July
1 - Woken around 6am by the
sound of Sally gnawing on her bone! Managed to snooze on and got
up around 7:15am . . . walked and found a penny. Poor old Sally -
she pooped three seperate times, and each time, it was like she
was producing pebbles!! . . vacuumed and managed to pick up most
of the bits of bone that absolutely cover the house . . . sat in
the garden for a while, but big heavy rain clouds threatened to
live up to the 'heavy showers' forecast . . .PCd this . . .left
Sally at home and walked to the Jewson warehouse in Speedwell and
asked for someones permission to wander around the adjacent
and much overgrown and vandalised old brick works that is
apparently a listed building. Unfortunately the guy on the
counter felt obliged to go and ask the boss in the
office and he came back with a refusal. I pleaded my case and
explained about the website and all, so he went and asked again.
(He would have said yes if he could.) He came back with another
no and conveyed nonsense about how the place was unsafe
because of all the needles and I should try and get
some shots from outside the fence. Well duh! Maybe Ive
become complacent because so many people are helpful and willing
when I ask such things, but his supercilious refusal really
annoyed me, particularly in view of the fact that the vandalised
gaps in the fences, really made asking permission superfluous.
Childishly I suggested to the nice guy behind the counter,
well Id just have to break in some time then!
(Early on a sunny Sunday morning would probably be favourite.)
Dunno if Ill actually have the nerve there ARE
cameras on that builders yard! . . the weather didnt look
as bad as was forecast so checked out library books and ended up
walking up Kingswood with Sally in search of a couple of the
shots Ive yet to bag. . .found a penny and another baseball
cap, that should be ok after a wash . . . ate biscuits with a
coffee and then salad and grated cheese sandwiches with crisps
for a mid afternoon lunch . . . napped until 6pm . . . walked and
scooped more pebbles! Found 12p and another big two inch diameter
silver hoop earring, just like the other one I found recently.
That makes two pairs stashed in my cupboard now. lol . . . PCd
pictures . . . BB called . . . carried on PCing a handful of
photos until gone midnight and then uploaded the additions to the
Kingswood, Various and Regent Street pages on the new site. Couldnt resist throwing up a couple of
photos that Id already taken, of the old brick works in
Speedwell, which kinda explains why I really want to get in there
to look around!! . . .ate three cheese and onion pastry rolls and
crisps and bananas and biscuits before bed around 1:30am. pa
2 - Up around 7:15am . . .
walked and found 4p. Forecast is for big heavy showers - got
caught out in a short one! . . .pondered the library books but
there wasn't much to be done in such showery weather. Ended up
leaving Sally at home and driving to the Kingswood library. Spent
a couple of hours there meticulously going through a couple of
shelves of the 'local interest' books, looking for 'now and then
photo fodder'. Ended up coming away with yet another handful of
books, for just the one or two photos in each. Driving home
around 12:30pm, got caught behind the refuse lorry and had to sit
and wait until there was room to pass. As I sat, I spotted a pine
table and chairs, dumped out in someones garden. Uh oh - gonna
have to walk back and have a look at that! . . . cooked up four
sausages, beans and mushrooms and ate with three slices of bread
and butter for lunch. . . sunny spells. It's either succumb to
the need to sleep, walk around and take a couple of local photos,
or - aha - better walk up and look in that persons garden at that
table. It looked real similar to the one I bought for £60, and I
know from that one, that it is quite possible to sand/plane off a
layer of wood if the surface is only pitted and scratched. .
walked up the road with Sally. Blimey - ok - the
top IS all scratched and written on by children, and two of the
chairs DO have broken rails beneath the seats that hold the legs
together, but it's definitely worth
asking if I can have it. Could probably make up some matching
rails for the seats with a bit of dowel from the DIY store, and
that table top can definitely be sanded down (by half an inch or
more if necessary - which it isn't) , and with a lick of antique
varnish, it'd be as good as new(ish)!! Knocked on the door and
the young woman quickly said I could have it, but she felt she
needed to tell me someone else had asked a day or so before, but
hadn't yet come back, so I'd better be quick. I WAS quick.
Dropped Sally off at home, drove straight back up there and
crammed the car full and managed to drive it all back in one go,
with the hatch back open. The bolts to attach the table top to
the pillar leg, are missing, but I'm sure I'll have some that
will do, in my expansive 'nut and bolt collection'. (Its a 'guy'
thing. lol). Only trouble is - where the hell do I put it all?!!
SO much clutter in this house already, hardly room to move!! -
but I just couldn't say no could I? It could end up being better
than the one I bought that I'm using in the kitchen! Damn - knew
I should have gone and bought that cheap belt sander they were
advertising in Lidl the other week! . . .napped for a couple of
hours but woke with the same nasty headache I'd developed in the
library. Crunched more annadin . . .
walked with a library book and tried getting some
local pictures, but the weird light in the heavy showers sky made
everything useless silhouettes. Gonna have to do em all again.
Did get quite a kick out of figuring out where one of the shots
was. The picture in the book has mistakenly been published in
mirror image! lol Gonna have to wait for morning sun to try and
get the shot to prove it. .Lots of the long straw like grass
around the edges of the rugby field has been cut and left laying.
Sally has been acting hunting dog like and sticking her nose into
the grass this last week or so. The other day she came out with a
dead mouse! It was kinda hard to tell how long it had been dead,
because fur is kinda warm to the touch anyway, so I figured
shed just found a corpse. Tonight I was proved wrong. She
definitely caught and instantly killed with a single powerful
bite, a mouse in the cut grass!!! :o( Its like I tell
people the wolf in her is just below the fur - as far as
she is concerned, we dont go walking for
exercise or play we go hunting!! Poor mice. :o( Found 18p.
. .PCd this . . .BB called . . .TVd. Ate corned beef and lettuce
sandwiches with crisps and a banana and bowls of cornlakes . .
.HEAVY showers! . . . to bed after 1am. paaas
3 - Up around 8:15am . . .walked
with a library book and found a penny. Carried on walking and got
serious with some Speedwell photos in a couple of showers. .back
home around midday and returned Mums ansaphone call. Sis2 has
sold her house and is glad to be rid of the problem! Sounds like
all good news from her side right now. :o) . . . skipped food and
PCd pictures - for hours!! . . . Sis1 popped in for a coffee. LB
called by and handed me a bag of chilli sausages - 'because I'd
said how good they were'! Hmmm? You know what else is REALLY
good? A suitcase of used £50 notes!! lol . . Some talk from Sis1
about maybe sharing the driving and bringing Mum up to Bristol,
because she had a week off!! Difficult, but I declined, because I
was only down there 'recently' and will probably aim to go again
around Mums birthday. I don't want to be forced into all that
driving and sleeping over and stuff, just because it's convenient
for Sis1s ever busy lifestyle! Feel a bit guilty. Sis1 took one
of the bags of surplus earth I have stacked in the front garden .
. PCd Speedwell pictures for hours more and finally uploaded the
usuable stuff to the new site. I was right about that library book having
mistakenly printed a mirror image of the real quarry picture.
(Speedwell #2) :o) I'm gonna have to re-do the now photo though.
I didn't get it (two shots stuck together!) quite right. .
.walked late . . .touched base with Mum to confirm she'd seen the
final of the come dancing program and was happy 'Tasha' had won.
lol . . .BB called . . .cooked up four LB donated chilli sausages
and just ate them with four pieces of bread and butter . . . TVd
and ate biscuits till early. Plenty of noise till late, drifting
over the miles from the music systems at the St Pauls Carnival.
Jeeze - that must be SO loud to be audible here!! ps
4 - Woken by Sally at 8:15am . .
. walked in wellingtons in the rain . . .The worrying little lump
on Sallys back seems to have got bigger, although
isnt causing her ANY discomfort at all!!!!! Got her to lay
down and parted her fur and had a good look at it. It really does
look like a spot- like we get. Pinched a good lump of
her skin and gave it a very gentle squeeze, like Id do if
it was on me sure enough, some poison was expressed!!
Mopped it with tissues and praised her just laying there like
that and made a good fuss of her, although she had no idea why.
Gonna have to keep a close eye on that and maybe go see the vet!
:o( . . . did laundry, TVd/PCd, trimmed my hair, cooked up three
chilli sausages, two eggs and chips for lunch while watching
Schumaker win the French grand prix. . .napped for a few hours .
. . walked and found 2p. Sally found another mouse to kill!! :o(
Spent five minutes doing 'litter duty'!! Must've picked up a
whole case of empty beer bottles - someone had been sat on the
seat drinking and just throwing the empties across the field into
the grass! Grrr. Plenty of broken glass around too.:o( . . BB
called . . . TVd. . . ate biscuits bowls of cornflakes . . . to
bed at midnight. ps
5 - Woken by Sally at 7:15am . .
. sunny morning. Walked and found another pair of sunglasses and
another dog tag! . . called the number on the tag and was given a
description of where to drop it back in. The guy didn't know the
address!? Seems as though it's a divorce situation - he visits
his ex and his kids every weekend - one of the kids had been
walking his dog and lost the tag. I'll see if I can find the
house tonight when I walk Sally - he gave me a good description
of the place, and the approximate house number . . .Stuff on
breakfast TV about Mums favourite Come dancing show, so quickly
called Mum to make sure she was watching. . .Was stroking Sally
and felt the lump on her back again. Felt worse!! Turned out some
of her fur was matted with a little blood from where the spot had
healed over, so it actually wasnt worse at all really.
Again like Id do if it was on me, I know from
experience that taking the scud off and giving
another gentle squeeze, would probably express the last of
whatever poison may be there. She didnt complain or exhibit
any distress, so very, VERY gently, I picked the scud off with a
finger nail and then pinched a generous amount of her skin
between my finger and thumb and VERY gently and carefully,
squeezed up and out. Oh my god!!! Eeeeewwww!!!!! Whatever that
lump was, and whatever had caused it I dont know, but with
very little persuading, the whole bloody thing came out! A
grissley lump about a quarter of an inch (or more!) in length!!!!
Bloody hell!!!!! Eeeeewwww!!!!! Eeeeewwww!!!!! Eeeeewwww!!!!!
