July
1 - Woken late after 9am by
noise from a neighbour working on his car outside . . .walked
real late in the already stifling heat. Did a little litter duty
and collected up all the beer bottles in a carrier bag and put it
in the freshly burned out bin, by the seat. . . Mum called to
touch base and confirm the poetry books I'd ordered for her, had
at last arrived (albeit a £ or so more than they'd told me
they'd be! Grrr). . .PCd just a bit of this with the fan on next
to me. I don't want to be awake . . . LB called at the door and
dropped off some sausage rolls she didn't want. Nice one. :o)
That'll be lunch then - and I may even get away without having to
wipe off a plate from the piles that all need washing. . .TVd/PCd
. . . ate LBs sausage rolls with crisps . . .TVd/PCd attempting
to avoid the England v Portugal football match. Difficult because
of the horrible shouts and 'animal' noises emanting from
supporters around the area - and from the 'inbreeds' pub in
particular. . eventually changed channels and bumped into the
very end of the match which was a penalty shoot out thingy. I
confess, it was quite interesting when down to that. Every time
someone took a shot, I quickly flicked over to my CCTV camera to
listen to the neighborhood response. I had to resist cheering
myself, when the England team lost. :o) The neighborhood seemed
very quiet all of a sudden. lololol Very glad that nonsense is
all over and done with. . Has anyone else noticed what has become
of the BBC News? There was a time when you assumed you could
pretty much rely on the BBC to give a decent, 'relatively'
unbiased view of what was happening in the world. The more you
come to notice it, and the more you look at other news services,
the more blatant it is, that the BBC news is now almost some sort
of 'populist light entertainment' program with less and less
actual content! They constantly see the need to report 'live from
the scene', continualy when absolutely nothing is to be gained
from doing so, since whatever is being reported happened there
hours or days before! A presenter pointlessly stood at any time
of the day in front of the rotating sign outside the police HQ in
London seems to be a particular favourite. If they cut back on
the mindless unecessary to and fro chat between the presenters,
they'd be able to get more reports in the alotted time! And as
for whoever decides what we get to hear about - sheesh - is the
result of the football really worthy of being the headline main
story, to the exclusion of who knows what?! Appalling. RIP the
BBC!. . . walked and found £1.10p. The chip shop guy was stood
outside his shop and exchanged a few words. He told me the first
name of 'the girl' who's been causing me grief! So - now I know.
(Xxxxxxx 'the teenage' bitch? lol) . as we stood outside his shop chatting, there was
what sounded like a bang from the main road behind us, which drew
our attention. A car on the absolute very edge of losing control,
came screaming round the junction in the middle of the road,
raced past the shops and then raced off down another street.
Turned out, he was being chased by the police. I think he may
have been of Asian origin. Seconds later a police car went
sailing past on the main road - having missed the turn! The
police car eventually turned at a nearby junction and headed off
in the direction the fleeing offender had gone! Ho hum. I only
mention this because, given the trajectory of the offending car
on the junction, the excessive speed he was travelling, how the
bits of road he was on were covered in gravel because they are
not driven on by normal traffic flow ('the marbles' they call it
on the grand prix) - well - if he HAD lost it on that turn as he
SO almost did, he absolutely WOULD have mounted the kerb and hit
the chip shop guy, Sally and I!! So - we live to walk another
day. :o/ I'm pretty sure the guy got away. The police car was way
behind, and it wasn't until a good fifteen minutes later that the
police helicopter was surveying the area. Nice day for a flight.
. . BB called . . . TVd . . . ate multiple bowls of sugared
muesli before to bed at midnight.
2 - Woken by Sally earlier then
up around 8pm. Felt a bit 'better' than of late - in my mind
kinda. Drove with Sally down to Conham at Hanham and walked along
the river Avon, before it was 'too' hot. Sat at my usual sitting
place up in the woods, for a very long time. People on horses
were walking through the woods. Beautiful horses. Seemed like a
very neat way of getting about. Had to keep a watchful eye out
and get Sally on the lead when necessary, but she was very
good. She really has matured into SUCH a cooool dog. Having her
around, really has been the greatest 'privilege'. Extrordinary to
be able to reach that level of trust and mutual understanding
with another species. A real privilege. . . sat around in the
heat and dead still air, with not a breath of a breeze, despite
opening up the attic skylights in an attempt to draw the air
through the house. I'm really no good with this type of weather.
Definitely prefer it cooler - or even cold. At least with the
cold you can put extra clothes on - no way of escaping the heat.
Many more years like this, and I think I'm gonna have to be
investing in an air conditioning unit, no matter how much they
are!! . . .did dish washing chores and then cooked up a couple of
ham rings, half a tin of baked beans and some chips and ate with
four pieces of bread and butter . . .TVd. Ohwwww. So THAT is what
a 'ABC' is. It is an 'Acceptable Behaviour Contract'! What utter
ineffectual nonsense! . . PCd a bit trying to look up flight
information for BB, but went round and round in circles getting
absolutely nowhere for hours, and ended up in a filthy mood! It's
suprising how many sites/search-engines/etc. are programmed to
default to information relevant to the country in which you live
- which is fine until you want to try and do something a little
different from that! Grrrr. . .fitfully napped for maybe a couple
of hours until woken by a really weird noise. Couldn't figure out
what it was at first. Turned out to be rain! Really weird rain -
great big heavy drops, only here and there before stopping and
then a few more here and there. Very unusual. Raced up into the
attic to shut the skylights. It carried on like that, as a
thunder storm drifted through a very short distance to the East.
Very weird weather - everything was deadly still until the storm
arrived with some localised blustery winds. As soon as the storm
had passed, it was all deadly still again. Wouldn't have taken a
great deal more rotation to have made that into a tornado I
reckon! . . TVd and watched the USA grand prix. . . walked (kinda
in slow motion in the heat) and sat in some shade on the grass
for a while, 'plucking' hair from Sally. . . TVd. Further to my
rant at the poor state of the BBC news - the MAIN headline today
was that David Beckham had resigned his England football team
captancy. Secondary to that, was the death of two more British
soldiers in Afghanistan. By this I am much offended. . . BB
called . .TVd . .ate corned beef, onion, tomato, lettuce and mayo
sandwiches with two bags of crisps . . .TVd/PCd until bed gone
2am. s
3 - Woken by Sally after 8am . .
. walked around 9am in the already opressive, stifling heat. . .
PCd this with the fan on full (but that just stirred the hot air
soup), rather worried about how hot the PC probably is getting. .
.couldn't face doing anything at all and sat around aimlessly
before ending up back on the PC, surfing property all over the
country. That simply saw me eventually get in a really down mood.
:o( It really doesn't matter how much (or how little in the
condition it is) my house is worth. It simply will NEVER be
possible for me to afford the sort of place of which I've always
dreamed (totally isolated
- amongst trees and wildlife - pond/river/lake nearby - land for
growing some food/keeping chickens even, etc, etc.). I need to
'get real'. :o( . . . IHB popped in briefly to touch base. He
seemed 'better' - now on Prozac and aiming to return to work in a
week or two for a couple of weeks before the school holidays. .
tried to sleep but couldn't, so got back up and ate a couple of
corned beef sandwiches with two bags of crisps . . . slept
through the heat (have to shut the bedroom window to shut out the
street noise to have any chance of sleeping) and didn't wake
until around 7pm! . . . walked . . .briefly dabbled with the PC
and captured some of the CCTV footage I'd been saving. I've not
been bothering to save any of the 'mini moto stuff' I've seen on
it for some months (because it's so frequent and the same old
same old) but I think I may have an idea for a silly video. A
couple of kids in particular from somewhere around the area,
riding helmetless on unusually some sort of four
stroke off-road type mini motorbike, have started to
draw my attention (mostly because of the noise!). Pretty much
every day, they go racing up and down the road/pavements and
around the area. Just a few more sequences from them, and I
should have enough of a compilation to match the length of the
music I've selected. :o/ . . . BB called . . . TVd . .BB called .
. cooked up two ham rings, two eggs, half a tin of baked beans
and ate with four pieces of bread and butter after 11pm. . TVd
(80 degrees F in front the TV!) . . ate half a tin of
chilled-in-the-fridge pineapple rings from China I think, which
I've had in the cupboard for years (the use by date on the tin
says '30th April 2005'. Tasted fine to me.) . . . TVd
until bed shortly after midnight. Tried sleeping with the
electric fan on in the bedroom, directed at the bed.
4 - Fitful sleep. Didn't have
the fan on for too long. Woke up all dry and dehydrated after an
hour or two, so turned it off before having to head down to drink
a pint of water! Tossed and turned until up around 8am . .cleared
up in the conservatory! Sally'd been sick in the night! Hmmm! Out
of date pineapple rings maybe? I feel ok. :o( . . PCd a bit of
this . . walked . .blimey! Got a letter in the mail from the
local school confirming they'd done what I'd asked, had attempted
to identify the individuals concerned, and had forwarded the
print outs of the photos I'd provided to the local beat manager!
That was unexpected - and very good of them to let me know like
that. . was just getting ready to leave the house to go shopping
when the local beat manager called around 10:15am. He confirmed
the 'main protagonist' girl was to be served with an ABC. I
expressed my concerns over 'the overlap' in my actions, having
perhaps unecessarily given the picture print outs to the local
school etc, (he hadn't received them yet) but he didn't seem to
have a problem with that and was totally confident he already
knew who I had described (after having consulted the school
liason officer). Apparantly, I am not the only one who that girl
has been calling a 'paedo'!!!!!! Wonder who that other guy is,
and how HE'S handled it? Better than me I suspect. :o( Amazing
how one stupid little out of control girl can cause SO much upset
and distress. . The beat manager seemed kinda 'upbeat' about the
outcome of it all, as though it was all sorted - so I thanked him
and tried to take on board his positive attitude. . Ok then. So -
how much of my ongoing anxiety/fear/distress is legitimate, and
how much is just the product of my own increased paranoia,
existing only in MY mind? I guess I MUST (for the sake of my
health and sanity!) try and 'draw a line under' these recent
events, and assume the madness has settled down a bit. That's
gonna be tough. Time will tell. (What was that old Laurel and
Hardy film (Laurel and Hardy are SO neat) - where Stan Laurel was
found still manning the trenches of World War 1 long after the
end of the war? He was discovered, still dutifully marching up
and down his bit of the trench in his own well worn footsteps
years later. Not sure what the analagy may be - but that film
springs to mind!) . . . left Sally at home and drove in the
stifling heat to ASDA at Longwell Green to shop for food and
groceries. I've been using up stuff around the house, trying to
clear out some of the old stuff - and because I really couldn't
face having to go out in the heat, and especially amongst throngs
of 'people'!! Yuk! . . Stocked up on dog food and then what
turned out to be mostly - chicken, chocolate, chocolate biscuits,
ice cream and more chocolate!!! Yikes - spent £114.01!!!! Even
bought a small bottle of water - not for the water, but more for
the bottle - so I can keep refilling it from the tap, keep it in
the fridge, and carry it with me when required. Silly really - I
could have just waited and picked up one of the infinite number
of empties from over the field to wash out. Grabbed some petrol
on the way out (26.92 ltrs. @ £25). . .cooked up a couple of big
cumberland sausages and ate them in four bread rolls, and then
ate half the bar of ASDAs own, economy chocolate I'd bought to
test. Very cheap - and actually not that bad . . PCd . .
