June
30 - Woken by Sally around
6:45am. She must be a mind reader Id been toying
with the idea of a long walk today (assuming my hernia and back
were up to it. Hernia has been giving me LOTS of discomfort of
late - pretty constant stomach ache nowadays really. :o( . . ). .
forecast wasn't too bad, so out walking just after 7:30am after
having put a bone for Sally and sausages for me, out of the
freezer to defrost while we were out. Walked all down through
Eastville Park, along the river and up onto Purdown. STILL no
work being done to the ruined monument - and in fact the wind has
started to tear down the protective tarpaulins that had been
loosely fixed to the scaffolding!! My 'sitting stone' has been
turned into the roof of a red ants nest, so I sat on the grass
for smokes. .the grass is almost waist high next to the Duchess
Pond. Sally really seemed to get a kick out of running through it
all happy and excited. I crouched down and hid from her
occasionally and she excitedly ran back to see where I'd gone and
what I was up to - behaviour best summed up by the word 'romping'
I think. Smiley stuff. :o) . back along the river at Snuff Mills
and eventually back home via Vassals/Oldbury Court and Fishponds.
Found 2p. Home by around 11am. Gave Sally her bone out on the
patio. Didn't see much of her for the next couple of hours! Dog
days don't come much better than this I think. :o) Cooked up four
sausages, baked beans, two eggs, mushrooms and ate it with three
pieces of bread and butter . . .napped for a few hours until
around 6pm . . . LB called to touch base and tell me she'd
accepted the new 'head hunted', higher paid job - AND - someone
had rung her up and had returned her ferret that'd been missing
for over a week!! Blimey! I suggested she should go and buy a
lottery ticket quick! . . . walked and returned the DVD to the
store. Found 5p and a tin of Stella Artois lager!? It was just
laying in the gutter on the pelican crossing by the corner store,
quite ok and intact! Guess I'll be having a drink tonight then!
:o) . . .BB called . . . TVd and drank the lager and as usual,
got a little tipsy on just the one drink . . . ate a banana and a
bowl of muesli before bed around midnight. Difficulty getting to
sleep because of the sound of Sally STILL gnawing on her bone! pd
29 - Woken by Sally around 7:15am
. . .Lots on the local news about a 'vicious' stabbing murder
just down in Clouds Hill Road towards St George last night.
Apparantly the roads were all still closed while the police
searched for the weapon. That'll be BIG traffic chaos on such a
main road! Jeeze - that's the second murder in these parts in the
last few months!! . . . walked and found a penny . . . did
laundry, paperwork, balanced my accounts, transferred savings and
renewed my car insurance (£187.95), and even vacuumed around the
PC a little! lol . . .cooked up a couple of cheap bacon steaks
with mushrooms and ate them with four slices of bread and butter
for lunch . . . napped in new white sheets. Woke around 6pm and
managed to get the laundry in off the line just before a sprinkle
of rain . . . walked and found 2p. Carried on up to the local
store to get milk and popped in the nearby video store,
determined to hire something to watch tonight - the TV schedules
are absolutely appalling - again! Crazy how that video store has
no order to things. Everything is on the shelves in completely
random order so you have to wander all up and down for ages
trying to scan everything, if youre looking for something
in particular. I rather fancied seeing what all this hullabaloo
about Schrek was, but they only had it on video and since I now
have a DVD, figured Id have to get something on DVD. Ended
up renting out a copy of the first Harry Potter film, the
Philosophers Stone. I seem to recall having seen half of it down
Mum and Dads some time when we were all there before Dad got
'too' ill, but never saw it all. Unfinished business. Ouch -
£3:50!! Wont be doing that too often. . . BB called . . .
watched the Harry Potter DVD, with the sound all loud through the
four stereo speakers, occassionaly stopping here and there for
supplies of garlic sausage and all the trimmings sandwiches, and
biscuits, and cornflakes - and then resuming from the same point
in that way that only DVDs can do. Definitely kids stuff, and
some appalling acting and scripts - but good effects and
entertaining nonetheless. :o) Clever author. . . eventually to
bed around 1am. pas
28 - Woken by Sally around 4am
needing to use the garden! What a good dog. Full daylight
already. . .managed to get back to sleep until around 8:30am . .
. walked . . .sat in the sun in the garden . . . too much clutter
in the house everywhere! Decided to get rid of the microwave and
cooker hood that next door had given me. Left Sally at home and
drove to the weird charity type place I bought my kitchen table,
and 'donated' them. . . drove to Cosham hospital and mustered my
courage to be really cheeky, and wandered in armed with a couple
of old photo library books and asked the old guy on the reception
desk if it would be possible for me to get a couple of photos of
the Butler and Fussell wards as they are now. (Been hankering
after trying to get those shots for a while.) He ended up being
really enthusiastic and helpful and after asking someones
permission, escorted me around and unlocked doors and let me get
my shots (albeit I had to take several and stitch them together
because ward doors were in the way of the right vantage points).