Just then Mum called back. Said Id get back to her. Mopped
up with tissues and cleaned up. Sally seemed none the wiser. The
lump has gone! Even found it hard to relocate the
area of concern, now its all gone down! Could it be that
whatever that was, (maybe a thorn?) will now be resolved? Gonna
have to keep a real close eye on that for the next day or so
and maybe go see the vet, just to make sure everything is
ok. Blimey bit of a shocker/stomach turner/worry! Sally
happily accepted a lump of 'you've been a good girl' chocolate
without a care in the world. . Called Mum back and explained I
had bloody hands and was in the middle of operating
when she called!!! :o| . . .Left Sally at home and drove to Lidl
to have a look to see if there were any cheap belt sanders left,
and to check out the cheap blood pressure monitor thingy that
BBd suggested I ought to get. No sanders ended up
impulse buying the £14.99 pressure monitor and regretted
it before Id even driven out of the car park. What on earth
do I want one of those for? I can see my journal degenerating
into a record of bodily functions (as well as a list of what I
eat!!)!! lololol . .stopped off at the DIY store and bought a new
halogen 300w (figured the original 500w was overdoing things)
bulb for a couple of pounds, for my garden 'night sun' light,
which blew with a blue flash the other night. . returned home,
waited for me to be all relaxed and then used the blood pressure
monitor for the first time. I dunno what those different types of
blood pressure actually are but the instructions said that
a normal systolic blood pressure was between 105 and
140mmHG. Mine was 136. A normal diastolic pressure
was between 60 and 90 mmHG. Mine was 80. Heart rate was 66. I
figure for a 40 a day chain smoker who eats junk food,
thats ok. . .climbed on a patio chair and changed the
garden light bulb . . . cooked up a couple of the steak and
kidney pies that next door gave me that have been in MY fridge
for at least seven months, and ate them with chips and gravy for
lunch . . . napped for a few hours . . . walked. Managed to find
the right house and return the dog tag without any problem.
Detoured down to the fire station cause they had their high rise
platform up and were spraying their hose onto the training tower.
Would have made a good photo, but I got there too late so all
that walking for nothing. . .
on the way back home,
just down the road, I spotted a blackbird on top of a low elbow
height hedge, right next to the pavement, not far from the pub!?.
It didnt move as I approached!! Oh no! Theres
something wrong with it more than likely been caught by a
cat. The hedge it was sat on surrounds a garden Ive often
seen a cat sat sunning itself in. It was very obviously blind in
its right eye. Seemed pretty obvious it was doomed (either from
being re-caught by a cat, or who knows what from passing drunken
yobs it was in a terrible vulnerable position). It tugged
at my heart strings but I figured it was really just best to
leave it where it was and let things take their
course. Returned home and fed Sally. . .damn, damn, damn. That
poor little birds fate preyed on my mind. Ended up getting
a big plastic bucket, a rag to cover it with and left Sally
eating, and walked all the way back down the road to see if it
was still just sat there. Damn it was! I snuck up on
its blind side and made a grab, but it fluttered down onto
the ground, just inside an adjacent garden wall. I leaned over,
grabbed again, and was soon locking Sally in the conservatory as
I stood in the garden with the bird in the bucket, wondering what
the hell to do now! Figured the best thing would be to put it up
on the bird table out of the reach of cats. Loaded up the bird
table with some grated cheese and a bowl of water and tried to
put the bird up on the table. It immediately flopped straight
down onto the garden and headed for some plants to hide behind.
So it definitely couldnt fly. No good at all
cats would have it in the night for sure!! Poor little
thing I ended up traumatising it even more by having to
chase it around on the patio for a bit before I could catch it
again!! :o( figured maybe the next best thing was to put it up on
next doors new bathroom roof, and just let it take its
chances. Stood on a chair, put it on the roof and then had to
rush upstairs to peer out of the bedroom window and see how it
was doing. As I watched, it waddled across the roof and then
fluttered straight down into next doors garden! Within five
seconds, I saw a cats face appear looking over the broken fence a
couple of feet above where it had crash landed!!! Ohhhh
NOOOO!!!!!! Raced downstairs with excited Sally in hot pursuit,
dashed across the garden, flung the back gate open and let sally
deal with the cat. She had a great time chasing it down the lane
and over a wall. The bird was on the floor hiding behind a potted
plant in next doors garden!! Secured Sally and then knocked on
next door, armed with my bucket and asked if I could go into her
garden. She let me through and I managed to retrieve the
blackbird . . Back out on the patio and back to square one with a
broken bird in a bucket, for whom I now feel entirely
responsible!! :o( . . .Rushed around the house trying desperately
to find something which could act as a bird cage. Tried calling
LB to see if I could borrow a cat basket, but she wasnt in.
Ended
up digging the big plastic trays that Ive been meaning to
get rid of recently, out of the back of the cupboard. One upside
down, perched on top of the other, seemed to make a fairly safe
enclosure. Put some newspaper on the bottom, put in a bowl of
water and a saucer of grated cheese, and eventually managed to
get the bird in there too, all placed up on top of the patio
table for safety. It occurred to me that the nearby ants nest
made that unsafe those ants seem to frequent that table
looking for whatever supplies it is they require for their army.
The last thing I need is to come down in the morning and find the
bird has been eaten alive by ants thanks to me! Sorted
through the conservatory and came up with four old Tupperware
containers. Managed to ease up each leg of the table in turn and
slip a Tupperware under them. Filled each Tupperware with water
from the hose pipe. Bird hospital with a moat! Covered part of
the box with an old sheet, to make it seem dark and safe for the
bird. Nothing much else I could do. I rather suspected the bird
would probably die in the night anyway, but if it didnt,
Id have to rethink what to do about it tomorrow. .sat on
the patio for a bit feeling responsible and sad. If it was gonna
die in the night, I figured it wasnt a bad last night. It
was safe from cats. It had water. It had a saucer of grated
cheese to sit and pooh in! The sky was cloudless and cool. A male
blackbird was nearby on a TV aerial singing its beautiful
territorial song. Not a bad way to let go. . . touched base with
Mum. Sis1 was on her way down to visit! Mum knew from experience
and my description, it was a young
blackbird, rather than just a female which Id thought. . .
BB called . . . ate corned beef and lettuce sandwiches and bowls
of cornflakes late . . . to bed around 1am. ps
6 - Woken around 6:30am by the
noise of someone getting their car ready to go to work. The
noises translated into a pecking bird in a big plastic box in my
dreamstate!. . .oh dear. The bird is still alive!! I'd rather
hoped it wouldn't be - of its own accord! Now what? . .
.inspected Sally's lump site and gave it a wipe over. Fingers
crossed/touch wood - it looks much better :o) . . . walked . .
.moved the bird box across the patio onto a couple of chairs and
put the patio umbrella up to keep the sunlight off the box. Don't
think it's my imagination - that birds duff eye seems to be
clouded over worse than yesterday! It isn't well at all - seems
to be mostly just sat there with its good eye closed too. What to
do? I'm SO loathed to take it in anywhere, cause I know from
experience, it'll just be put down! Lets face it - a young one
eyed bird just aint gonna make it in the world is it! What to do?
What's for the best? Whatever I decide - I need something to put
it in. Ended up walking back out with Sally and headed all the
long way down past the Speedwell swimming baths and headed for
the empty 'pre-fabs' I'd passed the other day. Sure enough, there
were a couple of wire cages in the overgrown grass of the garden.
A couple of old women who lived nearby, waiting at the bus stop,
confirmed the place was empty, and had no problem with me taking
those cages if I wanted them. Turned out they were actually too
big and too heavy to carry. Probably more the sort that you'd
keep a bunch of pigeons in. Walked back home - found 7p along the
way. Ummmd and ahhd. Despite the awful commitment, I was fully
prepared to give it a go with that bird, if it was possible it
could survive in captivity. Should I go back in the car and pick
up one of those cages? I bet the bird wouldn't survive a day and
then I'd have more junk to get rid of!! . . gave the local RSPCA
a call, explained and sought their advice. Predictably, it was a
'bring it in and we'll look at it, but it doesn't sound good'.
.Mum/Sis1 called to touch base and see how the patient was . . .
I HAD to make a decision! Figured the only way to get a feel for
how that bird was doing, was to go and mess with it a bit, and
see how much of a struggle and fight it put up. I eased my hand
in between the boxes and was very easily able to pick the bird
up. It struggled a little - but not as much as it should have.
When I put it back down, it didn't scurry away into a corner, but
just kinda sat there and then slowly closed it's good eye. That
clinched it for me. It wasn't gonna make it. I wouldn't be doing
it any favours prolonging the agony. :o( . . sorted out a large
old ice cream tupperware container that Uncle TJ had given me,
drilled some holes in the lid and carefully placed the bird in
it. Left Sally at home and drove (trying not to brake too hard
and shake the bird around) down to the RSPCA place, next to the
dogs home. I explained to the girl behind the desk the situation,
told her I was willing to take on its care if it was viable, and
she said she'd have a look at it. Very quickly (as I'd expected)
she confirmed it wouldn't make it and it would be best to put it
to sleep. I asked to be present when they did it - by an
injection apparantly - but my request was refused. It wasn't some
weird, ghoolish request. Hard to explain. I just figured I'd
brought this situation about, a life (none less than any other)
was to end, I needed to face what that meant, and carry it. If I
one day have to face that situation with Sally - no way will I be
refused! :o| . .I thanked her, left the tupperware with her, and
drove home in subdued mourning mood. . home by 10:30am . .
.touched base with Mum and reported the inevitable outcome . . .
sat in the garden in the sun not feeling like doing much. What on
earth is life all about??!! . . What IS the point? More and more
- and yet more - I find myself increasingly convinced, there is
none! . . . ate corned beef, grated cheese and lettuce sandwiches
with crisps . . . napped for a couple of hours until woken by LB
leaving an ansaphone message . . . went to sit in the garden but
couldn't - it appears to be 'flying ant day'. They were ALL over
everything on the patio making their way to high points for
takeoff, accompanied by masses of ground crew. Bad timing really
- forecast for midnight onwards for the next couple of days is
BIG storms!! . . walked and found a penny and a dog halter
harness which is unfortunately too small for Sally (although I'm
not keen on them anyway.) . . . PCd this . . .PS popped round for
chats till early. . BB called . . .ate cheese and onion pastry
rolls with crisps and biscuits . . . ended up TVing until the
early hours watching 'The Blues Brothers' film - again. :o) . .to
bed round 2am.ps
7 - Woken around 7:15am by the
noise of someone getting in their car to go to work again . .