Somewhere around 4pm a forecast thunderstorm began to roll in -
with maybe just a few degrees drop in temperature. Gotta give
those forecasters credit - they are SO often absolutely spot-on
these days. Who'd have thought such a blisteringly hot, clear sky
day, would have seen a storm like that suddenly appear. BIG
thunder and lightning with eventually some blustery torrential
rain! Ran around with the cam-corder a bit, but I wasn't really
in the right place to get any decent footage. I dunno - with a
different life and country, I reckon I could have ended up being
a storm chaser! At around 4:40pm the storm was right on top of us
- and there was a lightning strike, oh SO close! The flash-bang
was almost simultaneous! Absolutely deafening. I love a good
thunder storm, but sometimes it IS scary! Actually had me race
into the attic and look all around, just to make sure I hadn't
been hit! Sods law isn't it - wouldn't suprise me if at some
point my attic gets blown away! Very suprised not to see any
trace in sight of what may have been hit. . . within a relatively
short time, the storm had passed to the north and the still heat
returned, to evaporate all traces of the heavy rain almost
immediately! . .TVd until walk time. Walked and found 5p. . on
the way back from the field, rounding a corner, I spotted a large
German Shepherd up ahead the way we had to walk, on his own,
loose, sniffing around a lamp post and here and there! Oh dear.
:o( As we carried on towards where he was, he wandered away
across the road and went sniffing around near the fence to the
pub beer garden! As we passed by he eventually spotted us and
came charging over the road towards Sally, all a growl, teeth out
and hackles up!!!!! I thought we were gonna be in trouble and
envisaged having to do some hand to paw combat to protect Sally,
but as German Shepherds seem to so often do, he did his scary
posturing thing and then pulled up short and turned away and went
back over towards the beer garden fence. Phew! A pleasant local
guy who I've exchange a few words with, and who always honks his
horn and waves if he ever sees me about anywhere, was sat with
his wife (and young child I think) in the beer garden, and called
out that the dog had just appeared, wandering around on its own.
(Only a couple of days ago I had a
chat with him in the street, and found out that he has in fact
got SERIOUS health issues!! You'd hardly know it to look at him,
other than he does appear to have become a bit thinner than he
used to be - but then haven't we all! Apparantly, he has cystic
fibrosis - bad - and is the recipient of a double lung
transplant!!!!!!!!! On top of that, he relatively recently caught
some sort of infection and has been pretty rough. He too has his
tales to tell of hassles with passing yobs and attempts to
protect his car from acts of vandalism etc. - all the more vital
to him since he appears to be a part time driving instructor!!!
Poor guy - that's the last thing he needs on top of his health
worries.) With Sally in tow it
would have been difficult to get involved - and frankly, I figure
I've done more than my fair share of taking charge of the
neighbourhoods stray dogs!! Hard to explain - but I'm just tired
of feeling responsible for everything, when no one else around
here seems to give a toss! Racked my brains trying to think of
who may have a German Shepherd nearby (as the one running loose
happily strolled through the opne pub door and into the bar!),
but could only think of the house on the corner (who I believe
still has one, although you NEVER see it out for a walk! :o( )
Knocked on their door as I passed by, but the kid who answered
said it wasn't theirs. Hell - for all I knew, it could have been
owned by someone in the pub! I returned home and fed Sally as
normal - but of course me being me - I ended up feeling terrible
guilt and concern for the stray dog, who I'd just 'turned my back
on'! :o( It preyed on my mind. Damn, damn, damn. Ended up putting
the TV on and turning the CCTV camera around so I could keep an
eye on the road, making the decision that if I saw the dog
wandering up the street, I'd HAVE to go get it!! I don't belIEVE
it! The minute I'd turned the camera round, I saw the dog just
down on the opposite side of the road, sniffing around another
lamp post! On closer examiniation and after having turned the
sound way up, a short distance behind it in a garden, some guy
was being directed to call at MY house (presumably because they
thought it may be mine)!!!! Gooooood grief! That'll teach me to
try and 'look the other way'! What WAS remarkable was how the guy
was able to encourage the dog to follow him. Cool dog. Pre warned
by the CCTV, I went out into the front garden (the guy was
mistakenly knocking on next doors door) and as I opened my gate,
the dog came straight into my garden!!! Ok, ok - point taken -
I'll 'deal' with it! The guy turned out to be from the pub - and
I'd say pretty drunk (although probably not by their standards)!
He came into the garden and stood guard to stop the dog leaving
while I dashed in to put a shirt on, change out of my shorts (I
daren't go out in shorts!), secure Sally in the kitchen and grab
her lead to use. Ended up wandering down the road in my slippers,
with a strange dog on a lead, accompanied by a friendly drunk,
intending to knock on a few doors before being forced to drive to
a police station! All stopped and asked a couple of passing kids
opposite, if they knew who's dog it was. They appeared confused
and suggested it was mine!!!! lol Uh - no. Asked more kids, and
they excluded an entire nearby street which had appeared to be a
possiibility. As we passed the pub, I suggested the drunk should
return to his beer since I had a vague suspicion the dog 'may'
have come from an area up round the corner on the main road (I
think a woman with several shepherds lives somewhere up that
way), and I was gonna walk round that way and knock on a few
doors. He insisted on much drunken hand shaking - in that way
drunks sometimes do, as though you have suddenly become some sort
of lifelong friend! . I stopped on my walk around the corner, to
have a bit of a better look at the dog - alerted by the
pronounced 'clicking' of its claws on the pavement. I
think it was underweight - and its claws were seriously
overgrown! Uhhh huh. :o( Seemed to have the makings of a very
good temperament, if it was 'brought on' right. . asked a couple
of people as I passed, if they knew the dog, but they didn't.
Further on up on the main road, a guy was parking up in his
Landrover, and I suddenly remembered I'd seen him on infrequent
occasions over the field with a German Shepherd (which he never
lets of its lead, acting as though it is a devil dog)! So
infrequently, I'd forgotten all about him. At that same moment,
the dog started pulling me into the driveway of his house. Would
you believe it. It WAS his!!!! WHAT a stroke of luck. A brief
exchange and I left him to it - with him asking his dog how he'd
managed to get out! So - all's well that ends well - except - I
now have to suppress my guilt laden suspicions, that dog isn't
'well' cared for. :o( Sheesh. People! . .
briefly popped my head round the pub door as I
passed, and let the bar-propping drunk guy know the outcome of
his good deed. He insisted on more 'friend for life' handshaking!
Not a - um - 'nice place' for me to be (especially in slippers!!
lol) - got out of there pretty quick, ignoring the calls from the
corner of the bar from the lung transplant guy, because - I just
needed to be outta there, real quick! . . .back home, I suddenly
realised I must have recorded stuff on the CCTV camera, and ended
up rewinding the tape, and sat and watched me walking down the
road with the drunk and dog in tow!! lol Welcome to the twilight
zone! lolololololol . . . TVd . . . BB called . . . TVd and ate
one of the ten, cheap, ASDAs own choc-ices I'd bought earlier.
What decadence! :o) . . . BB called . .TVd . . ate half a
barbeque flavoured chicken with two bread rolls and then the
other half of the cheap bar of ASDAs own, economy chocolate.
Livin' like a king. :o) . . TVd until bed around midnight. s
5 - Woken by a loud bang from
somewhere or other at 7:30am. . .PCd a bit of this . . .walked
and had the opportunity of saying thank you for the letter and
help I'd received, to a couple of the teachers on the school
gate. .a tractor was over the field cutting the grass. Never
ceases to amaze me how they do that with complete and utter
disregard for all the litter. It just mows straight over all the
glass/plastic bottles, beer cans, etc, etc. and smashes and
shreds it all into little pieces all over the place. Filled two
or three carrier bags full of mostly plastic drink bottles as we
walked, and managed to re-locate them to the bins before the
tractor reached them. . . PCd this . . .touched base with Mum . .
blimey. Received a cheque for £100 in the mail - from Her
Majesty's Courts Service - the compensation for my assault! I
dunno - that just seems like SUCH a pittance in view of what I've
been through. Hardly even covers the cost of the CCTV camera I
felt 'forced' to buy, in a (largely failed) attempt to regain
some sence of security in my own home! Worthy of note here, I
haven't seen hide nor hair of Little Xxxxxx for the longest time.
Intriguing. Oh well - draw a line - draw a line! . . PCd this -
at length! . . . ate half a barbeque flavour chicken with four
pieces of bread and butter (think I need to be buying that
flavour from now on. Very delicious.) and some biscuits. . .
napped for a couple of hours . . walked in the rain only wearing
a shower coat, and got absolutely totally drenched - although
actually, after all the horrible sticky heat of the last few
days, it was kinda deliberate although I did misjudge just
exactly how heavy the rain was. Got utterly drenched in the
torrent. . .changed into dry shorts and drank a glass of red wine
. . BB called . . TVd the last in the 'Convent' series. Dunno
why, but watching that show (and the similar previous series with
the monks) absolutely DID have quite a dramatic impact on my
mood. It kinda brought to the fore, all that same sort of
spiritual growth stuff I was introduced to, when I was going
through my Buddhist/meditational phase, back around the time I
had my 'breakdown' and crashed out of work. Impossible for me to
put into words here - it'd take far too long - but it's something
along the lines of I absolutely DO understand what those people
were going through. I've absolutely no time for all the man made
'religions', and yet I really do think I have some understanding
of why people are drawn into the monastic/convent kind of life.
