was just
being 'big' and 'cocky' in front of his mates. . Big group of
rowdy kids assembled by the swings in the dark. One of the dog
walkers told tales of having seen some of them kicking parked
cars, writing foul words in the condensation on the windscreens,
and a couple of others kicking down someones garden fence (and
STILL she doesn't attempt to report it or do anything about what
she sees!??? Weird - although - maybe MY experiences have warned
off, so doing!) . . .headache eased but still felt a bit out of
sorts. . PCd property a little. . .TVd and ended up watching
'guy' stuff (car and bike renovation / building) on the new
channels. How sad am I! Once I used to build ('assemble' really)
and ride my own custom bikes - now all I do is watch someone else
do it on TV!!!! :o( Makes me want to get back on one! . .
.touched base with BB . . .ate a couple of bananas, biscuits and
chocolate. . . TVd/PCd until early. Wow - this weeks special deal
in one of those 'cheap' stores is a £90'ish set of night vision
binoculars! How bizarre - but how neat that'd be over that field
- but how hard to explain!! lololol. Gay marriage became law this
day. pccccs
4 - Woken by Sally at 8:10am. .
. walked. Lots of evidence laying around of more things afoot in
the night - most likely a stolen moped. Bits of a wiring loom
laying on the pavement, a cracked ignition lock in the gutter,
loads of 'doughnut' and tyre marks in the grass, and a green
plastic petrol container left on the grass just inside the field
(which I think a dog walker bagged for himself). . . TVd . . .
ate four pieces of toast with marmalade and jam . . . napped
until woken around 2:45pm by BB calling. . . TVd and ate
chocolate . . . back to sleep until around 6pm . . . walked. Sat
on a boulder for my cigarette - felt kinda quiet out. Way off in
the distance, a few miles away up near the monument on Purdown,
there was an unusual light in the middle of what is usualy just a
dark silhouetted hill. Couldn't really tell from such a great
distance, but I'd put money on that being another stolen dumped
burned car up there. . . PCd a bit of this while drinking wine
and listening to some Tracy Chapman. 'Behind
the Wall' "Last night I heard the screaming,loud
voices behind the wall. 'Nother sleepless night for me, it won't
do no good to call. The police, always come late, if they come at
all". . TVd . .tipsy on one glass
of wine!! :o) . . . ate corned beef, lettuce and coleslaw
sandwiches with two bags of crisps . . .touched base with BB . .
. ate huge amounts of chocolate and TVd lots of channels :o)
until bed around 1am. pccccds
3 - Up around 7:45am. Still
raining!. .hmmm - not sure which bit of what I did yesterday was
a mistake (sawing the scrap wood in half?), but I think I've
aggravated my painful chest and have set things back a step or
two! :o( That's the trouble with jacking up on pain killers like
I have been - you don't realise what damage you may be doing
until they wear off! With my slightly better mood yesterday, I
was even almost tempted to start gently having a go at some of
the lighter 'building work' at the top of the stairs. I think I
MUST resist any such desires, for a while longer yet!! :o( Maybe
I WILL have those extra TV channels put on, since all I can do is
just sit around at the moment anyway! . . . walked in the heavy
rain. Found a penny and some sort of cheap metal bangle to add to
my 'jewellery collection'. Actually - I've added that big silver
earring I've worn for years, to the collection in the cupboard.
It got torn out and bent when that guy 'attacked' me - I
surprisingly found it lying on the carpet amongst the eggs at the
bottom of the stairs when I cleaned up afterwards. I think I've
reached an age and state of mind where wearing 'jewellery' is no
longer something I'm gonna do. Too old for that. Just a watch (so
I can know what day, month AND year it is when I need to!). .
.sat around as the rain poured yet more. It hardly gets light
when the weather is like this!! . . PCd this. . . Mum called and
chatted to an obviously slightly happier me - which hopefully
made her happier. She's having her own 'winter blues down' at the
moment it would appear. She's missing Dad. :o( . . .PS called
about a spyware type problem he was working on with his PC. I
wasn't much use (cause I think it was 'user error' and he's
actually installed something nasty)
other than to suggest going onto the Microsoft site and
downloading their spyware beta. . actually - I haven't done that
myself yet! Set the machine running and downloaded (SUCH a pain
with only a dial up still!) and eventually installed the
software. Actually almost disappointed it reported I was all
clean. I'd rather hoped it'd find something and speed up the
machine! . . . at last - got round to changing the worn washer on
the kitchen tap. Such a pleasure to have it all renewed and
cleaned and back working smoothly like it should. Nice to have
some 'flow control' back after the last few weeks of pretty much
either on (with the possibility of noisy 'bouncing' pipes) or
off! . . . cooked and ate mushrooms, onion, fried potato, ham
ring and four pieces of bread and butter . . . napped until woken
around 5pm to the sound of next door arguing with her boyfriend -
although all I could really hear was pretty much him! :o( Hard to
explain, but there's something about the way he speaks -
arrogant/irritating somehow. . . walked in light drizzle . . .