.weird little clumps of flying ants, all heads together in little
star like shapes around the garden. Looks like the forecast storm
front is moving in slower than they thought - not bad out but
actually quite chilly in the breeze . . .walked and did a little
'litter duty'. Found 3p, a lighter and another pencil. Always
plentiful supplies of pens and pencils strewn around, when I can
be bothered to pick them up . . .PCd this . . .couldn't face
doing anything at all and ended up laying back down to sleep for
most of the morning . . .ate grated cheese and corned beef
sandwiches with the last of the lettuce for lunch and then
somehow ended up sleeping all the afternoon as well!! . . .next
door called by and asked me to keep an eye on the place because
they were off on holiday for a couple of weeks - again! Minutes
later she called by again and handed me the contents of their
freezer - like they'd done once before. A loaf of bread, a packet
of fish steak things and a packet of chicken and mushroom pies.
:o) . . . BB called . . . walked in rubber and wellingtons in the
wind and rain. Very unpleasant out . . . TVd . . .drank a glass
of red wine as I cooked up three of the fish steak things in the
oven. Ate them with four peices of bread and butter. . . TVd
until bed around 1am. pds
8 - Woken around 6am by Sally
but managed to push her off and sleep on until around 7:30am.
Woke with a real big nasty headache. Looks as though somehow the
worst of the weather has blown through. Crunched annadin in the
garden with coffee and cigarettes for breakfast . . walked and
found 5p in coppers . . . phoned the library and was able to
renew ALL the books I have out of the various libraries, without
having to actually go there. That's neat. . . forced myself to
tackle the conservatory and the understairs cupboard, and moved
enough of the masses of junk around to be able to put the table
and chairs I scored the other day, out from the corner of the
cramped living room and into the conservatory. Moving the old
dustbin in which I'm storing the small supplies of sand, cement
and plaster I have left over from the unfinished kitchen building
work, I went and put my bloody back out - AGAIN!!!! I can't
believe it! Is this gonna happen every time I try and do ANY
(heavy - at arms length) lifting? If so, I'm gonna be in big
trouble with a half built kitchen etc, etc! If I was a blackbird,
I'd put me down! :o( Crunched more annadins and managed to work
through the pain and get sorted enough to leave the rest for some
other day. It'll be worse tomorrow. . .dismantled the broken
toilet seat and tried fitting the new cheap one that LB had
replaced from her new suite, which I'd forgotten was laying
around in the conservatory. Blimey - my old one was more broken
than I realised. Uh oh - the new one won't fit!!!!!!?? I guess
new lavatories are built with slightly different centres for the
seat fitting. I tried and tried and tried - even modified the
nylon hinge fittings with a hot knife - and tried putting some
bits of the old, together with the new, but no matter what I
tried, it wasn't gonna fit. Bugger! Measured the hinge centres
and left Sally at home and drove to the DIY store to buy a new
toilet seat! Figured with BB hopefully visiting again soon, I'd
better make sure I got a decent one (women can be 'funny' about
bathrooms and toilets! lol) so I bit the bullet and paid £20 for
the best plain white one they had, which was actually almost the
same as my old broken one. . fitted the new seat without a hitch
and threw away both of the others . . . cooked up the other three
fish steak things next door had donated and ate them for a late
lunch with chips . . . napped for a couple of hours. Woke all
painful and had difficulty getting on my feet and then
straightening up. Coffee and annadin . . .walked and found a
penny. Misjudged the weather, didn't wear my leggings, and got
drenched! . . . PCd this trying to sit very upright, with gently
steaming trousers! . . .BB called . . .scoured the house trying
to find more stuff to throw away. Made use of next doors abscence
and dumped a large number of old spray paint tins (from the bike
days - red, white, and heat resistant black) in their bin. Ended
up ditching a dozen old videos I've had laying around for years!
I 'could' have blanked them and used them I guess, but I have
loads more and never watch them anyway. In fact since the aerial
was taken down when the roof was done, I can't even record
anything anyway - not enough scart sockets for the cable and DVD
etc, etc. Funny how managing to throw at least something away,
makes me feel much better. Loaded my bin and some of next doors,
as heavy as I dared for tomorrows bin day. . ate bowls of
cornflakes . . . TVd until bed after 1am. paaas
9 - Up around 7:30am. Ouch!! . .
. weird - 57 (!!!) guest book entries on the site, all
advertising some casino or other!!?? Deleted them. Is this what I
can expect every day, now that most ISPs are managing to filter
out all the spam? :o( . . . crunched annadin . . . walked and
found a penny . . . pottered around in the garden and ended up
bringing the freshly emptied bin round and clearing out a little
of the dreadfully overgrown pond. You can hardly see the water
anymore - it's all just reeds! Managed to hack through and remove
two great big heavy clumps with all the roots. Incredible how
much of all that stuff has grown. Could really do with clearing
more out, but the bin ended up more than heavy enough for one
week, and it's nasty tough work - particularly when faced with
more than one 'creature of the black lagoon'! Great big things
almost two inches long and real fearsome looking! I suspect they
are dragon fly larvae. Wonder if that is why the tadpoles never
survive? . . . sorted through a little more of the masses of junk
in the conservatory and ended up with a heavy bin again.
.re-potted the man eating yucca in a larger plastic tub, and left
it in the back garden. It's taken on the proportions of a small
tree!! . . . ate grated cheese and onion sandwiches with crisps
for a mid afternoon lunch . . .napped for a couple of hours . . .
woke around 6pm and crunched annadin extra tablets . . . weather
was ok all day - even some sunny spells. Right when it was time
to walk Sally, it absolutely poured
down! BIG rain done fall. Walked in leaking rubber. I need to buy
new waterproofs . . dared to have a look up in the attic. Blimey!
It looks pretty dry up there around the chimney stack. I didn't
expect that. Wow - what a happy relief. Shame about how much
water and debris is still coming down the chimney into the living
room fireplace every time it rains! . . PCd this . . . BB called
. . . TVd . . .DH called on behalf of SH asking if I was
interested in supplies of tobacco for around £4 a pack. SH
popped in briefly. Apparantly he's moved and is living somewhere
else now! Declined the tobacco deal because I already have a
fairly large amount stored in the house from LBs trips and such .
. . ate a bowl of muesli . . . LB called just after midnight and
popped down to have a handful of tobacco for some friend of hers
who was staying over, who'd forgotten to pack her tobacco! . . .
to bed around 1am after peering out of the window for a while at
noisy drunks in the street. paa
10 - Woken by Sally around 3am
needing to use the garden with her latest upset stomach . . .
woken by Sally around 7:30am. Hosed the garden. Loads of snails
all on the move out there, and even a slug feasting on -
eeewwwwww!!! Crunched annadin extra tablet for breakfast. .
.walked. Did some litter duty and ended up filling a carrier bag
full of rubbish by the time I'd walked round to the only bin in
the field! . .Oh no! Sally killed herself another mouse and as I
grabbed her and pulled her away, another one tried to get away
and ran around and ended up getting stood on by her back leg!!!!
Actually - I'm starting to wonder if they aren't mice at all but
something else like a vowl or a shrew. Can't find my wildlife
book so I'm not sure how to tell. Wonder what has changed to make
such a plague of them this year? Never had this trouble before. .
.PCd . . . pottered around and finally got round to sewing up the
combat trousers I split the seam of. Laborious, tedious
unpleasant job. Darned up a few pairs of holy socks while I was
in the mood . . .did laundry . . . cooked up a couple of small,
next door donated steak and kidney pies with chips for a mid
afternoon lunch . . .napped until around 5:30pm . . .touched base
with Mum . . . walked and found 2p and a pair of rather useful
safety goggles. Had to negotiate Sally around two different
groups of people riding motorbikes around the field!! Grrrr . .
.BB called . . . TVd . . . ate garlic sausage sandwiches with
crisps and bowls of cornflakes . . .spent quite a while looking
out of a darkened bedroom window as a group of a dozen or so kids
all ran up and down noisily playing in the road. Bizarre - some
of those kids looked well under ten years of age, many of them
were girls, yet they were all running around until getting on for
midnight!!?? At one point, one of the younger girls casually
grabbed one of the cones from where the workmen are doing the new
pavements, and dragged it into the middle of the road and left it
there. A seemingly childish prank but in this street, SO likely
to cause an accident. The first car to come down the road and
encounter it, swerved at the last minute, dangerously close to
parked cars. I ended up having to put my shoes on and go out and
move it!! . . . TVd until bed around 1:30am. pas
11 - Up around 8am . . .walked in
rubber in a heavy rain shower. Found 6p . . . Mum called to tell
me James Taylor was being interviewed on TV. Tuned in . . . did
washing and vacuuming chores . . . TVd and cooked up the four
small chicken pies next door had donated, and then ended up
eating them ALL, on their own, as I watched Shumaker win the
British Grand Prix. . .walked and found a penny. Actually managed
to miss the rain this time! . . . BB called . . . PS popped round
for chats till early. .ate garlic sausage sandwiches and biscuits
. . . TVd/PCd till bed around 2am. ps
12 - Woken by Sally around
9:15am!! Walked and found a penny. . . balanced my accounts . . .
pottered around the house trying to collect up stuff to get rid
of again. Ended up bagging up all the old multicoloured sheets
and duvet covers and pillowcases and such like I've had stashed
around the place for years. Left Sally at home and drove
everything to a nearby charity shop and handed it over . . . ate
garlic sausage and grated cheese sandwiches for lunch . . .
napped for a couple of hours . . . walked . . . returned Mums
ansaphone call to hear about her new iron purchase . . .BB called
. . .Mum called again to tell me her new iron didn't work!! . . .
ate bowls of cornflakes . . . early to bed around 11pm. p
13 - Woke around 6:45am . . .good
weather forecast for today. Took the last of Sallys bones out of
the freezer to defrost and then around 7:45, walked the long walk
down to Eastville Park, along the river, up onto Purdown and then
back down along the river to Vassals and back home via Fishponds.