All this modern day running around, with our TVs, cars, mobile
phones, DIY attic projects, etc etc - it's all utter piffle.
Meaningless. To push all that to one side - to look deep inside
yourself and challenge the frailties and faults that you find
there - to endeavour to reveal and explore ones 'true' nature -
damn it, dare I say, to strive to be unconditionaly 'loving' -
these are important things. I am cursed by a mind that has given
me an insight into these things - this way of being. I 'know'
some of these things - I know less, how. It is no coincedence I
think, that so many religions demand their followers receive
counsel from a 'mentor'. One needs to be reminded of the
perspective. To give up ones life as it is, and 'submit' to a
monastic type of existance - well - I can't help it - I DO find
that an attractive proposition (and NO - it isn't about simply
hiding away because I'm schizoid - so there!)!! Blah blah blah
blah. Yeah - I can't explain this stuff. Suffice it to say, the
program reminded me of what is 'important'. Even ended up getting
all compassionate for the local yobs (alongside wanting them all
shot!) because of course, they are like they are because of their
dysfunctional families and upbringing etc, etc. . tickles me when
they have a thing on the screen after such potentially emotionaly
impacting programs (more usually more 'distressing' subjects) ,
saying 'If you have been affected by any
of the issues raised in this program you, can ring the BBC help
line' etc, etc. I figure if you HAVEN'T been 'affected' by
watching such programs - well - frankly - you're a barbarian,
there's little hope for you, and why the hell were you watching
it anyway then?!!!!! lol . . . TVd and ate bowls of co-co pops, a
choc ice, bananas and chocolate throughout the evening. . TVd/PCd
until early. s
6 - Woke real late after 9am.
Walked even later, in the rain. That's been a LOT of pretty much
continual heavy rain for almost the last 24 hours. Cooler, and
'somewhat' more comfortable, but still pretty warm (especially in
full rain gear) . .exchanged a word with the chip shop guy on the
way home. Boy - does he have 'the lowdown' on a lot of the local
goings on!! . . . received my latest electric bill in the post.
Scary. Ok - I know the prices have all gone up - but that's the
biggest electric bill I've EVER had! I need to find a way to cut
back - although I'm not sure I can much. I already religiously
turn off the light in a room as soon as I leave it. I guess all
the CCTV and video recorder stuff (and the TV distribution amp.)
being on all the time, and constantly re-charging batteries for
my twice daily MP3 audio recorder outings, is pushing it up. :o(
. . . dabbled in the attic attempting to motivate myself to get
on with some of the work. For goodness sake DO something on it -
anything!! . oh dear. Oh no! Oh for gods sake!! There was a small
patch of damp on one of the floor sheets, where a little of the
rain had somehow got into the roofspace and dripped down off the
rafter, right below the roof apex!! How the hell is THAT getting
in - and why all of a sudden? I sort out one point of water
ingress, and another springs up!?? Would you believe it! Damn
those roofers! Investigation of the cause of that (probably
seperation/shrinkage of the mortar on the ridge tiles - and a
possible perferated felt nearby) will have to wait until better
weather - and more energy in me! . . Ended up just cutting a
small piece of awkward filler rafter and glueing/nailing it in
place to set behind the rear chimney stack (been putting that off
for ages), before just moving a few things around and then
sitting and looking at it all for ages. So - another day with
nothing done. :o( I'm having real
trouble in getting back down to all the work. I think it's
largely to do with the disaster that the attic staircase has
turned into, because of all that warping timber! :o( . . . ate
lettuce sandwiches mid afternoon, and then a couple of squares of
chocolate before napping the rest of the afternoon away until
around 5pm. . .the glue had dried on the filler piece of rafter,
so I quickly cemented and glued an adjacent bit. Enough cement
left over in the bucket to do a bit of the largely cosmetic
re-pointing/'cement wash' on a part of the rear chimney stack . .
. walked . . . TVd . . BB called . . TVd . . . cooked and ate two
large cumberland sausage rings with chips, followed by some
biscuits, chocolate and a banana or two . . . TVd until bed
around 1am. s
7 - Woke earlier, slept on then
up around 9am. Oooh, I do hope Sally is getting into a 'let me
sleep on/getting up later' routine at last. . .walked . .
.mustered the energy/strength/courage and left Sally at home and
drove to Wickes at Longwell Green, for some small (car sized)
sheets of plywood (4 x 1220x607x18mm @ £37.96) and yet more wood
glue (£6.99) intending to start having a go at 're-clading' the
attic stairs. Drove on to B&Q to look at their 'toys' before
returning to Wickes to buy their cheapest router (£29.99) and a
set of router bits (£9.99). Never used a router before, but I
definitely need one to be able to neatly 'round over' the edges
of the stairs . . . returned home to read the router instruction
booklet, fit a bit and eventually test it out on a piece of scrap
wood. Hmm - that'll do - although why does it have an extraction
nozzle, cunningly designed to blow all the dust straight into the
users face???!!. . . unscrewed all the attic stairs and cut a
couple of test steps. Yep -I think that's going to work. . .drove
back to Wickes for more plywood (8sheets @ £75.92), some
undercoat paint, and nails (£12.27). This is costing me a
fortune - and because of the size of my car, I have to buy those little
plywood sheets, which means a good third of that is wastage!!! .
. . worked on the stairs until around 7pm. Yep - I think it's
gonna be ok. Should have used plywood in the first place instead
of throwing all that money away (well over £100 was it?) on that
warping timber! :o( . . walked. HUGE numbers of kids were hanging
around at the entrance to the field!! I lost count at 25. . . On
the way back out of the field, the group had scored some alcohol,
and many of them were drinking. Nearby roadworks barricades had
all been moved and placed across the road, shutting the road -
complete with a diversion sign, redirecting the traffic up a
cul-de-sac!!!!! Kindof amusing, except that the road there is a
pretty fast sweeping curve, which made it pretty damned
dangerous. Muggins here, felt it worthy of notifying the police
non emergency number on his mobile on the way home. I was put on
hold. I was kept on hold. I was back at home, feeding Sally,
still on hold after nearly ten minutes, when I was finally simply
cut off! ££ Grrrrrrrrrr!!!!! I rang again from the 'land line'
and kinda forced whoever initialy answered, to take the details
and NOT put me on hold again! . . . PS popped round for chats.
Before he had a chance to call at the door, I got him in my car
and took a trip around by the field. I just wanted to see if the
masses of kids were still there (and show him the mayhem) but
moreover to see if the 'barricade' was still up across the road.
There were only a relatively few kids left, and the barriers had
been moved out of the road and put back around the roadworks. I
guess the police DID turn up eventually. . . ate half a chicken
with four pieces of bread and butter . . . BB called . . chats
and TV until early. .LB called by, drunk, with a huge plate of
left-overs on a mexican theme apparantly. BB called . . to bed
around 2am.s
8 - Woken by Sally around
8:15am. . . walked amidst the beer cans and broken bottles from
last night! . . . carried on working on the attic stairs but with
an awful headache. Uh oh! I got sawdust
in my right eye, kicked up by the circular saw! This is becoming
a bit of a habit! It looks as though I'm terribly careless, but
its got more to do with the dust I'm always having to work in. I
haven't got a pair of glasses (safety or otherwise) that don't
seem to attract all the dust all the time, and instantly make it
impossible to see through them - so I always work without!!! . .
Caved in late afternoon after the last of the gluing and nailing
of the new steps. All of them except the first two - because I
need to make a decision about whether or not they are going to be
fixed. They are currently removeable and allow me to enter the
void beneath the stairs when I need to . . . ate some of LBs left
overs, but I wasn't keen on much of whatever it was. . TERRIBLE
headache. Felt pretty ill. . napped around 5pm. Woken by Sally
around 8pm. My eye is still pretty bad!. .walked. Sally chased a
rabbit. Unusually passed a couple of police on foot on the way
home. .BB called . . . cleared up some of the huge sawdust mess
in the attic . . . LB popped in with a couple of frozen thai
cakes for a brief chat? LB that is - not the thai cakes. . . did
a bit of filler on the attic stairs until around midnight . .
.ate pineapple rings and coffee flavoured sponge . . . PCd until
early before bed. Damn - that's the second time recently that has
happened. As I abruptly 'leapt' out of the PC chair, the spring I
fitted beneath the seat, sprung back and forced the whole of the
top right off!! The seat is attached to the wheels by a single
large shaft - and that shaft is held in place by nothing more
than friction - and the spring I've put on, forces the two parts
apart when not under load. Left in pieces for attention tomorrow
. . couldn't sleep and tossed and turned for ages until birdsong
and a hint of light in the sky! aaa
9 - Woken by PS calling around
10am! Blimey - Sally let me sleep on - although, I could happily
have slept until gone midday given the chance! . . . walked real
late. . .gave Sally the rest of LBs left over mexican meal for
her breakfast. She liked it . . . left Sally at home and drove to
B&Q at Longwell Green to buy more pollyfilla (£4.68), and to
have a more serious look at their 'retro' central heating
radiators. Suprisingly I couldn't find any leaflets, so I ended
up having to stand there for ages and list all the different
sizes and BTUs on a piece of paper. Silly really - I'm sure they
are all on line somewhere (just checked - yeah they are ). Gonna have to measure up and check the required
BTUs and all that jazz, and try and visualise what a couple of
those may look like against the firebreasts in the attic. I had
planned to put a couple of small, regular radiators against the
opposite wall, either side of the stairwell, all covered in with
a radiator cover with a shelf on top. But then I saw those retro
types and figure maybe - just maybe - a matching pair would look
ok against the firebreasts, all fully visible. The added
incentive would be that if I DO put them against the firebreasts
like that, it would make the actual underfloor pipework SO much
shorter and easier to do - and that would offset the higher price
- and of course I wouldn't have to buy or build the box-in
covers. VERY tempted. I'm a long, LONG way from the 'decorating'
stage in the attic, but I HAVE reached a point where further
progress demands that I start thinking really
carefully about 'the details'. Where I eventually put radiators,
partially dictates where I cut-in more power sockets. I can't
finish off and plasterboard-over the stud wall at the bottom of
the attic stairs until I've worked out where a stair-handrail
will go (and a fitted cupboard in the back bedroom, like I built
in the front), because I'll need to put in appropriate timber
'noggins' in the stud wall to screw them to. Before I can think
about plasterboarding the roof slopes, I need to finalise the
lighting (although I have a suspicion, I'm gonna be real old
fashioned and just have one dangley light in the middle of the
room - in keeping with the rest of the rooms). (I'm a long, LONG
way from plasterboarding the slopes - I want (need) to 'alter'
each section of the rafter, above every skylight, which is gonna
be an absolute bitch to do - in fact I don't really know HOW I'm
gonna be able to do what is necessary. On top of that, as was
always gonna be necessary because of the sag in the old roof
timbers and the way I had to replace the purlins one by one, I'm
gonna have to do some massive sort of timber 'shimming' excercise
across the rafters/purlins on the inside of both slopes, to try
and even-out some of the irregularities and make it appear more
straight, and so it can take the plasterboard. Assuming nothing
'bad' happens in the meantime to 'force me out', I really want to
reach the shimmed/vapour barrier/plasterboard point before having
to face another cold, draughty winter! Uggh.) SO
much still to do! :o/ . . . drank a glass of red wine while the
oven reheated half a chicken and a stick of garlic bread. Ate
with a small tub of coleslaw and mountains of extra butter . . .
napped around 4pm. Tossed and turned for ages again, before
eventually dropping off. . . woken by BB calling around 8pm!!! .