succumbed to temptation, rang the cable company, and had all the
extra channels put on for an extra £10 per month! . . PS called
about his PC again but I was no help at all. . . PS popped round
for chats . . . BB called briefly. . . ate biscuits and jaffa
cakes with coffees. . .PS left around 12:30am. Next door and her
boyfriend (apparantly been out) returned home around 1am and
promptly started their argument again!! It got bad - it got loud
- it got 'physical' (but I can't be sure in what way - despite
actually putting my ear (a traditional wine glass is best) to the
wall!!!!!!!!!!!!!) :o( Horrible, horrible, horrible thing to have
to hear - little snippets of intelligable shouting amidst the
banging and crying - on tenderhooks - ('are you happy now?' he
said at one point as she cried, although I got the impression SHE
was physically preventing him from
walking out the door "stay and TALK to me!") not
knowing if it had escalated to such a degree that calling the
police was necessary. The following silence was probably worse. .
. called BB and touched base. I just needed to hear - um -
someone 'good'!. . .PCd/TVd . . eventually to bed, deep into
early. pccccss
2 - Woken by Sally more than
once then eventually managed to get up around 8am . . . walked in
rain showers. Spotted a toad on the way home, in the gutter next
to a parked car, trying to hold its position against the rivers
of rain. Not a healthy place for it to be, so popped it in a poop
scoop bag and relocated it to one of the little 'caves' I made in
the raised bed in the back yard. . . PCd and set updates
downloading and such. Did a bunch of laundry/vacuuming and
cleared up just a little. Even sawed a piece of scrap wood in
half so it would fit in the bin. Took a 'herculean' effort to get
on and do something, but felt better for it afterwards. Actually,
I guess I just feel a bit 'better' today, thank goodness. Even
came very close to calling the cable company and treating myself
to having all the extra channels put on for Christmas - although
managed to resist in the end - but I suspect, not for long. . .
ate half a chicken, coleslaw and four pieces of bread and butter
in front of 'Hill Street Blues' on the TV. . . slept the
afternoon away until woken by Sally around 6:20pm . . . walked in
the cold wind and yet more rain . . .TVd and drank a glass of
wine . . . touched base with BB . . . ate multiple bowls of
cornflakes . . . BB called again briefly . . . TVd until bed
around midnight. . . some of the nonsense I record here (like
what I eat - and when I used to 'rate' my daily mood out of
ten!!) was originally done in an attempt to identify any possible
causes or patterns to my spontaneous 'down' moods. Funny how BB
is aware (more than I am!) that I usually DO have a 'down' at
around this time of year!!!! I'm more aware of having a down in
the early part of the year, when the long winter months seem to
have worn me down. I've that to look forward to - probably
coinciding with a court case!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :o( pccccsd
1 - Up around 7:20am again. Wow
- I'm glad to see the back of that month! It's been awful! . .
PCd looking at property in the U.S. (!!!!) until around 8:30am .
. . walked in the rain and found 2p . . .PCd a bit of this - but
really just can't be bothered with the typing. Can't seem to
shake the involuntary mental response to every attempt at trying
to force myself to do something - ANYthing!
(Can't even find a TV show I can be 'assed' to watch!) !! The
response is - 'yah F*** it'. I'm pretty down right now - and this
is ON fluoxetine!!!! Shit! :o( . Funny thing is - hard to explain
- but despite how it may look, the 'down' isn't 'particularly'
connected with 'recent events'. That was all just 'another' brush
stroke on the big canvas. The 'darkness' of the work, the hues
and tones, remain the same as they always have been - just that
the picture is a little more complete. Considering the
limitations of the pallet - what the hell am I supposed to try
and paint?. . Mum called - and I rather suspect, regretted it! .
. . blah blah blah! . yah F*** it. . . ate half a chicken with
four pieces of bread and butter. . . PCd/slept. . walked in the
torrential rain and waterlogged mud. . .TVd and drank wine. .
touched base with BB . . ate buttered golden syrup cake . . . PCd
looking at property in Kentucky for hours, as heavy rain
continued to pour!! Astonishingly cheap - for lots
of acres!?. touched base with BB again before surfing more, until
around 4am, before bed!!! Difficulty getting to sleep - didn't
take enough pain killers today. The pain from my chest is
definitely improved (oh SO slowly!) - but is still very much
there when the tablets wear off. :o( pccssd
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