Hard to be objective, but I think on balance, my hernia has got
worse! Had to hold myself ALL the way. Ended up getting cramp in
my left hand and arm and a rather sore groin!!! :o( . . . gave
Sally her bone and sat in the sun on the patio for a while
watching her set about gnawing on it . . . had a glass of red
wine as I cooked up double garlic chicken kievs with chips for
lunch . . . somehow managed to sleep the entire afternoon away
until around 6pm . . . touched base with Mum to hear about the
iron saga. She'd returned the duff one, got her money back no
problem and bought another different one - which she didn't like
because the design means you can't help putting your thumb on the
steam button all the time! . . .walked . . . touched base with BB
. . . ate bowls of corn flakes . . . TVd until bed around 11pm.
All in all I think I spent most of today asleep!!? ps
14 - Poor nights sleep waking up
and tossing and turning! Up around 7:15am . . 3 PSB wins in the
mail. A dry month last month so that makes up for it I guess. . .
walked . . . sorted through my wardrobe and took out all the T
shirts with pictures and writing on, for donation to a charity
shop. I feel just too old to wear such stuff - figure 'old' guys
wearing such things look a bit weird - like old guys with long
hair! . . . checked through a couple of library books before
loading up my rucksack and heading for Kingswood with Sally
around 10am. . . did a couple of photos. Deposited the PSB wins
and drew some money out of the building society. Donated my T
shirts to the 'Age Concern' charity shop, because I guess I'm
gettin pretty concerned about my age! lol . . carried on walking
despite the occasional drizzle and strong breeze and bagged a few
more photos here and there. Spent quite a while exploring around
Hanham Mount. Never had a good look around there before. Usual
sadness over the vandalised and neglected state of everything.
.briefly shopped a little on the way home and bagged half a dozen
packs of reduced price garlic sausage slices (only 39p for a 12
slice pack! That's a cheap sandwich - or several! :o) ). . . home
around 2pm . . . ate garlic sausage and lettuce sandwiches with
crisps . . . napped for a few hours . . . walked in a little
misty drizzle . . . PCd some of todays pictures with the portable
TV on next to the PC. . . BB called . . . PCd more. Oh NO!! The
local news reported that the old derelict listed church building
in Blackhorse Road is the scene of a big fire!! 'Oh no' - on two
counts. First of all, the recent pictures I tried to take of that
place weren't any good - I'd peeked through an open doorway that
was supposed to be sealed up, and had seen much
worthy of photographing inside, but
hadn't done so on that occasion. Despite the danger and missing
floor etc, etc, I'd intended to maybe return without Sally and
have a proper look inside the ruin. Missed my chance if it's now
been burned down! It was (in it's own way) a beautiful impressive
old building. Yet another - YET ANOTHER case of mindless
vandalism and destruction of that which cannot be replaced!!
Doing this new Kingswood Website has given me a much greater
appreciation of such things. Just because I poked around it and
had a look at that building, I feel an attachment to it - and am
personally hurt that someone should torch it for a few minutes of
excitement. Bastards! :o( Secondly - I've missed a good photo
opportunity, of fire engines etc for the new site! . .PCd until
around 11:30pm and then uploaded a handful of Kingswood pics to
the new site (Hanham Mount, High Street, Regent St.#1, Various)
before calling it quits for today - need food! . . .ate garlic
sausage, grated cheese, mayo, lettuce and tomato sandwiches with
two bags of cheese and onion crisps, a banana and a couple of
chocolate biscuits . . . to bed around 12:30am. p
15 - Up just before 7am. Misty
drizzley out again . . .couldn't resist. Walked with sally and
then carried on walking up Kingswood to see which building had
been torched yesterday. Sure enough, it was the main Wesleyan
Chapel I'd tried to photo the other day!! What a tragedy! :o(
Tried to take some photos, but too much undergrowth all around
and nervous firemen restricted what I could do. . carried on
walking and got an update of shots of the Kingswood Heights
building site - sure is growing! . . . back home mid morning and
spent the rest of the day PCing pictures and desperately trying
to get something useable out of todays sortie. Fended off hunger
pangs with a banana and biscuits. Ended up adding a couple of the
shots from yesterday here and there on the Kingswood pages (High
Street, Hill Street, Building Site), did some words to go with
what I'd already put on the Hanham Mount page and then uploaded a
whole new Blackhorse Road page with the burnt church pics to the new site. Called it quits around 4pm needing food bad. . .
ate garlic sausage, grated cheese, mayo, lettuce and tomato
sandwiches with two bags of cheese and onion crisps, a banana and
a handful of biscuits (again) . . .napped until around 7pm. Woke
overheating and feeling a bit sick! Shouldn't have slept
immediately after SO much food. Returned Sis1s ansaphone message
and heard all about her weekend Paris trip. She'd bought me some
tobacco. :o) Thanked her and confirmed I'd buy whatever she'd
been kind enough to get for me. . . walked and found 9p. . . PCd
. . amusing guest book entry asking for 'my' autograph!! lololol
Guess I should reply and let him know that 'I' am actually nobody
. . . BB called . . .PCd until around 11pm and added a few more
pics to the Hanham Mount page on the new site . . .ate bowls of
cornflakes and a banana around midnight . . . TVd until early. pa
16 - Up just after 8am. More
drizzly rain. This is turning into a pretty poor summer . .
.walked in wellingtons . . .PCd and added a latest updates page
to the Royal Forest site . Should be useful, if anyone ever actually looks
at the thing!. . the drizzle cleared so headed out on a short
walk with Sally to bag a couple of photos. Found a penny.
Couldn't resist and ended up walking all the way back up to see
what has become of the burned out church. Much as it was
yesterday except its now been cordoned off with temporary fencing
. . .ate garlic sausage, grated cheese, mayo, lettuce and tomato
sandwiches with two bags of salt and vinegar crisps . . . PCd a
few pics and updated the site. Uh oh - run out of web space
again!! Oh no!!!! The site address is gonna change too, because
of that 'Wanadoo' takeover! I'm not sure I'll be able to keep it
going (beyond the end of the year? - if at all?!!) in the way I
have been! :o( Oh well - easy come, easy go. Messed around and
made enough web space to carry on for the time being, by moving
the Kingswood pubs elsewhere. All getting rather messy and
complicated behind the scenes. . ended up with an agonising
headache, despite annadin tablets!! . . .walked and found 2p.
There are times (more frequently of late) when my hernia really
hurts, is very 'hard', and very difficult to push back in place!
It's ok when I'm at home cause if needs be I can lay down and do
it - more difficult/embarassing/worrying when I'm out and about!!
:o( . the usual nonsense of moped riders rampaging around the
field and across the cycle track. I habitually take photos of
them, but haven't yet succeeded in getting a number plate in
focus! One guy tonight rode by - then rode back down the road
later, one handed, wearing a full face crash helmet and talking
on his mobile phone!!! For goodness sake!. . .BB called . . .ate
yet more (they ARE VERY nice) garlic sausage, mayo, tomato and
lettuce sandwiches with crisps. . . . TVd till bed around
midnight. Not sure why but seemed to submerge into a real 'down'
feeling throughout the evening. Worst period of feeling down for
quite a while. I think it was kinda connected with an
overwhelming sense (based on what I see every time I go outside
the door - or even just look out a window!) that society seems to
be breaking down into unpleasant antisocial madness, everywhere,
ALL the time!!!! :o( paas
17 - Woken by Sally at 7:30am . .
.walked in the drizzle . . .vacuumed around the PC a little . . .
popped next door and gave her my old cub/scout uniform from when
I was a kid. Just couldn't bring myself to throw it away. A cap
from cubs, the neckercheif, woggle, shirt, trousers, badges,
berry etc. from Scouts. She used to be an 'Akela' until recently
and should be able to get rid of it - or throw it away if they
don't want it all. Fit for a museum probably!! I called at her
door wearing the little cub cap! lol She didn't seem to notice
for a while! lololol . . . PCd and finally got round to
downloading a free FTP client to try, rather than just use
Explorer as I always have done.(iNTERNETSoft - FTP Commander 7.2) . .Mum called to touch base and tell me UncleTJ'd
had a nasty fall!! . . PCd for hours and managed to sort out most
of the server log on/connections I use in the new FTP software. .
. received feedback from the site from a 'TF' who'd had a look at
the 'Kingswood site' and wondered if I knew some place in Hanham
his wife's father used to live in the early 1900s and did I have
any photos of it! Um - err - it's a big place (now)! Give me a
clue? Couldn't help being tantalised by the challenge so replied,
asking for more info on where it may be. PCd until mid afternoon
- PCd this and uploaded it with the new FTP client software
before stopping for a sandwich . . .ate garlic sausage, tomato
and lettuce sandwiches with crisps . . . napped for a couple of
hours . . . walked and found a penny. All the way round the field
I could hear stones being thrown at windows! Turned out to be a
bunch of kids in the school yard tennis courts lobbing stones and
quarter bricks and such at the school windows! At least two were
smashed as I sat on a boulder despairingly having a cigarette. No
point in calling the police - they wouldn't come - and if they
did they wouldn't do anything cause they were only kids. What
else can ya do but try and ignore it? Dreadful dreadful
dreadful!! It 'hurts' to have to ignore such stuff!!! :o(
Considered looking into video cameras to see which would do the
business best with the PC - could have really got some neat shots
of them doing it, and then maybe just posted a copy on video
through the school letterbox! That way I'd not feel 'quite' so
powerless. . as I sat having a cigarette at the edge of the
field, a motorbike pulled up and then a car pulled up behind it.
Hard to put into words how or why (body language/little nuances
etc. ), but I knew pretty instantly they were gonna 'do a deal'.