. . TVd. Italy were playing France in the world cup final.
Watched just a little. It was 'one all' and gonna be down to
penalties when I set off to walk Sally late. Pretty quiet out.
:o) . . Italy won apparantly. Typical. I have a bit of a soft
spot for France, given my schoolboy French and past bike visits
there, so figured I may as well want them to win. Oh well - it's
only a game - who cares. (A plane crash and hundreds dead in
Russia - forty men, women and children innocent civilians shot
dead in Iraq, etc etc. - and the headline story on the radio BBC
news as I worked in the attic later, was the football result!!
Uhuh.) . . . checked all the nails I'd used on the re-vamped
attic stairs and used a hammer and a punch to countersink the
handful that were too 'proud'. . BB called . . . mixed up a bunch
of filler and applied it all over the attic stairs. . got serious
with the 'exploding' PC chair, and used a bit of wet and dry
paper to rough up the main shaft before bashing it back in place
with the lump hammer and then greasing and reassembling it all.
Time will tell . . . PCd this until around 2:30am!! . .TVd and
ate bowls of muesli and a couple of bananas before finally to bed
at getting on for 4am. d
10 - Woken by Sally at 8:45am. .
.walked . . . sanded down the filler on the stairs . . Mum called
to touch base . . painted a layer of undercoat on the stairs. .
cut my hair . . ate corned beef, cheese, mayo, onion, tomato and
lettuce sandwiches with two bags of crisps . . napped for a
couple of hours until around 7pm . .PCd briefly . . walked.
Passed a couple of kids as I returned home. The minute my back
was to them, one of them started calling out 'informer'. I dunno
- some days I can ignore it, some days I seem unable to. This day
was one of the latter. I turned and began walking after them. The
smaller of the two immediately sprinted a short distance ahead
and with obviously practiced skill (actually quite athletic and
impressive), somehow quickly climbed over where the caretakers
garden fence meets the school security fence, and into the school
grounds. The other kid carried on and sat on a boulder and I
ended up standing right up in front of him ('in his face') saying
that if he wanted to get my attention he'd succeeded. He claimed
it was nothing to do with him and was the other kid - now
taunting me from inside the school fence. I stood at the fence
and 'had a bit of a go' at him - gave him my "you know
absolutely nothing about me. You have absolutely NO idea what I
am capable of doing (to you). You've gotta come out some time.
I've got all night!' speech!!! It DID seem to make him hesitate
and look a little unhappy - briefly. With the breifest of
hesitations as though I WAS going to wait there, I turned and
carried on my way - to the accompaniment of more shouts of
informer. Oh dear. :o( . . TVd feeling fed up and not very proud
of myself after my earlier outburst at the morons. . . BB called
. . . TVd. . . . PCd property until early. Ate a couple of
pasties with crisps before bed around 2am.
11 - Woken by Sally around 8am .
. . walked . . . removed the warped wood from the lower two attic
stairs, lifted floorboards and examined how things lay, trying to
make a final decision about how I'm going to finish off the lower
two steps, and the best way to make an access hatch into the
void. Eventually decided it would be real cramped and difficult
to use (slitheringthrough like a snake!), but a hatch through the
stud wall from the back bedroom is going to be the easiest way to
do it - just below the middle of the staircase. The 'preferred'
alternative which WOULD afford a much bigger 'doorway', would be
to cut through on the higher side of the attic stairs, from
inside the fitted cupboard in the front bedroom. Trouble with
that is, it would be a HUGE amount of messy work, would require
me putting in another lintel, and frankly it would worry me
removing any more of those internal supporting walls! Shame
though. . . left Sally at home and drove to Wickes for four more
lengths of 47 x 100mm x 2.4m timber (£14.76). Had a look at the
stair handrails and all the fixings. Ouch - they're expensive!!
And the number of those I've seen thrown away outside houses
being renovated! Damn - knew I should have salvaged them! :o(
Hmmmm - I wonder? Now I own a router, I guess it 'should' be
possible to just buy some cheap timber and attempt to fashion one
myself?. . ate a pasty with two bags of crisps . . worked on
modifying/completing the bottom of the attic stairs sub-frame
(fixing it to the back bedroom floor joists etc. Until now it's
been just hanging from the walls) until late afternoon. Nothing
much else I could do until all the glue had set, and with all the
floorboards up and barricades in place to stop Sally going
through the ceiling, it seemed like a good idea to resist the
desire to nap (in an attempt to 'bump' myself back into sleeping
at night and being awake during the day. I'd very much begun to
slip into a nocturnal state again) and get out of the house for a
bit . . set off walking with Sally around 5pm, with a tin of
Redbull in my pocket, intending to sit and drink it down by the
lake in Eastville Park. . We hadn't been walking long before I
came across a dumped Honda C50 motorbike, in the woods by the
'stream'.
Ummd and ahhd about whether or not to bother, but I
just CANNOT ignore such things, no matter how hard I try. It just
isn't right to ignore them! No matter how much everyone else does
- it is simply NOT right! Called the local police non emergency
number and went through a worse than usual insulting nonsense of
being put on hold, questioned as to the reason for my call, put
through to another number, put on hold, told I was through to the
wrong department, put on hold, etc, etc. After something near
eight minutes I was cut off. I rang again - angily ranting at
whoever answered! Finally someone relented and was forced to take
the details. The most difficult bit of the call (aside from
controlling my frustration at how the police make it near
impossible to actually call them these days!) was attempting to
explain where the bike was, because whoever was on the line
didn't have a computer screen with a map! Suprisingly the guy
suggested the registration number I'd given was NOT that of a
Honda C50! I checked the number plate and confirmed it WAS one of
the old fashioned type that you could make yourself with stick on
letters and numbers, so I concluded it was probably a false one
on a stolen bike. I'd 'done my bit' (again!) and ended my call
(strongly suspecting they wouldn't be able to find it, IF they
even bothered to look!). . carried on in the direction of
Eastville Park. The main road down by the park was all slow
moving, congested traffic (slower than walking pace), as usual at
that time of day, and stuck in the queue was a police car. I
ambled over and told them about the bike, expressing my concerns
about how difficult it would be to find (assuming the cops in the
car would be familiar with the area and may want to know about
it). In very short order, they made it very clear they didn't
give a toss, and actually made me feel rather stupid for having
bothered them. Ho hum. :o( . . . I had intended to sit on one of
the seats by the lake for a while, but there were a few people
sat nearby, so I just carried on along the river. . Took the
'path less travelled' and walked along the opposite bank to usual
by Snuff Mills, intending to find a quiet spot to sit by the
river for a bit. Actually heavy going, with several large trees
fallen over on the steep banks, blocking the footpath. .
eventually found a quiet place amongst the trees right down by
the waters edge, and sat - with Sally laying IN the water for a
long while. Sat - and sat - and sat, trying to chill out and let
some of the recent 'angst' drift away on the current. Drank my
Redbull, smoked my cigarettes and watched walkers passing by,
safely distant on the opposite bank. It WAS nicely peaceful - but
not for long! I don't beLIEve it!!!!! I go to all those lengths
just to find a place to quietly sit for a bit, and as soon as I
sit, the police helicopter turns up and ends up circling
deafeningly right above me just above the tree tops!!! . .
eventually carried on along the path and emerged not that far
from PS house. Called him on the mobile as I passed the bottom of
his garden, hoping for a coffee stop, but he wasn't in. Back home
around 8pm. . . cooked up four cheeseburgers. .BB called . . ate
a couple of choc ices . . . TVd until bed at midnight. s
12 - Up around 7am . . .walked
and found a penny. . .climbed over the barricades and raised
floorboards and PCd this briefly. . soon back to work on the
stairs. Cut and glued all the little noggins in place on the
subframe. So warm, the glue was pretty much dried in a couple of
hours, which enabled me to risk pushing on. .cut the floorboards
I'd had to raise, to fit neatly in single runs up to the now
permanent stairs, doing away with the patchwork it was before.
Left much of the void under the stairs without floorboards as a
result. Drilled and screwed the boards in place . . cut up
plywood and rounded over the edges with the router and by around
5pm had the final two stairs and three rises all glued and nailed
in place (with currently, no access into the void. Damn - forgot
to store the two Xmas tree boxes under there). Phew. Thank
goodness that's over and done with. . Yikes - almost forgot -
again!! Gotta transfer money to BB to help with her plane fare!
Raced to ring my bank before it was too late. On hold for a good
six minutes before finally getting through, only to be told I'd
have to ring a different number for international transfers. Rang
it, only to be told they were closed already! Grrrr. . cleared up
and then, rushing things rather, mixed up a little filler and
applied it to the stairs . . walked. An unusually large aircraft
(747 was it?) appeared spectacularly low in the sky in the
distance and appeared to land at Filton . . . drank a glass of
red wine while the oven cooked a meat pizza with extra onion,
tomato, corned beef and cheese heaped up on it, and then ate in
front of the TV . . . BB called . .almost fell asleep in my chair
as the food sank in, but then managed a 'second wind' and quickly
sanded down the filler and slapped some undercoat on the bottom
two attic stairs. Wanted to get that done today so it could dry
overnight . . exhausted! Sat around for half an hour, on the
landing watching the paint dry! Really! lol . . . to bed before
midnight. ad
13 - Up at 7am . .PCd a bit of
this. I need a 'day off'! I must say, I'm pretty happy with how
those attic stairs have finally turned out. They feel 'solid'
underfoot - more so than the old original 'main' staircase! . .
put laundry on and then walked. Walked the extra in a big detour
and checked to see if the 'abandoned' motorcycle was still there.
I just needed to know - to know if my call the other day had been
ignored and was a complete waste of my time and money. It WAS
still there - but now moved along a bit, more the worse for wear,
and actually laying in the water in the bed of the stream! It was
laying on its side with all the numbers right side up, so I rang
my home ansaphone on my mobile and recited the registration,
engine and frame numbers. It didn't seem to make sense that it
had a false number plate, because there was a full chronology of
tax discs scattered around in the bushes. .
put more laundry on and then hung the 'clean'(ish!),
out to dry on the rotary clothes line. Shaking my clothes out
before hanging them up, to dislodge some of the sawdust and Sally
hair (which seems to be a constant on everything I own, clean or
not), something flicked (yes - it WAS from my underpants!!
lololololol) into my left eye!! Would you believe it! I'd just
got my right eye back to normal(ish) after the sawdust attack the
other day - now I'm back to square one with watering and rubbing
my bloodshot left eye!! Jeeze - so - now I need to wear
protective goggles just to hang out the laundry??!!! . Rang my
bank and finally transferred some money over to help BB with her
plane ticket . rang the police non emergency number determined to
get that bike shifted - and also determined to actually make a
record of how much nonsense it is trying to call-in such a thing
to the police these days. Typical - just because I was all primed
to make a record and be all outraged, it actually went unusualy
smoothly. (Time of day I guess - wrong doers still abed?). At
09:35.30 my call was answered by an automated system (so I am
being charged for the call!) telling me I was in a queue and my
call would be answered in sequence. At 09:37.30 I was connected
and asked the nature of the call. The call handler said I would
be put through to the control room, and I was returned to a
ringing tone. Remarkably quickly in my experience, at 09:38.40 I
was answered by someone in the control room and was able to make
my 'report'. Turns out they DID have it on their system as a C50
under that registration, and it WAS marked up for sometime
removal by the council. The woman on the phone seemed happy
enough to have yet another call about it (this time I was VERY
precise with a detailed description of how to find it) and also
humored me by recording the engine and frame numbers. Oh well -
that restored just a 'little' bit of my faith in the police I
guess. . . PCd this . . . cooked and ate LBs donated thai cakes
in sandwiches while watching Judge Judy, followed by biscuits and
chocolate for lunch . . .TVd/PCd and ended up eating almost a
whole packet of custard creams! . . . napped for a couple of
hours until around 7pm but woke feeling oh SO tired, and with a
nasty gummy, scratchy, sore eye . .walked . . BB called. . TVd.
.ate corned beef sandwiches with two bags of crisps and then
squares of chocolate . . . TVd until bed before midnight. ss
14 - Woken around 5am by Sally
barking at something or other. . managed to sleep on and then
woken around 8am by some weird clanking noise (like banging a
central heating radiator) from next door?! . cleared off all the
gooey mess from my left eye. Fingers crossed - it feels a 'bit'
better. . PCd a bit of this . . . walked and then carried on up
Kingswood to bank my compensation cheque and withdraw some cash .
. . PCd this. . . TVd . . . ate a tin of stewed steak with four
pieces of bread and butter . . . napped for a couple of hours . .
. walked. Half way up the top of the field, three young girls who
I don't believe I have ever seen before in my life, were sat on
the grass in the middle of the field. As I walked up, I thought I
heard them 'quietly' chanting "paedo, paedo, paedo" a
few times. They quietened down and I dismissed it as my paranoid
mind playing tricks on me. I sat on the grass for a cigarette and
to watch the sunset at the top of the field (the 'boulders' were
out of bounds - occupied by a large group of foul mouthed kids).
As I sat there, they started chanting again, and made other 'half
heard' abusive comments at me. I tried the 'just ignore it'
thing, but that simply saw them get more confident with their
abuse! I finished my cigarette and quickly got to my feet to
continue my usual route around the field, at which point they ran
off down the field, screaming and looking back at me! Deeply
distressing. There's only one thing that'll put an end to all
this isn't there. Life really has been predominantly shit for me,
you know. Not in a big cataclismic way, but in a small incessant,
never ending, day by day, grind ya down way - by way of 'people'.
I'm f***ing sick of it. I'm f***ing sick of people. Absolutely
f***ing sick of them, and absolutely cannot STAND to be around
any! I am SO deeply ashamed to be a part of 'people'! :o( . . TVd
- miserable. . . BB called . . . ate defrosted chicken sandwiches
with crisps, ice cream and chocolate. . . CCTVd mostly, watching
moronic drunks passing by, until bed around 1am. s
15 - Woke around 8am . . .walked
. . .attended to the top of the main staircase and slightly
altered the floorboards to close up some of the gaps, cut a new
length or two, and to finally screw them down so they don't
'clank' when walked on. . spent a rediculous amount of time
fashioning a couple of plugs from pieces of waste floorboard, to
fill the holes in the board that took the central heating pipes
when the back bedroom radiator was in its old position. . looked
at all the rest of the work to do and - well - just couldn't . .
.ate something or other - can't recall what - but followed by
squares of chocolate is a fair bet! . . napped . . LB called
asking if I was interested in some left overs. Well duh! Popped
up LBs and picked up the plate of spaghetti in a weird prawn and
other stuff sauce. She wanted me to check my music collection to
see if I had any 'Cult', and if so, burn her a CD. .checked the
PC and quickly managed to burn her a copy of 'Love' by the Cult -
complete with scratches and pops from the record it came from! .
. PS popped round for chats, with a film to watch (The Bourne
Identity - not a 'bad' film but utterly ruined by the appalling
editing of the fight and chase scenes, which actually made it
impossible to see what the hell was going on, and who was doing
what to who!). He also unexpectedly brought round a duty-free
250g box of Golden Virginia tobacco, bought by his wife and
daughter when they returned from a recent foreign holiday. Just
under £25 - thank you very much. :o) . . . ate luncheon meat
sandwiches and ice cream. . . BB called . . . TVd/PCd until bed
around 2am. s
16 - Woke after 9am . . .walked
late. Did three carrier bags of 'litter duty' and collected up
all the twenty one (yes-I counted!)
empty glass beer/gin/etc. bottles littering the place. Too heavy
and too much hassle to lug them all the way home to my recycling
bin, so I simply relocated them to the burned out bin by the
swing frame. So much for re-cycling! And there's the likes of Mum
who walks a good half a mile to dutifully re-cycle just a couple
of empty jars. Makes a mockery of all that doesn't it. :o( . .
tore up some newspaper and put the pieces in a bucket of water to
dissolve-ish. I'm experimenting with 'paper mache', with a view
to maybe using it to plug the gaps between the old floorboards .
. . Mum called to touch base and remind me of the new series of
the 'Tribe' program on TV later. . . sanded filler and put a very
rough coat of white undercoat paint on the rotten old floorboards
at the top of the main stairs. Silly and pointless really, but it
does make those rough damaged boards look just a 'little' better,
and makes it easier to keep them clean during the works.
Psychological mostly - all part of that needing to make
everything the same colour before I can 'see' it - makes me feel
as though I'm making 'progress', even if I'm not . . . did 'some'
of the mountain of dish washing chores . . . ate LBs donated
spaghetti with three pieces of bread crusts and butter, and then
some chocolate. . .watched part of the French Grand Prix but
found it SO boring, eventually gave up and lay down to nap . . .
woke around 6pm. . . walked . . .TVd and watched the 'Tribe'
program. Fascinating - and rather depressing. African tribesmen
with hardly any posessions - but all sporting AK47s and at war
with all surrounding tribes! When oh when will the human race
wake up and realise it IS doomed, unless it actively reduces its
population? Seems to me just SO obvious, overpopulation is
absolutely key to all the worlds problems! . . . ate luncheon
meat and lettuce sandwiches. . BB called . . .TVd . . . PCd
property until bed around 1am. sa
17 - Woken by Sally just before
7am . . .drove with Sally to Conham at Hanham and walked our
usual circular route along the river, up and back through the
woods. Sat at our usual spot in the woods for absolutely ages,
sipping from a bottle of water and smoking multiple cigarettes.
Wonderfully cool in the wooded shade. I could sit still and quiet
in such a spot for hours and hours with what many would consider
absolutely nothing happening, and not get bored. It's back to
that tendency toward 'sensory overload' thing isn't it. For me -
when it comes to nature, and a woodland environment in
particular, there's LOTS going on, all around, all the time!
Wonderful environment for me. Calming. Funny how the mind wanders
when sat around like that. It suddenly seemed perfectly
reasonable (except having to consider BB and such) to withdraw
all my savings, buy a plot of wooded land somewhere (and maybe
also even a cheap camper van), and go and live on it! To hell
with planning permission and all that stuff. I can 'rough' it.
Who'd even know I was there? As long as there was a water source
- it'd be do-able. I could play at making myself a 'shelter',
with a fire for cooking - and maybe even get clever with a solar
panel or two! It just seemed SO do-able all of a sudden! . . I
spotted it before Sally did. Just up along the path from where we
were sat, a small fox had stopped dead in its tracks and was just
stood there looking at us. Beautiful. Managed to slip the lead
over Sally's head before pointing it out to her. By the time I
managed to ease my camcorder out of my 'belt pack', and
predictably before I got it turned on, it was off - nervously
trotting away into the undergrowth, off the path below us. The
birds saw it too. Even though it was quickly lost to our sight,
it was possible to follow its route in the undergrowth by way of
the danger calls from the birds, some of which actually flitted
from branch to branch following it, all the while chattering
their danger signal. I eventually let Sally off her lead to race
off and have a good sniff at the path and brambles, the way it
had gone. I kept a watch on the birds and was rewarded by seeing
the oh so skinny little fox, cross over the path a little
distance away before disappearing once again into the 'bush'.