The bike riding kid was buying. I was in a 'mood'. I'll be damned
if I was just gonna look the other way and pretend I didn't know
what they were doing. I watched - and kept watching - and was
seen by the bike guy watching. His body language immediately
showed he was uncomfortable and didn't want to carry on with what
he was about. The car driver was busying himself with something
in the car and wasn't even looking at the bike rider - he was
just waiting for him to come up to his window. With me still
staring, the bike rider uneasily sauntered over to the drivers
window and pulled his full face crash helmet up onto the top of
his head so he could speak to the driver. A couple of words were
exchanged which saw the car driver immediately turn round to look
at me. They were clearly both 'unsettled' by being watched. A few
brief words were exchanged and somehow I was able to glean they
were gonna meat further on up the road somewhere else. The car
took off and the other guy got back on his bike and followed!!!
The words don't do what happened justice. It absolutely WAS gonna
be a drug deal without a doubt. Need me a hidden video camera!!!
:o( . . . BB called . . . ate bowls of cornflakes and biscuits .
. .TVd . . . touched base with BB . . . TVd/PCd till early. pas
18 - Woken by Sally after 8am . .
.took a big old turkey leg out of the freezer to defrost for a
proper roast Sunday lunch later. It was going cheap for only
69p!!. . walked in occasional light drizzle and found 8p in
coppers . . .PCd for hours and downloaded and experimented with
another free FTP client. Round and round in circles and at the
end of all of it, I couldn't get it to do a server to server
transfer as it was supposed to be able to do!! Grrrr. In the
middle of this infuriating PCing I got an e-mail reply from TF
with a little bit more info to go on, about where to look for the
house he's interested in, in Hanham. Happily used it as an excuse
to get away from the damn PC for a bit. Checked out my AtoZ and
then grabbed my tripod, spirit level and camera and jumped
straight in the car and drove with Sally to Hanham. Parked up and
wandered with Sally up and down the road he'd mentioned. Covered
pretty much all of it but sadly no way could I find any sign of
'Jubilee House'. Newer properties lined the street, and it seemed
pretty clear the house was no more. Asked a couple of (the older)
people who came near, if they knew of such a place but no joy.
Figured it was a lost cause so headed off up to the end of the
street and started taking 'general area' type panoramic photos
and such. Unfortunately attracted the attention of a bunch of
horrible kids! They started demanding what I was doing, 'had I
asked permission', saying I couldn't take pictures of them but
they weren't gonna move, how much was I gonna pay them etc etc
etc!! Jeeze - is EVERYONE brought up to be a 'git' these days?!!!
. . asked a couple more people as I wandered about, but still no
one had knowledge of Jubilee House. Got a few general street
shots and was about to call it a day, when just then, a woman
drove up and parked outside the one house in the street which
looked as though it was an original and certainly older than all
the rest. Excellent. Dashed over and put on my best Mr
PoliteNiceGuy act, and asked her if she'd heard of the place. Oh
my god! She HAD!! What a stroke of luck. Her house used to have a
large garden which stretched up the street (where all the new
houses now stand) and at the end of that garden used to be
Jubilee House!! She could remember it before it was pulled down
to make way for the new developments. EXCELLENT! A shame for TF
it's gone, but at least I'd be able to take photos of where it
used to be. BUT - the lady then casually dropped into our
conversation, that she had the name stone from Jubilee House in
her back garden!!!! WHAT?!!! Gold dust! I just HAD to get a photo
of that - I just HAD to! That stone was apparantly carved by TFs
wifes, fathers, uncle when he built the house!! I explained what
I was up to and why and pleaded. She quickly said ok but first
she'd have to go secure her dog. Aha - she was seduced by Sally's
good looks (not mine!). lol Just then her husband drove up all
concerned but soon joined in and took over the conversation. He
had a pretty good memory and seemed to want to tell me all he
could recall about when the house used to be there and about who
lived aroundabout, and it all seemed to loosely fit the little
info that TF had given me. Amazing. I was shown into their back
garden and sure enough, there on the floor like a step in front
of their garden shed, was the name stone from Jubilee House!
Amazing. Just incredible. The man held onto Sally's lead as I
dashed around nervously taking several photos on different
resolutions of the stone, to ensure I managed to get a useable
'once in a lifetime type' shot.
The woman admitted that she'd only in the last day
or so, moved the stone to that position, from wherever they'd had
it resting before. They'd rescued it from destruction when the
house was knocked down. Blimey - it's enough to make ya believe
in hocus pocus!! Sometimes things just kinda 'work out' don't
they. I was SO excited to have got those pictures. 'Jubilant'
almost. :o) The old guy insisted on walking me up the road to
show me exactly where the house once
stood. Eventually shook his hand and offered genuine thanks and
bagged a few more photos before running out of memory. Felt all
buzzy. :o) Made my day. Couldn't wait to get home and see if
those pics were ok on the PC. . . PCd pictures while cooking up a
pepperoni pizza. They'll do. :o) Ate late afternoon. . LB popped
in with a huge left-overs, roasted Sunday lunch donation for me
and Sally! Oh dear - too late to postpone the turkey leg defrost!
Gonna have more food than I know what to do with. . . PCd pics
until early evening and e-mailed them to TF in a 'build the
tension/leave the best till last' order. lol Big files - took
ages! Hope he gets as much of a kick out of them as I did bagging
them. If it was me - with that sort of tangible link with the
past - I'd get in touch with those people and offer to buy that
stone!! I'd just HAVE to have it! . . .walked and found 3p . .
.touched base with BB while cooking the turkey leg . . .checked
e-mail. Couldn't help it - was kinda 'excited' to see what TF
thought of my mails. Received a nice reply. :o) . . . ate the
turkey leg with four peices of bread and butter. Not as nice as
I'd hoped, but not bad for that money. . . PS popped round for
chats and biscuits till early. PCd a bit until earlier. pas
19 - Woken by Sally around 8am .
. .walked and found 5p . . . feel really tired. Just sat around
doing nothing . . .PCd and investigated website hosting rates and
such like for hours . . . stopped mid afternoon and had a large
plate of LBs left overs with half a pint of gravy . . . napped
for maybe an hour or so then woken by Sis1 calling in. She'd
brought me the 10x50g packs of duty free Golden Virginia she'd
scored for me. Gave her the £43 she asked for, with thanks. Gave
her the SIM card out of my old mobile phone, so she can keep
placing cheap ads in the Trade-It. Apparantly you get charged as
a business if you place too many consecutive ads with the same
contact phone number!? Chats (mostly about how sad and bad the
world has become ) and coffee until around 6:45pm. . walked and
found 7p. Couldn't make out where the sounds of breaking glass
were coming from tonight. Somwhere in the school grounds, but
sounded more like breaking bottles than windows. Managed to stamp
out the grass fire at the edge of the field that someone had set
before running away, which was threatening to keep going and get
out of hand! :o| . . .shoes and socks smell smokey! PCd this -
cause I haven't for a while. . .BB called . . . ate biscuits and
cornflakes . . . TVd/PCd till early. pas
20 - Woken by insistant Sally
around 7am. Need more sleep!! :o( . . . walked and found 2p . .
.did laundry and sat in the garden in the sun . . . PCd a bit
more looking at domains and hosts and such. Seems like ANY domain
name, even remotely worth 'renting', has already gone! No matter
how obscure the name you think up that you 'could' maybe live
with, somones already thought of it and got it!! . . . split the
remaining LB leftovers into two, and ate one platefull with a
half pint of bisto gravy for lunch, followed by a couple of
chocolate biscuits. . . ended up sleeping the whole rest of the
day away until around 6:20pm!! Woke with a worse headache than
before I slept! . . .crunched annadins . . . walked and found 4p
. . . BB called . . .ate bowls of cornflakes . . . TVd until
early. . .LB turned up around 12:30am all drunk, upset and
tearfull and saying she couldn't get into her house!! Made her
coffee, tried to consol her a bit, but she was so drunk I really
couldn't figure out why she was upset. Some argument or other
with her guy I think. Eventually escorted her back home and
unlocked her front door and made sure she was inside before
heading back home. paas
21 - Woken by Sally around
6:30am. Managed to snooze on until woken again around 7:30am . .
.walked. One of the dog walkers told me there was a meeting in
the rugby club this evening, to discuss the plans for the field!!
Huh? What plans? How come I didn't know about it? Why wasn't the
meeting advertised? What are they trying to sneak through? They
gonna try and build flats on the field now?!!! Depressing
prospects. Determined to try and attend the meeting. Made me feel
a bit (more) down. .one carriageway of the 'emergency vehicles
only' road next to the field had been blocked by a load of
rubble!! Someone in a truck had 'fly tipped' their building waste
- just straight into the road!!! 'Just' (maybe!!) enough room for
the fire engines to get by I think. Incredible!! Had a rummage
looking for 'anything' that would give a clue, but of course no
indication at all of where it may have come from. I must NOT buy
a video camera - if I did, I'd end up spending hours and hours
skulking around and sat in the car trying to capture people doing
such things! What on earth has happened to people?!! :o( . . .
PCd. Poked around here and there some more, as I have been the
last few days, looking at hosts and domains and prices and such.
Had to wrestle with my conscience loads. I don't have much of an
income. I DO live on a shoestring. I never have holidays and
really don't spend much money (apart from smoking!) on 'luxurys'
or 'frivolity'. I eat the cheapest food. I mostly wear charity
shop clothes. In dry weather I wear the shoes that have a hole
in. I deny myself many things that others these days take for
granted. Crazy and sad and a complete waste of a life it may be -
but I DO spend a lot of time messing around on the PC with my
website and such. I guess it's my 'hobby' kinda. Would it be SO
bad to actually throw away some savings and buy me some PROPER
web space for a year or two? Can I really justify throwing money
away like that???!!! :o( <wrestle,
wrestle, wrestle> . . what the
hell! Just do it (and repent at your leisure)! All nervous and
shaking, I settled on one of the few domain names that were left
that I figure I may actually be able to live with, went on line
to http://www.dataflame.co.uk and filled out the order form, put in my credit
card details (only the second time I've ever used my credit card
details on line!), and signed up for two years domain
registration and a years hosting of 150mb for a total of
£58.59!!!!!!! That'll have to be my birthday and cristmas
present to myself - for the next couple of years!! lol . .I think
it was probably 'minutes' before I was regretting having thrown
that money away. What on earth do I need
a website for? I'm not actually sure what I'm gonna do with it
(apart from the obvious overspill from my existing site(s))!!?