Wonderful. Wonderful, wonderful. Eventually carried on with the
walk, deliberately coughing and scuffing my feet as we passed
parallel with where the fox was still hidden in the undergrowth,
to make sure it wouldn't be suprised by Sally. .
did a spot of 'fishing' on the way back alongside
the river. Well - MY version of fishing that is. Sit on the bank
next to the river and just watch the water until you SEE
a fish (nothing gets hurt or tortured that way, and you don't
have to lug all that equipment around). Turned out to be a very
good days fishing - I 'caught' at least a dozen - or maybe even
two, all about eight inches in length. :o) . . . managed to put
in some work on the building site, despite the heat and floods of
sweat pouring off me, and spent a HUGE amount of time cutting up
a few small pieces of brick with the disc cutter, to cement in to
the awkward space at the top corner of the stairs wall, where it
meets the ceiling/attic floor. finished off around 6pm by hacking
off some of the old render on the same wall, in preparation for
eventualy replastering 'some' of it. Big dusty mess . . .set off
to walk in the stifling heat just after 7pm. Only got a few yards
down the road before having to check to see why my foot felt
weird. Turned out my left training shoe was completely split
across the sole, through and through! Yet another pair bites the
dust. Sheesh - I get through some shoes! My main, comfortable,
ex-army walking boots are nearing the end of their life already -
splits have appeared on some of the creases. :o( Briefly returned
home for replacements. Walked and brought a large empty water
bottle home (litter), as a replacement for the one I keep for use
in the car for Sally. Carried on walking and treated myself to a
kebab and chips . . . TVd and ate . . . BB called . . . ate ice
cream and chocolate and TVd until early to bed before 11pm. s
18 - Woke around 5am, back to
sleep and then upwith the noise of people putting their bins out
around 6:15am . . . walked early. Blimey - really hot and sweaty
already!! Too hot really for 'binman aerobics', but with the
'coast clear' of kids, filled up a handful of carrier bags of
mostly plastic drinks bottles. Funny how the litter has its own
story about the time of year and other 'social' things - like the
predominance of silver Lambert And Butler packs of ten
cigarettes. I smoke roll ups so have no idea how much cigarettes
are these days, but PS suggested the local kids are smoking those
because they are some of the cheapest. (The whole of the adult
population of course, smokes duty free imports!) . .PCd this with
the fan on. Funny coincedence after my quiet sit in the woods
yesterday - I received some feedback from the site offering some
advice and suggestions, which included - "for
peace of mind. I would consider anything eg buying woodland
and living illegally on it in a hut etc ".
lol :o) I've had this link on my site for several years now (Woodlands
For Sale) and DO occasionaly
look and dream, usually whenever I put here that I've 'surfed
property'. Realisticaly - I guess I haven't the nerve - and after
all, what the hell does an ageing 'city boy' know about
'managing' a woodland?!! Zip! Also - difficult to explain, but,
whatever happens in the future - wherever I end up - I'm gonna
have to be VERY sure I can mentally handle whatever lead up to
that. If I end up stuck in a place I hate, penniless and or
homeless, as a result of being forced out of my house, my home by
anti social yobs - well - I'm liable to end up miserable (even
more so) bitter and twisted (to say the least!) and could easily
end up shooting people at random from a clock tower!! What a
world. I'm 'lost' in it, in a way I've never been before. :o( . .
.sat around being hot. Too damned hot for any DIY. Too damned hot
for doing anything! . . sat around/TVd/PCd the day away . .
cooked up a frying pan full of eight small burgers, and ate them
all in four buttered bread rolls late afternoon . . . lay down in
the heat and managed to nap . . . woken by Sally needing to use
the garden with her latest stomach upset, real late after
8pm!!!!! . . BB called . . . walked after 9pm. I'm not sure I can
recall it being SO hot at such a late hour! . . .hosed down the
garden and sat on the patio trying to be cool - and largely
failing. . .PCd property/woodland. lol . . . BB called . . . TVd.
Ate luncheon meat and mayo sandwiches with two bags of crisps, a
dish of ice cream and some chocolate in the early hours, before
eventually to bed after 2:30am. The local BBC TV news weather
forecast amused me. The headline forecast for tomorrow was - and
I quote - "Unbelievably hot!". I think they
are suggesting that locally it may break the all time record, set
back in 1976. ss
19 - Woken by Sally needing to
use the garden with her upset stomach, pretty much every two
hours - no - less than that actually!!! Hardly any sleep at all.
Uggh! . . gave up the idea of attempting to get back to sleep and
stayed up after Sally'd woken me yet again around 6am. .hosed
down the garden . . . set off around 7am and drove with Sally in
the car down to Conham on the river Avon before the heat got
unbearable, and pretty much did a replay of our walk of the 17th.
Sat quietly at 'our' spot in the cool woods with my shoes off,
for a good hour or more, and was rewarded by seeing much
birdlife, squirrels, and a brief appearance by what I think was
the very same fox. :o) A couple of guys on mountain bikes
crashing along the trail seemed like my cue to call it quits.
Back home around 9:30am - and already very uncomfortably hot. . .
PCd this before it gets too hot to dare to turn the machine on .
. . stripped off the remaining wallpaper from the stairs/corridor
wall and put on a coat of PVA before caving in, in the heat. I
just can't face doing anything in these sort of temperatures
. . . TVd . . ate luncheon meat, mayo, cheese,
onion, tomato and lettuce sandwiches with two bags of crisps . .
. TVd/PCD/sweated! . . the temperature seemed to peak somewhere
around 2pm and I moved the radio controlled clock with the
digital thermometer out into the shade of the patio, to see if it
really was as stiflingly hot as it felt. In the conservatory the
old 'greenhouse' type thermometer (I once salvaged from a skip)
was showing 110 degrees F!!! It felt like it, and of course
contributed to the rest of the house feeling unpleasantly hot.
Out on the patio in the small area that is in permanent shade,
adopted by Sally as 'her' spot, it peaked at 97.7 degrees!! In
short - 'scorchio'! Too hot for my liking. . . walked around
7:30pm. As I set off, a cloud front sneaked in front of the sun,
immediately making things just a little more bearable. . . BB
called briefly . . . TVd . . . cooked and ate four cumberland
sausages in two bread rolls, some chocolate and ice cream as a
brief splattering of unexpected rain fell . . . TVd until bed at
midnight. s
20 - Woken by Sally needing the
garden just after 6am . . .PCd this . . .walked and found a penny
. . . started the re-build up of the stairs wall in the 'attic
corridor' and slapped on some plaster. Cut, fixed and cemented in
place, some edge bead on the awkward stairs corner . . ate a
couple of bowls of corn flakes and lay down to nap mid afternoon
. . woken by Sally only an hour or so later needing to use the
garden again with her upset stomach, which seems to be dragging
on rather this time. :o( . . cut and glued in place some noggins
in the stud wall adjacent to the attic stairs, to eventually
support the plasterboard. I'm actually not 'that' far from being
able to fit the last sheet of plasterboard to finally close off
that end of the wall around the stairs, but the problem is, I
don't have any plasterboard left. Pretty much one single sheet
would do the job there, but I have no means of transporting the
thing back from the DIY store - it's just too big (and fragile)
to go in the car. Dunno how to get around that! I think I'm gonna
have to give it a go at buying a sheet and then trying to cut it
up into car sized chunks in the DIY store's car park!!!!! I'm
putting that off because it's gonna be real awkward, is unlikely
to be successful - and I'm gonna find it real embarassing. :o( .
. . walked . . . stopped for sausage and chips takeaway on the
way home . . . BB called . . . TVd and ate chocolate and biscuits
until bed around 12:30am. s
21 - Up around 7am . . .walked .
. . drove to Wickes at Longwell Green and returned the two pieces
of 'surplus to requirements' plywood, and stocked up on bags of
plaster, PVA and more wood glue, etc. Only £9.96 after the
£18.98 credit on the returned plywood. :o) Drove on to Asda and
shopped for groceries - and chocolate and ice cream - £34.48. .
cooked and ate four quarter pound beef burgers in bread rolls . .
. slept all afternoon . . .walked and found another hoop earring.
. . LB popped by and gave me a plastic tub of new potatoes to try
(as I'd requested) from her allotment! . . . PS popped round for
chats and brought another DVD to watch. 'Into Perdition' I think
it was called. Engaging, with some very striking scene sets. .ate
biscuits, Brussel pate sandwiches with a bag of crisps and then
some ice cream. . . TVd/PCd. Didn't feel at all tired and ended
up somehow staying up all night!! s
22 - Ended up still awake
approaching the time to walk Sally, and eventually just stayed up
and walked her early around 6am. . .finally to bed and fitfully
slept until around midday . . . did more plaster 'undercoat'
build up of the wall at the bottom of the attic stairs, and then
did the final noggins (for the stair rail) in the stud wall
opposite. . . spent absolutely ages scraping all the potatoes LB
had donated . . .ate a banana to keep me going and then walked.
Still very hot but a much nicer cooling breeze. . . drank a glass
of red wine while cooking up all LBs donated potatoes. Ate almost
all of them with half a chicken and huge amounts of butter. Not
bad. :o) . . BB called . . . drank the last of the bottle of wine
and then ended up applying a little filler to the floorboards in
the corridor to the attic. . . TVd eating choc ices and chocolate
until bed around midnight. dd
23 - Up at 6:30am with a
headache. Annadin, coffee and cigarettes for breakfast. .PCd a
bit of this . . walked. Exchanged a few words with some dog
walkers. A while ago when I had a call from the local beat
manager policeman, he mentioned in passing that the local schools
liason officer had a broken ankle. According to one of the dog
walkers - it happened on the last day of school for the 'older'
kids. According to her - they were all fueled up on drink and
drugs, and they had attacked him and broken his ankle in the
process!! She said the official police line was that he was
injured whilst apprehending someone!! Jeezuz! :o( . . touched
base with Sis1 and confirmed she still wants supplies of firewood
for her winter open fire (and preferably in foot long lengths!).
. . sorted out a bit in the attic and then moved the large amount
of warped 'failed staircase' timber (£££!) down and out onto
the patio. Used the circular saw and a hatchet to cut up the
timber into more or less foot long pieces and filled up around
eight sacks full . .Mum called briefly . . drove to Sis1s and
dropped off the firewood and had a look at her bathroom and porch
building sites. Tried as hard as I could not to be 'too'
critical, but it was really easy to be so. She's had loads of
hassles with the 'jerry' workmen who've messed up her new
bathroom (she's refused to pay them - and I think they've even
accepted they aren't going to seek payment, the workmanship is SO
bad), and it really was just THE most awful mess of substandard
nonsense I've ever seen! Even a slapdash DIYer like me would have
come up with a better result! As for her porch - well - it's
huge! Far too big (I'm sure that would have needed planning
permission, I don't care what they say!), frankly ugly, and I
have a strong suspicion THAT isn't being done 'right'. E.g. - I
could see no sign of any wall ties at all, tying it in to the
house - and the inner wall insulation appeared to me a mix of
left over bits and pieces, some with a silver vapour barrier,
some without!!! Came away feeling pretty up tight about it all,
myself! No wonder Sis1 is in a bit of a state about it all! If
only I had the energy to have a go at it all for her (and she'd
happily pay me) - but I just can't. :o( . . did laundry. .
.touched base with Mum and gave her MY opinion of Sis1s troubles.
. .BB called . . . ate Brussel pate sandwiches with two bags of
crisps. . .TVd . . . sanded and painted undercoat on the runs of
floorboards up to the attic stairs. . . walked . . . Mum called
to let me know the details of Sis2s flights . . . ate four
Cumberland sausages and the rest of LBs potatoes with much
butter. . . TVd/PCd until early before bed. aaa
24 - Up at 8am . . . walked and
found a penny. . . cut my hair . . just couldn't face doing
anything and sat around/TVd . . . ate half a chicken, most of a
tub of coleslaw and four pieces of bread and butter for lunch,
followed by too much chocolate . . . slept the afternoon away
until 5pm . . . Sis1 called to touch base and ask if I was
interested in giving her and her friend a lift somewhere and
back, on Saturday (for money!). Not sure I want all the hassle -
which would have to include trying to de-sawdust/Sallyhair the
inside of the car! . . PCd a bit of this . . .walked and walked
the extra and popped in the store for a birthday card and token
gift box of chocolates for mum, and a four pack of Red Bull
drinks for the drive. . . quickly gave the car a bit of a vacuum,
to try and remove the layers of Sally hair, cigarette ash and
sawdust . . . Sis2 called from Mums to confirm she'd already
arrived . . . loaded the car up, locked up the house and
eventually hit the road around 8pm. Stopped for petrol (15.48ltrs
@ £15). .a smooth, not 'too' hot run down, and as I'd hoped,
without much traffic. Took it easy and experimented with
different ways of driving, and ended up taking my shoes off (as I
drove!) and driving in my socks! Even sat kinda cross legged (one
leg at a time) for some of the journey!! Not very safe, but eased
some of the aches in my legs and back. . . arrived at Mums
somewhere around 10pm and unloaded everything into the garage . .
. coffee and chats until early, before retiring to sleep with
Sally in the garage after 1am. Must be a lot less light pollution
down there - amazing, star filled sky. a
25 - Pretty poor nights sleep. .
woken by Sally around 7am. . . walked down to Battery Gardens and
then cut up past the holiday chalets and did the long walk
through the woods. . things have changed in the woods. The big
fallen tree that I usually sit on has been cut up into something
like six foot lengths, and the lengths have been buried upright
in the ground, in a small circle in the middle of the path, with
a weird wooden carved bowl like structure in the centre! Faces
have been carved into each of the uprights! Like some sort of
pagan henge, or withces circle!!! Yucky. Why oh why oh why do
people insist on f***ing everything up like that? Why couldn't
they have just left it unspolied and natural? Feels like the
peaceful ambience of that place has now been destroyed by that
man made intrusion. Sat nearby and had a cigarette anyway, trying
to accept it. High up on the trees all around the clearing, more
carved, gargoil like faces looked down. Horrible. Pointless. If I
lived down near there - I think I'd even be tempted to vandalise
it! Hope someone does! . .carried on with the walk out onto
Churston Cove (people camping just off the beach). . hesitated on
the cliff path and watched the oldish dog walker with the two
lurchers, who'd passed me with a polite good morning in the
woods. He walked straight down the beach with his dogs, to the
waters edge - and then just kept walking! It appeared to be his
usual morning routine. Straight into the water until he was
swimming - with both dogs swimming along with him, and one in
particular swimming around and around him in cirles as he went.
They all actually swam out some distance and appeared to be
making for a moored yacht, but as they approached the yacht
pulled anchor and sailed off. They eventually swam all the way
around to Fishcombe Cove and were just emerging from the water as
Sally and I reached the beach! Blimey - that's some dog walk they
do!! . . . sat around in the garden drinking coffee and chatting
all day. . napped for maybe an hour or so in the oven hot garage.
Headachey. . .the usual 'discussions' (arguing!) about where we
should go to eat for Mums birthday meal. The complication seemed
to be, Mum wanting somewhere we could take Sally (and although I
said it didn't matter, I wasn't too happy about the prospect of
leaving her behind, because the garage was hot like an oven!). I
didn't help the arguments because quite frankly, I really, REALLY
didn't want to have to go out and be amongst people - and
particularly not to have to go to a pub to eat, as Mum had
suggested! :o/ . . eventually all got in the car and headed off
around 6pm. Stopped off at Battery Gardens and walked around
until Sally had 'done her business'. Oh NO!!! Would you believe
it! Sally's stomach is still not quite right, and somehow when
she popped, she managed to cover herself with it, all in her fur
around her back legs! Worse than she's ever done! Typical!! Right
when we were just about to take her in somewhere and eat! Had to
do a frantic dash along the coastal path and down to one of the
slipways so she could 'have a wash'. Cool dog. Didn't take much
persuading for her to paddle in and then lie down in the gently
lapping waves. . Left the car parked where it was and all walked
along the coastal path down to the hussle and bustle of Brixham
harbour. . some more umming and ahhing about where to eat but
eventually ended up on the upper floor of a cafe where Mum and
Sis2 have eaten before, where dogs were welcome (which is very
nice for me, but which seems quite incredible in this day and
age, on health and safety grounds!?). The waitress was Polish (is
there anyone left in Poland? How can this country possibly
accomodate all these EU migrants? Who's next into the EU?
Bulgaria is it? I guess the whole population of Bulgaria will be
moving here next!!!) on her first day working there - very
pleasant but didn't seem to know what breadcrumbs were, so Mum
had her fish in batter. Ate a large plate of cod and chips,
overlooking the harbour, with Sally (wet) laying down next to us
having the odd tit bit. . Embarassing as we left! Sally pulled on
ahead of me as we picked our way out past the tables, and then
proceeded to have a damn good shake, right next to a family
eating their meal!!!!! I didn't look back and made a hasty exit!
. . . sat on a seat overlooking the harbour while eating a double
scoop coffee ice cream . .eventually walked away from the crowds
(oh thank god!!!!!) back up to Battery Gardens to sit on a seat
and chat for ages before eventually returning to the car. Drove
around through the harbour area, sight seeing a little
(tremendous sunset) before driving back to Mums. . . more garden
sitting and coffee and chats. BIG explosions from some firework
display, maybe in Paignton, around 10pm. Couldn't see them from
Mums garden. Shame we hadn't stayed down on the seat with the
view for a bit longer. . . TVd and at Mums suggestion, ended up
inflicting some of my 'music videos' on Sis2. She never did get
round to actually watching them when I sent them to her in
Bahrain, because she was worried they may have detrimentally
affected her laptop!. . . eventually to the garage to bed after
1am. aa
26 - Woken by Sally around
7:30am. . . walked . . sat in the garden and chatted all day .
.ate corned beef sandwiches with pickled onions and crisps for
lunch . . napped a little . . ate salmon, cheese, potatoes,
b&b etc. for tea. Finished off the meal by sharing the box of
Milk Tray I'd given to Mum for her birthday. I made the mistake
of chewing the last of the ones I had, which was the toffee. All
of a sudden, the loose tooth that's been wobbling around in my
mouth for ages (the one that was hurting, that the dentist said I
should have out, but which I'd insisted I should keep for as long
as possible) suddenly became apparant in my mouth full of
toffee!!!!! Stuck in the toffee, it'd been pulled clean
out!!!!!!!!!! No pain at all, and it didn't even bleed!!!!! How
weird is THAT! Oh well - one less to worry about - again. . .
walked Sally with Sis2 down to Battery Gardens and back . . . all
watched the 'Penguins' DVD Sis2 had recommended and that Mum had
rented from her local store. Jeeze - do those penguins have a
tough life! All seems so incredibly fragile! Won't take much more
of mans' selfish activities to make them extinct, I bet! . .
Getting on for midnight before I headed off to the garage. Felt
all awake and ended up sitting in the dark in the garden for
quite a while before eventually laying down to try and sleep.
27
Tossed and turned, tossed
and turned, up and down, up and down. A REALLY bad night with
hardly any sleep at all! Eventually woken somewhere around 7am by
the young seagull 'whistling' incessantly until it'd flown down
into the garden for its drink. . All walked Sally down to Battery
Gardens somewhere around 9am. Much sitting on seats looking out
over Torbay . . . eventually back to Mums for yet more sitting
around in the garden chatting. Had a bit of a dabble with Sis2s
laptop while still sat out in the garden. Laptops are very cool.
. briefly spotted the Red Arrows aerobatic team in the sky. .
napped for maybe an hour . . . walked and then fed Sally. She
left a little in her bowl uneaten, so that ended up getting put
up on top of the garage roof so the seagull with the bad leg
(Mums friend) could eat it. . . eventually loaded everything into
the car, hugs goodbye, and on the road around 8:45pm. . a pretty
smooth drive back home, with rather more traffic on the roads
than when I went down. . someone had a firework display going on
somewhere near Weston-Super-Mare, RIGHT next to the motorway!!
That shouldn't have been allowed!! 'Distracting' isn't the word.