And how do I know if that company is ok and my site/space will
actually ever be accessible to anyone? Nutcase! :o| Oh well . . .
spent some time doing a little housekeeping on the PC wrestling
with my conscience. . . reheated the last of the LB left overs
and ate it with another half pint of gravy . . . napped for a
couple of hours . . .PCd. Blimey - looks like one of those virus
e-mails (I get several every day!!) has had a go at my anti virus
software program!!! Thankfully a restore corrected the problem.
Cleaned up one or two more files and unused bits and pieces and
managed to make enough space on my second (old) hard drive, to do
a backup of all my 'I'd rather not loose these if I can manage
it' documents. All these photos I've been taking has balooned it
to 6.8 Gigabytes!! I really need to go through stuff with a fine
tooth comb and delete all the rubbish and duplicates and
experiments and such. . . left the PC running doing my 'backup'
copying of all my data files onto the old drive, and walked at
around 7pm . . .attended the meeting in the rugby club building
with Sally. Small crowd of mostly older people and one guy from
the council. Turns out, it was all about installing a childrens
play area, and NOT about losing the field to developers (although
of course it will mean Sally losing a little hunting space). The
whole thing reminded me of such meetings in the past at work -
where you have a bunch of people all wanting different things -
and where I just can't keep my mouth shut and end up being one of
the most outspoken people there (despite inwardly shaking like a
leaf)!!! Dunno why I'm always like that. I guess I like to think
I talk a little more sense, more concisely than some (but of
course I often don't). Bloody ego!! :o( Theoretically, I probably
actually shouldn't have been there. The meeting was aimed at
those people who live directly bordering the field - they'd all
been sent letters! It was kinda sad to soon see that everyone
there (many of them elderly and decent), was far more concerned
about all the antisocial behaviour, than seeing money poured into
a childrens play area that would of course be instantly
vandalised. Madness that there was no money to address any other
issues other than the kids play area. If they don't deal with the
various issues around the whole field ( like reinstating anti
vandal waste bins - stopping motorcycle/stolen car access -
encouraging the use of specific areas for the anti social
gatherings of yobs - etc etc etc - all well known issues), it
WILL inevitably be a waste of money - and just another despairing
photo opportunity for me, of the equipments gradual destruction!!
. Just like at work - whatever everyone said 'would be taken into
account' - but then they were gonna go ahead with what they
wanted to do anyway. Oh well - we'll see. . . BB called . . . TVd
. . . BB called . . . ate garlic sausage, mayo, lettuce, grated
cheese sandwiches with crisps and then biscuits . . . TVd until
early watching an engaging film about a young lawyer -
'Rainmaker' I think it was called. . . to bed after 2am only to
feel strangely wide awake and too warm, and tossed and turned for
ages! I took the last of the 'generic' make of fluoxetine the day
before yesterday, and am now back on the 'APS' brand - just
coincedence I'm sure. There has been an uncomfortably familiar
'undercurrent' to my mood of late, which has made me wonder if I
am becoming tolerant! Difficult to tell - maybe I'm just getting
fed up with all the antisocial behaviour going on all around, and
having to keep on putting up with the increasing discomfort of
this damned hernia, and now, ever present weakness in my back,
which all goes to severely restrict what I am physically able to
do! :o( Ho hum. pas
22 - Woke around 7:30am after
very little sleep . . .walked in the rain . . . PCd this . .
.messed around on the PC for hours doing nothing really!! It's
gonna take a while to figure out what I actually want to do with my
new space, and how to set
e-mail and everything else up! Bottom of another learning curve!
Got me a whole new toy! lol . . .ate garlic sausage, mayo, grated
cheese sandwiches with crisps for a late lunch . . .popped round
the newsagent and bought, wrote and posted a birthday card to Mum
. . . slept all afternoon until gone 6pm! . . .downloaded windows
updates. Walked and found 4p. Ended up chatting to another dog
walker. Turned out he was into ham radio and had been on CB and
we knew a couple of the same people years ago. What a small
world. . . very warm out. Coffee in the garden and topped the
pond up . . .touched base with BB . . . guitarred in the garden
for a while . . . ate bowls of cornflakes . . . TVd/PCd till
early. pas
23 - Woken early by Sally more
than once, but managed to snooze on after telling her to leave me
alone! . . . up around 8:30am . . . walked. Had a conversation
with a lady dog walker. I was walking along the cycle path a
little distance in front of her, our dogs were running about
playing - just then a dark skinned guy with a fulll face crash
helmet on a yellow moped came whizzing along from behind us. As
he went by me, only inches away at speed (at 'least' 20mph) , I
held out my right arm with an open hand and 'slapped' his left
shoulder. He wasn't very happy about that! He put a safe
(cowards) distance between us and then pulled his bike to a halt
and said he was going to kill me. 'I'll kill you, I'll kill you
NOW!' he kept repeating. Bit worrying when he started kinda
checking his pockets!! I indicated with a pointing finger (scared
and bluffing!!) that he should come back over to me. He continued
rumaging in his pockets and shouting out 'I'll kill you, I'll
kill you NOW!'. I just stood there waiting for his next move.
Thankfully whatever he was looking for in his pockets didn't come
to hand. I made an offensive gesture with my thumb and
forefinger. He eventually carried on driving along the cycle
path, across the pavement and out of the field, all the while
shouting 'I'LL KILL YOU!!' as he went, attracting the attention
of a couple of other dog walkers and workmen nearby. This carried
on up to the very point he went out of view between houses down
an ajoining street. Not a good way to start the day. :o( I
carried on up and around the field as normal - trembling. As I
was walking back down the field along the high hedge, I could
hear a moped going up and down the road on the other side of the
hedge. Sure enough, it was him. I think he DID spot me walking
along, but I just happened to be approaching three other dog
walkers who were stood chatting nearby, so I suspect that put him
off whatever he was intending to do!!! So - I guess I live to
walk (in some considerable fear!) again later! :o( . . .PCd this
. . .Very wound up. Very unhappy. I have to confess, I actually
spent a quarter of an hour or so sat in the garden, polishing the
leather belt case from my big old lock knife, and polishing and
sharpening the handle and blade!!! Too much more of all this, and
I can see myself carrying it again!!!! :o( . . Ended up having to
lay down and sleep for an hour or two. . . BB called early
because she couldn't sleep(my fault apparantly! lol). . .skipped
lunch. The mornings events seem to have completely removed my
appetite! Hey maybe I should start a weight loss program.
When people sign up, I threaten to kill them (in such a way that
I very well may mean it!)? lol . . . sat around TVing (but really
mostly replaying this morning in my mind) until around 3:30pm.
Really beautiful warm sunny day needed to do
something with it! Leashed up Sally and set off for a
long walk down the river. . . As I walked along, down towards
Fishponds, a hundred meters or so ahead of me, coming over the
brow of a hill on the left hand pavement, was a group of half a
dozen or so kids, some on pushbikes. A four wheel drive with a
guy talking on the phone was driving towards me past them, and
then veered across the road and stopped next to the pavement and
threw his driver door open to apparently block their path. They
scattered and most of them ran back off the way theyd come.
The four wheel drive pulled his door shut and still talking on
his phone (I somehow assumed from his actions he was calling the
police), dangerously did a U turn in front of oncoming traffic
and took off in pursuit. I was walking as fast as I could, but
was too far away and on the wrong side of the hill, to see what
was going on or where they went. Out of sight the four wheel
drive must have gone round the roundabout because he soon
appeared again and then turned up the side street where two of
the kids on a push bike had ridden. As I crested the hill, a
police car was just pulling up on the other side of the road with
its lights flashing! The kids were nowhere to be seen - probably
down the usual nearby cycle track escape route. I stopped and
watched as the police car drove by, kinda hoping to see it turn
up the street the four wheel drive had taken. It didnt. It
turned round and came back and pulled up next to me!!!!!! I told
them exactly what Id seen and tried to make it very quickly
clear, Id seen absolutely nothing of use and suggested they
should turn up that road and look for the four wheel drive, cause
whatever was going on, he was in the thick of it. Incredibly,
they insisted on laboriously taking down MY name and address and
phone number, rather than chasing off down the road looking for
the four wheel drive and the kids!! I couldnt help laughing
and felt I had to explain why - that only that morning someone
had threatened to kill me. That MUST have sounded SO crazy! They
MUST have thought I was a nut. When they DID finally drive off,
they went in the opposite direction! Jeeze some day this
is turning out to be!!! . . Eventually reached Vassals and walked
along the river. Near the weird CB 1897 engraved
stone next to the river, I overheard a couple of old fishermen
talking local history. Couldnt resist asking if they knew
what that stone was (Id found a larger copy of the same
thing in the burned out Churchyard in Blackhorse Road!?). They
knew of course, of course, of course its an
old County Boundary marker from 1897. Now I know. :o) . . .
Walked the extra up onto Purdown. Hard to tell, but looks as
though some work may have been started on
the ruined monument. Sat around deliberately wasting time. I
needed to time things so I reached the local field around the
time I normally would to get over any reticence about
walking there after this mornings nonsense. Eventually back down
to the river and walked along to Eastville park for more sitting,
watching the fish jumping in the boating lake. Really was a
beautiful day (and it DID occur to me, not a bad one to die, if
it had to happen now.) . . big police action was going on in the
area as I left Eastville Park. Sirens and vans and police all
over the place, down Easton direction I think. ALL
the long walk back home, the police helicopter was hovering
noisily above! Cut up through the local field after 7pm and went
to the local store for milk and a can of RedBull. Sat in the
field on the grass drinking from the can, deliberately just
being there for a while. Another dog walker started
chatting and ended up sitting down next to me and discussing this
and that and who knows what! Had to push my painful bulging,
audibly squelching (eeeww!!) hernia back into place at one point
and embarrassingly felt obliged to explain that I wasnt
playing with myself. Turned out hed had three
hernias!! He started telling me NOT to have a laparoscopy because
you end up all pumped up and full of air and in lots
of pain!! Jeeze just what I didnt need to hear! :o(
As I got up to leave and bid him farewell, he asked my name, I
politely asked his, and then shook his outstretched hand. Funny
thing is I didnt actually register his
name AT ALL. I never do in such circumstances. Its kinda
just a formality to get over and done with, to be polite. One
pace away from him, I couldnt have told anyone what his
name was! Never seems to matter - but it DOES concern me I'm like
that. :o( . . Dropped off the milk Id bought, then carried
on with Sally up to the takeaway and treated myself to a kebab
and chips 'last supper' ! lol . . Found 2p . . . BB called . . .
guitared in the cool dark peaceful garden for a while (peaceful
except for emergency vehicle sirens, drunken noise from not
distant enough karaoke pub nights, children noisily playing in
the streets (why arent they long in bed?) and what I
trust were fireworks and not gunshots!). . . TVd/PCd till early.