More worrying. The colourful explosions weren't very much higher
than the level of the carriageway and the traffic actually had to
drive through the smoke!!! . . back home around 10:45pm. Blimey -
it's still there - intact!! . . Opening the door of the house I
was hit by a 'solid' wall of heat!! Wow - incredibly hot (80+F)
and SO stuffy! Unloaded everything from the car, got Sally back
in and supplied with fresh water, and then raced around all over
the house opening every single skylight and window. Took around
half an hour for the temperature to drop by around ten degrees .
. BB called briefly . . touched base with Mum and confirmed safe
arrival . .ate the Mum donated pork pie with two bags of crisps .
. . BB called . . . unwound in front of the TV for a bit and ate
a couple of bowls of co-cop pops . . . soon to bed, exhausted. a
28 - Up around 8am. I needed that
sleep - and could use a bunch more! . . . walked and did a couple
of carrier bags of 'litter duty'. . . bit the bullet ( I HAD to -
I just couldn't stop 'rehearsing' it in my mind all the time!) ,
put a new blade in my Stanley knife, grabbed the tape measure and
whatever else I thought I may need, left Sally at home, and drove
to Wickes (after I got the car going! It wouldn't start at first
- so I pushed it down the street to at least be outside the house
- then suddenly it decided to start!?) at Longwell Green for the
large sheet of plasterboard to finish off the stud wall. Oooh,
ooh, ooh - the car park was unusually empty. Parked in a space in
such a way that I blocked the space next to it, and then went in
and bought the plasterboard (2400x1200x12.5mm @ £5.26). Back out
to the car park and lay the sheet flat on the tarmac next to the
car and pretty quickly managed to cut it in half lengthways with
the knife and the straight edge I'd taken. HOT work in the
scorching sun! . Yippeeee!! The two pieces 'just', JUST managed
to actually fit fully inside the car from dash board to hatch
back with the passenger seat layed as flat as it would go, with
the headrest removed. That was more painless than my mental
rehearsals had envisaged it would probably have been. :o) Back
home and successfully unloaded without snapping the two pieces,
and with what appears to be the minimum amount of damage to the
edges. EXCELLENT! Drank a quick bottle of water and then drove
back to the store for some more plasterboard screws (£3.19) and
one more big roll of fibreglass insulation (£18.29). Briefly
stopped for a bottle of milk on the way home at the new
'local-ish' store that's been open for a while. Blimey - open 7
days a week, from 7 till 11, and a pretty large selection of
stuff! That 'may' be useful. The 'staff-wanted' sign on the doors
advertising for an 'evening supervisor' got me thinking - but not
'too' much. Almost tempting though. Pretty local - and god knows
I could use the money. . .thank goodness THAT is over and done
with. Buying and transporting that big bit of pasterboard to
enable me to 'finish' off that stud wall had become a real mental
block. Not in the mood to do the work at the moment, but at least
now I can, whenever I want. Very pleased. :o) . . PCd just a bit
of this. I think I need to just sit around quietly for a bit - to
'recover' from all that sitting around and chatting of the last
couple of days!!. . . sat around/TVd/PCd/tidied up a bit. . . ate
a couple of chicken and vegetable pastry pies . . .walked and
found a dog choke chain. . . couldn't resist and ended up having
a bash at putting up the awkward bits of plasterboard on the stud
wall. I'm not much good with plasterboard. I hate the stuff. Big
struggle and rather a patchwork of little pieces around the attic
stairs, but had it all in place by around 11:45pm. Took a bit of
a liberty and was still hammering around 11pm, but because the
neighbours appeared to be out. . . grabbed a chicken and
vegetable pastry pie with a bag of crisps and then some ice cream
before collapsing exhausted into bed around 1:30am. a
29 - Up around 8am again . . .
walked . . .PCd just a bit of this. Transferred over the little
bit of video I'd done at Mums and had a go at doing something
with it. Didn't really sneak enough, but somehow I managed to
cobble together a little token video of us all sat on one of the
seats overlooking Torbay at Battery Gardens, set to Dock O' The
Bay. :o) That took all morning and gave me a pounding headache!!
. touched base briefly with Mum/Sis2 . . ate Brussel pate
sandwiches with two bags of crisps and some chocolate in front of
the TV before laying down to nap the rest of the afternoon away .
. . woken by Sally around 7pm . . . walked in a hint of drizzle.
. . TVd . . . BB called . . . put a few dabs of filler on the
stud wall . . cooked and ate four cheeseburgers and then some
chocolate, ice cream and biscuits . . . TVd until bed around 1am.
as
30 - Woken by Sally around
7:30am. . . walked and did a bunch of carrier bags of litter
duty. I know I shouldn't get all 'attached' to clearing up the
litter over the field, but during the school summer holidays, it
is 'almost' possible to actually make an impression on it and
keep the field pretty clear (relative!). Found a small yellow
rubber duck with a squeaker. lolol . . . PCd this . . .oops!
Ended up not moving and PCing the entire day away messing around
with the old audio tape Mum had let me have. A poor audio tape of
an even poorer, scratched 78rpm record, of Mum and Dad's wedding
ceremony, together with a small photo album!! Committed the audio
to the PC and then spent hours and hours trying (and largely
failing) to remove some of the scratches and noise, and generally
improve the quality, to at least 'mostly' audible. Weird
strangely emotional feelings listening to that 'ancient'
recording over and over. I've reached a point in my life where I
have absolutely NO time whatsoever for any man made religions,
and precious little time for those who do (just look at the mess
they're making of the world!) , but there was something about
that old ceremony and the old fashioned authoratative way the
minister delivered it that got to me a bit. It/he made it easily
understood how comforting, such rituals and beliefs could once
have been. Weird. . Finally gingerly dismantled the photo album
and got all that scanned in by around 7pm! What the hell I can do
with it all now is a whole nother matter?!. . .walked and found
5p. Some guy walking a little friendly bull mastiff type of dog
(is that what they are? You know - the type that everyone seems
to want as a fashion accessory these days! Grrr. ) came over and
asked if I knew who's dog it was!?? Apparantly he'd found it
running loose and'd had it a couple of days now. That seemed
particularly stupid to me and I suggested he'd be best to hand it
in at Staple Hill police station for them to hand on to the
council dog warden (microchip checks, etc), because anyone having
lost it would surely be frantically calling the dog warden/police
etc. He said he HAD put some notices in a couple of shop windows!
What a burk! Well - all I can say is, if I ever lose Sally
(heaven forbid! I'd be distraught beyond imagining!), I hope she
doesn't end up 'hiding out' with him! . . cooked and ate a pizza
with extra cheese and onion . . . BB called . . . PS popped round
for chats, TV and biscuits until early. . Yayyy. He'd brought
round his mobile phone for me, as I'd suggested he might, because
his daughter had upgraded her phone (again - as kids so often
have to these days! Sheesh) and they'd all swapped phones in a
'knock on' way, and now had that one surplus. He suggested I
could give him £10 for it, so I did - and now have a 'fancier'
phone. A silver Sagem MYC4-2 - a tiny little 'clam' type
(although I think I prefer an old 'brick' type myself), with a
low res. camera on board, all with the box etc! Only thing
missing was the instruction manual. . . PCd until around 2am,
tracking down and grabbing a copy of the operating manual for the
phone. as
31 - Woken by Sally around
7:15am. . . walked. . . spent a ridiculous amount of time out on
the patio in a hint of drizzle, attempting to cut up thin slivers
of bricks with the disc cutter to fit in the awkward gap between
the attic floor joists and the top of the wall next to the attic
stairs. I'm pretty sure, no matter what I do, once that area is
plastered, it'll develop a crack in the plaster along the top of
those bricks, where things will be expanding and contracting at
different rates. Nothing much I can do about that I suspect, but
I tried my best and eventually cemented in the bricks with huge
amounts of PVA adhesive on everything. . . ate Brussels pate
sandwiches with two bags of crisps and then some biscuits. . .
slept through until woken by Sally after 6pm . . . walked . . .
BB called briefly. . vacuumed and tidied up just a little, trying
to maximise the amount of rubbish in my bin. I've gotta re-read
those leaflets to find out when it starts, but it won't be long
before the council only empties that bin once a fortnight, and
expects the other small brown bins they've provided, to be used
for food waste and recyclable stuff instead. Trouble with that
idea for me is, I don't have any food waste, I already put
anything compostable into that old dustbin on the corner of the
garden, I already put all the tins and bottles in the recycle bin
- so - I don't really know what else I'm supposed to do!
Ridiculous that despite all these new arrangements, they STILL
aren't accepting plastic drink containers in the doorstep
recycling collection. If you want to recycle those, you have to
make a special journey somewhere far
away!! With my knowledge of rubbish from doing all this crazy
litter duty stuff over the field, I can confidently suggest that
the majority of bulky land fill waste these days is precisely
that - plastic drink/milk containers! Just look at all the
hedgrows and rivers - everywhere! They need to address THAT -
urgently - and not faff around with 'food' waste - which in my
opinion, with starving people all over the world still - simply
shouldn't exist!! If you ain't gonna eat it - don't buy or cook
it, fatso! :o/. . . TVd . . . suddenly felt really unwell. REALLY
unwell, and ended up all hot and cold sweats and nauseaus.
Somehow ended up laying on the floor of the conservatory by the
open patio door for the fresh air (drizzley) - and was eventually
sick out the back door onto the patio!!!! :o( . . . TVd/PCd until
early, feeling real rough. I've also noticed of late, that my
'emotions' (such as they are!!) seem to be swishing about a bit
nearer the surface than usual. I've had a 'welling up' and had to
fight back tears on a handful of occasions of late. While
watching several TV shows - while dabbling with that Mum and Dad
wedding tape - and of course while watching all the daily horrors
reported on the news. There was one particular segment of news
footage about the Israel/Lebanon outrage (that the world
'community' is just sitting by and watching happen - or dare I
say even encouraging, for political reasons way beyond my
understanding! I used to think the UN had a noble purpose. No
more. :o( ) which highlighted the pollution of the surrounding
seas, caused by the bombing of a fuel storage depot. HUGE oil
slicks, laying waste to everything. They showed a close up of a
small crab - stood in a slick of oil - covered in oil -
frantically trying to clean itself, with the dainty movements of
it's legs. Hopeless. Powerful painful image - I had to turn over
real quick. :o( . . . eventualy felt just a 'little' better and
ate bowls of co-co pops and choc ices until eventually to bed
before 3am. s
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