. showered and dared to sit around in my bath robe should
have known better! At 2am someone opened my garden gate and Sally
started barking. Rushed to look out of the pre-prepared darkened
bedroom window with the blind slats parted enough to invisibly
look through. Three drunken yobs were calling on the kid next
door again! I assumed it was the same ones whove been
bullying him at school probably the same ones whove
done this drunken night time calling before. One was leaning on
my gate, another was absolutely hammering on next door and
shouting up at the windows for him to come out!! Sallys barking
aside - if I had been asleep, I wouldnt have been now! Must
have been scary for my neighbour and her son assuming they
awoke (they MUST have!). Dragged my trousers and a shirt back on
and went out. Cant recall much of the conversation. I was
tired and really wasnt in the mood for it I think I
said something about how they were waking up the whole street,
and then (Im sorry to admit) largely repeated Just
F*** O**! over and over again until they did - after having
thrown the expected abuse and threats at me of course! One of the
comments they made in response to my waking up the
street criticism, was that theyd return at 4am and
have another go!! . . got dressed and put shoes and cameras and
phones on, and peered out of the bedroom window for a while.
Really was happily amazed they didnt immediately return and
do some damage. . sad (paranoid) man that I am, I ended up
sitting with my shoes on all ready to leap outside at a moments
notice, in front the TV with the sound off, reading the text news
and such until gone 3am before HAVING to go to bed. . .
difficulty sleeping of course. Leapt to the window around 3:30am
to see what the noise was. Turned out to be a drunk, a street or
so away, returning home (or trying to!) He was SO drunk, only
just able to walk, hed stumbled into the wing
mirror of his neighbours car, and then took quite literally four
or five minutes to negotiate his way through (what I assume) was
his front garden gate, before disappearing with a bit more
noise!! . . today has been THE antisocial behaviour day from
hell!!! I couldnt take many like this. :o( pas
24 - Woken around 8am by noise
from nearby builders working. That isn't enough sleep!! . .
.walked - without incident - which seems to have become
noteworthy in itself! Did 'litter duty' as I walked round the
field, and filled a carrier bag full of vodka bottles and beer
cans and deposited it in the only bin left over there, by the
swings. Found a penny. . . PCd this - at length! . . .garlic
sausage, grated cheese and mayo sandwiches with crisps for lunch.
. . slept the day away (much unhappy dreaming) until around 6pm .
. . walked. Wow - misjudged the strong wind - walked in a t-shirt
and ended up really cold and couldn't get back home quick enough!
. . .guitarred in the garden for a little while . . . touched
base with BB . . . TVd mostly with the sound only just audible,
listening out for 'things' . . . BB called. . . TVd/PCd until
around 3am. Incredible how many people walk by all shouting and
talking loud even at that time of the morning! pas
25 - Woken by Sally around 8am .
. . walked and found 2p . . .Mum called to say thanks for the
card and for me to sing a line or two of Happy Birthday. Ended up
telling her to look out for a book or cassette of the poet Roger
McGough, some live performances of whom I'd bumped into on the
radio the other night. Took my breath away. Amazingly clever
stuff, although, better when he reads it with his Liverpool
accent than when you just see the words. He's the sort of poet
who produces SUCH clever stuff, that it kinda convinces you to
never attempt to ever write any poetry EVER again!! Ended up
surfing for ages trying to find some of his work. Surprisingly
little on the web!? Called Mum back and read her 'The Lesson' to give her a taste. She mentioned some local
Cornish poet who gets on a local radio show so I had a surf for
some of his stuff. Unfortunately the poet she mentioned happened
to have the same name as the other guy who played Darth Vader in
Star Wars (and more amusingly remembered by me as the 'Green
Cross Man' on road safety adverts from back then) so I ended up
getting huge returns on a Google search and soon gave up . . .
cooked up four sausages, two eggs and baked beans and ate with
four pieces of bread and butter while watching Schumaker win the
German grand prix (yawn) . . . slept the rest of the afternoon
away until around 6pm when woken by PS leaving an ansaphone
message . . .walked and did a bit of 'litter duty' as I went
round and filled a carrier bag with more rubbish for the bulging
bin by the swings. Ended up bringing home the small hooded 'GAP'
fleece that someone left over there which has been laying in the
mud for the last couple of days. A wash then fit for a donation
to a charity shop I think . . . guitarred in the garden for a
while . . . touched base with BB . . .ate corned beef sandwiches
with crisps . . . PS popped round for chats and biscuits until
early. . . to bed around 1am. pas
26 - Woken by insistant pawing
Sally around 8am . . .
wow! One of those scary looking 'creatures from the
black lagoon' (reminds me of the monster in the Alien films) ,
several of which sadly died as a result of me clearing some of
the pond out the other day, has shed it's former self and turned
into the most amazing big flying thing with a wingspan of around
six inches!! Tried to grab a couple of photos, knowing the
digital wouldn't like it . . .walked . . .renewed all my library
books by phone again . . . checked out a couple of the books then
headed off with Sally up to Kingswood to draw some money out and
do some shopping. Took a bunch of photos, trying to concentrate
on 'listed' buildings. Discovered I'd not reset the camera lense
from when I tried the close ups of the dragonfly in the garden,
so everything was out of focus and a wasted effort!! Grrr. The
number of times I've done that!! . . real painful hernia all day
again. Seems to have reached the point where it is more bulging
and painful than not these days! It's starting to get me down
rather. :o( Struggled home with a heavy rucksack of sugar and
potatoes and such . . .cooked up four sausages, two eggs and
baked beans and ate it all with four pieces of bread and butter
for a late lunch . . . slept until around 6pm . . . walked . . .
BB called . . .ate some mini pork pies and bowls of cornflakes.
Funny coincedence - 'Aliens' was screened on TV tonight
(undoubtedly the best of the series of Alien films). Watched -
yet again - as Sigorney Weaver battled with dragonflies. . . TVd
until bed around 1am. pas
27 - Woken by Sally around 8:30am
. . . walked and found a penny . . . uncomfortable hernia. Just
couldn't face doing anything and edned up just doing a load of
laundry then sitting around aimlessly. . . Mum called . . . PCd a
bit but not in the mood. . . mostly TVd the day away . . . LB
called to tell me it was her last day at her current job tomorrow
- and to ask if I could feed her cats AND two new rabbits
(!!!!???) on the weekend. Ok (guess I must!). . .walked. Spotted
a carrier bag in a hedge so grabbed it and filled it with litter
as I walked around. Actually - what with the kids being on school
holidays and such, doing this occasional 'litter duty' IS making
a bit of a difference. I must look like a right weirdo doing it
though! . stopped to put the roadworks sign that the yobs had
knocked over, back on its feet . . stopped to buy a jumbo sausage
and chips takeaway on the way home . . . BB called . . . TVd
until bed around midnight. pa
28 - Woken by the postman
delivering mail around 7:30am. Sally didn't bark? . . . walked.
Did another round of 'litter duty'. Blimey - I've filled the bin
up over there already!! . .
I've been eyeing up a
chair that's been thrown out in someones garden for the last day
or so every time I walk Sally past it. Had to be done - asked the
guys working on the house if it was rubbish and if I could have
it. They seemed bemused but said yes. Struggled home with the
detached/broken legs, dropped Sally off and then returned and
struggled back home with the chair. Got me covered in dust!
Squeezed it out onto the patio and hosed and wiped it all down.
Oh dear - I think I'm gonna have to keep it. I think its leather
and hardly a mark on it. The only thing that seems to be 'really'
wrong with it, is that the feet will get left behind if you
actually pick it up (at least twelve inches high) off the floor.
(The retaining nut seems to have fallen off and the bolt has
either sheared off or retracted into the shaft.) That and the
recliner lever mechanism seems to be mostly non functional and
just locked upright. Pretty sure if I tried to take it all apart,
I'd probably be able to fix at least part of that, but for me
just sitting in front the PC and occasionaly wheeling back and
forth, although it IS a bit lower than what I've been used to, I
think it may well be very useable just as it is - and a LOT more
comfortable than the low backed one I have been using. In fact -
being slightly lower - it kinda makes me sit more upright and
feels like it could well be much better for my aching crunchy
back, neck and shoulders and such. Hmmm? More clutter! :o| . . .
PCd this, test driving the 'new' chair. I think it's pretty
damned ok for nothing (things usually are! lol). :o) . . .started
the car up to make sure it still starts . . . did load after load
of bed linen laundry and hung it all out to dry . . .wrestled the
old ironing board out of the back of the cupboard and hosed it
down on the patio to get rid of the layers of dust . . . moved
one of the desk drawer pedestals under the PC table across an
inch or so, so that the new slightly wider chair will fit under
the table. Couldn't resist having a closer look at the little
that is wrong with the new chair. Turns out the tilt lever is
perfectly ok after all. I just didn't know how to
engage/disengage it. Also turns out that nothing has sheared off
- it's just missing a large retaining circlip. I kinda get the
impression that there may be a big spring or something missing
because I'm pretty sure it should be higher and then sink down on
a damper rod when you sit on it. Not sure. Sorted through my
washer collection but couldn't find a single circlip!? Managed to
jam on a different type of split washer as a temporary measure,
even though it doesn't really make any difference - MUST be
missing a spring. . .ate two huge mayo, corned beef, onion,
grated cheese, tomato, lettuce and four peices of bread and
butter sandwiches with crisps for a late lunch. . .PCd a bit, but
mostly just to sit on the chair some more, gloating! :o) . . .
guitarred in the garden briefly . . . called Sis2 and touched
base and kinda tried to break the ice a bit from where I've not
really spoken to her for a year or so. She seems to be doing ok .
. . walked . . . touched base with BB . . . sat in the garden for
a while. VERY warm out. . . ate biscuits and bowls of cornflakes
. . . TVd until bed around midnight. Couldn't be bothered to put
in the work to rebuild the bed with all the clean sheets etc so
slept in the PC room instead! pas
29 - Woken by Sally around 7:30am
. . . PCd this . . . walked. Actually - I take it all back. Doing
occasional 'litter duty' isn't hardly making any impression on
the mess over there at all!! Filled another carrier bag as I
walked around, with mostly drinks bottles, vodka bottles and beer
cans!! Ended up walking home with a tall elegant ornate metal
candle holder someone had put out on the pavement with their
rubbish. If I don't keep it, its exactly the sort of thing Sis1
would have . . . checked my bank balance. . left Sally at home
and drove to Emersons Green to shop. Ooops - ended up spending
rather more than I'd intended, but it seemed like there were some
good deals to be had! A new pair of slippers for £3. (Yes - I AM
an old man - I'm afraid that I'm just not comfortable around the
house unless I have slippers!). A king size 4.5 tog summer duvet
for £10. (At last! Don't seem to sleep too well in this hot
weather when just under a sheet.) Replacements for two of my
cheap frying pans and my chip pan, all for £8. (When I do a fry
up, I seem to require at least three different frying pans. The
old, old ones I've been using for SO long, have wobbly handles
and no longer have any of the non stick surface left! I must have
eaten it all!!! As for the old chip pan - I think there is a chip
pan under all that congealed oil/fat somewhere!!) Stocked up on
coffee and sugar and biscuits and red bull and such in the
supermarket, and spent almost another £50!!! . . . back home and
mail had been delivered. Oooh, oooh - a letter from South
Gloucestershire NHS!!!! Must be an appointment for my hernia operation!! Unloaded the car and stashed all the
shopping away and put on my new slippers and made a coffee etc
etc etc - before sitting in the garden and excitedly/nervously
opening the letter.
"Dear MR JONES The NHS is
introducing a new scheme, `Patients Choice', aimed at treating
patients more quickly and reducing waiting lists.
At present, the longest time any NHS patient has to wait for
surgery is 9 months at all hospitals and the majority will be
admitted before 9 months.
The Patient Choice scheme is aimed at patients who have been
waiting 6 months for treatment from the time they were listed for
surgery by their consultant. Patients now have the choice of
going to another hospital where they may be seen approximately a
month sooner.
As part of this initiative we are writing to you regarding this
offer. If, however, you have already received a pre-operative
assessment date, or a date for surgery at your current hospital,
we feel it is in your best interests to remain with your local
hospital and in which case, you do not need to respond to this
letter.
Should you wish to take up this offer please complete the
attached questionnaire and return it to me, the Patient Care
Advisor (PCA) at the address above within the next seven days.
This questionnaire is to assess your suitability for surgery
elsewhere.
If there are any queries with the information you have supplied,
I will attempt to contact you within one week of the return of
the questionnaire. In any event, I will contact you within four
weeks to discuss the next steps with you. "
For goodness sake!!! That is the first
contact they've made with me since my consultation back on 28th
January!!! That's rotten to get my hopes up like that, that at
last maybe I'd be 'done' and escape the daily discomfort I've
been in for so long, only to be sent this politically inspired
nonsense! My circumstances are such (living alone - Sally to walk
and care for - having to make my way to the hospital - hoping to
be out the same day, etc.) that I think I will NOT reply (god
knows where I could end up) - I'll just carry on sitting it out
and wait for the LOCAL hospital appointment - which I guess
according to this could well be into October - in excess of a
year since the doctors diagnosis!!!!! :o( . . . ate another two
huge mayo, corned beef, onion, grated cheese, tomato, lettuce and
four peices of bread and butter sandwiches with crisps for lunch.
. .slept, not so much because I was 'particularly' tired, but
more to try and shift my nasty headache. Slept the afternoon away
until around 5:30pm!! Wow - its really uncomfortably warm. . .PCd
this and used the OCR on my scanner for the first time. Worked
really nicely. :o) . . . walked - sweating! Found 2p. Sat on a
boulder watching the rather unpleasant world go by and drank a
tin of red bull. . BB called . . . ate four defrosted sausage
rolls . . .collected up some old pieces of wood and filled the
bin up. Emptied the contents of my old chip pan into jam jars and
then dumped the lot in the bin!. . . TVd/PCd till early . . .
tossed and turned and couldn't get to sleep until nearly
birdsong!! pas
30 - Woken by Sally around
7:30am! That isn't enough sleep! . . . LB called requiring
rescuing of a cat caught frog. Very full of life - let it jump
into my pond . . . walked and did litter duty. Another carrier
bag full! . . .ate a bowl of muesli for breakfast . . . walked
with Sally up to Kingswood to draw some money out of the building
society. Very warm! . . . returned home all exhausted and
couldn't help laying back down and catching up on some sleep
until around mid afternoon! . . . lots to do! Really should be
clearing things up and cleaning and vacuuming in advance of BB
coming to stay on Monday, but I just can't face doing it all! I
think I'll use the excuse that it's best that she knows the state
in which I usually live - and I'll clean whaetever she tells me
to, when she gets here!! My strangely 'wordy' mood of the last
few days continued, and I ended up sat in the shade in the garden
jotting down nonsense on scraps of paper!! Been a while since
I've been in such a mood - a long while! I like it! I'm about two
weeks into, the latest brand of Prozac ('Approved Prescription
services Ltd' - my 'usual'). I am increasingly convinced that
there IS a difference in the effects of different brands. I want
to stay on THIS brand! :o| . . . BB called early . . . scribbled
in the garden until gone 6pm and then walked with Sally over the
field and ended up scribbling a little more, sat on the grass
with some cigarettes and a tin of red bull, watching the sinking
sun and drifting hot air balloons. . . fed Sally then went up and
fed LBs cats and the two little rabbits. They really are VERY
cute, but that's no life for them, stuck in a filthy hutch,
surrounded by cats, and only let out to run around the garden
once in a blue moon! :o( . . . briefly guitarred in the garden .
. .PCd and typed some of my scribbles, without modification or re-ordering as is
definitely required!! lol . . . ate huge mayo, corned beef,
onion, grated cheese, tomato, lettuce and four peices of bread
and butter sandwiches with crisps and then a banana . . .
returned Mums ansaphone call and touched base until gone 11pm . .
.BB called . . . to bed around midnight. pa
31 - Woke from a dream at 6:45am!
Dreamt that a kid on a push bike
had collided with a car at the busy junction up the road, and had
fallen unconscious to the ground. Instinctively ran over to help,
but didn't want to have to deal with it - so I woke up!?? The mind really is its own place! . . . pleasant
coffee and cigarettes in the early cool of the garden. Gonna be a
hot day. I love cool early mornings and late evenings on such a
day. Makes the rest of the day bearable . . . walked and did
litter duty - two carrier bags full this morning! Funny how
Ive kinda overcome the mental obstacle of picking up other
peoples rubbish (when theres no one around watching me).
Its possible to even actually get some pleasure out of
having made a little positive difference. I dont do it
every time I walk and probably wont do it at all when the
kids are back at school and dropping huge amounts of litter all
over, every day but I walk aimlessly around there twice a
day with Sally anyway, why not. The only danger I can see is that
Ill get all possessive about it and maybe start an ugly
scene with anyone I see dumping stuff Im aware of
that, so hopefully Ill be able to turn a blind eye, and
not! . . .Another letter in the mail from the NHS!!!! No
Im NOT gonna get my hopes up! Good job too As you are aware, you are currently waiting for
admission to Frenchay Hospital. Well
DUH!! I need to check the information
we have for you is up to date and valid. What
- like in case I've died from old age while waiting? I apologise if you have already given me this
information, but would be pleased if you would send the following
information back to me in the pre paid envelope. If I do not hear
from you in the next three weeks, I will assume you no longer
wish to stay on the list.
Yet more bureaucratic nonsense!!! What do they think
Ive suddenly got better? Performed surgery on myself? Got
someone down the pub to do it? All I need now is for vandals to
set fire to the post box, or my reply to get lost in the mail
and Ill be right back to square one!! Grrrrr!. .
.trimmed a little of the garden honeysuckle to stop it
interfering with the rotary clothes line. . . did laundry and
PCd, catching up on just a couple of long overdue e-mail replies.
PCd this . . .Mum called to touch base and we ended up discussing
poetry for goodness sake!! She read me some of the Roger McGough
poems she'd got on my recommendation from the library! I read her
mine (complete with bad language)!! lolololol . . .
somehow ended up sat in the sunny garden ALL day playing with
more words!! Seem to be in a very UP mood!!!??? . . . ate a
couple of sausage rolls around 5pm . . .typed the latest
scribblings into the PC . . .walked and found 2p . . . fed LBs
menagerie . . . ate pizza . . . touched base with BB . . . PS
popped round for chats till early. He arrived bearing a piece of
cake for me, his daughter had cooked! I was still in a very
'bouncy' (almost manic!!) mood and inflicted some scribble
recitals and guitar strumming on the poor chap!!!!!!!!! Wouldn't
blame him if he never returned!! lol . . . sat in the garden
trying to get cool before bed around 1am . . . leapt to the
window at around 1:30am with noise. Turned out to be a woman in
high heels walking along with a couple of young kids following
her who couldn't have been more than ten years of age! As they
were walking up the middle of the road, they were playing with a
football and happily kicking it into parked cars, without a word
from their mother!!! What hope is there for all our future if
peple are brought up like that?!! pas
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