All those wards are now empty and locked up. Very sad to see the
place all being run down like that. He said they'd done filming
for TVs 'Casualty' in there and he thought the NHS would be
pulling out of the place by 2006 - and he thought the building
was NOT listed, so who knows what could happen to it!!!! Knocked
down? Turned into yet more unaffordable flats? Terrible shame. Mr
Handel Cosham must be turning in his 'pit'. :o( . . . drove to
Sainsburys and shopped a little. Invested £35 in some cheap
white bed linen and duvet cover sets. I'm determined to go all
white and get rid of all the weird coloured bedding that I've
been given. Seem unable to resist buying more and more 'going
cheap' stuff for the freezer every time I shop!! Got enough food
to last months - and yet I hardly ever eat much of it! Need to
curb this 'investment' food buying! Stopped for petrol (34.3ltrs
@ £26.32) . . feasted on bread and butter and reduced price cold
chicken drumsticks with loads of salt. . . slept until around
6pm!!! . . . walked and found 2p. . . PCd and enjoyed adding the
couple of shots (which 'just' worked out useable!) to the
Kingswood, Cosham page on the new site . . .LB called all happy about being 'head hunted'
in her job by some other company, willing to match, or better her
salary if she moved, etc, etc. Blimey - that must be good for her
ego. Can't imagine what that must feel like! I've only ever felt
that whoever I worked for, just 'put up with me'. :o| . . . BB
called . . .TVd . . . ate the rest of the chicken drumsticks with
more bread and butter and salt followed by a banana and then
bowls of cornflakes . . . to bed after midnight. Power was
symbolically handed back to the Iraqis this day!! pa
27 - Woken by Sally just after
7:15am . . . walked and found 10p . . .skipped food and spent the
day messing around with the old kitchen worktops I've had in the
understairs cupboard for ages, and cut them up and botched them
in place along the firebreast wall in the kitchen, either side of
the stove. Definitely a temporary botch job, but it'll do for a
while - whilst I'm still living in the kitchen building site.
Doubles the useable worksurfaces - but actually really just gives
me more space to stack dirty dishes until I get round to washing
them!! Tidied up and vacuumed by around 4:30pm . . .ate garlic
sausage and grated cheese sandwiches with crisps . . . walked and
found a penny . . . did dishwashing chores . . . BB called . . .
PS popped round for chats till early. Ate garlic sausage
sandwiches and biscuits. pas
26 - Woken by Sally barking at
the free local paper being delivered, after 9am!! . . . annadin
extra tablet for breakfast. Walked late in the heavy rain and
found 2p . . .PCd this. My back seems a bit worse again today! .
. .sat around feeling headachey, doing nothing as the rain poured
. . . cooked up four cheeseburgers for a mid afternoon lunch. LB
popped in briefly and handed me a big bag of bloody bones, she'd
scored for Sally at some butchers or other. I offered to pay the
£1:50 they'd cost but she refused 'because I feed the cats'. Ok
then.:o) . . . slept . . . woken by Sally around 6:30pm!! Still
raining. Still headachey. :o( . . . put Sally's bones in the oven
to cook and walked in the rain. Found 2p and another large silver
hoop earring. . . touched base with BB . . . rain stopped
eventually. Managed to cut up Sally's bones with the angle
grinder and a hatchet (Very difficult - dunno how murderers
manage to dismember bodies!!) and put two in the freezer for some
other time. Guitarred in the garden for a bit and watched Sally
gnaw on the other of her bones. . . ate bowls of cornflakes and
packets of crisps . . .TVd till after midnight. pas
25 - Woken by Sally just before
8am, and then seconds later BB called . . .Calm, sunny morning.
Walked and found 7p . . .Mum called and confirmed the fallen
guttering had been taken by her neighbour. Would have been Mum
and Dads wedding anniversary if he'd lived to see it - and the
big 50 next year! . . . sat in the garden in the sun but felt
really in the mood to try and clear up some of the junk I've had
laying out there for SO long. Dismantled the huge heavy metal
storage frame and cut it up into car sized pieces with the angle
grinder. Also cut up the old radiator I'd been using as a shelf.
Sorted through the big pile of bricks I've gotta keep for doing
the kitchen building work, and managed to fill half a dozen bags
or more with the useless ones. Piled up the good ones into a
neater heap where the storage frame had been - uh oh! Think I've
set my back recovery back a bit!! Ouch! Chewed up an ananadin
tablet and bit by bit walked everything through the house and
loaded the car up. Left Sally at home and drove to the
Mangostfield tip and got rid of it all. I DO like that new tip -
I've yet to find a big queue there, and when there IS a queue,
they've routed the entrance road right round the entire site, so
there'll be no more dangerous queuing out on the highway. Nice
one. . moved all the sacks of earth I'm keeping, out into a tidy
pile in the front garden, out of the way. Pulled a hebe bush out
of the ground and cut it up into the bin. Put the full and heavy
compost bin, up and just off the patio, where the hebe had been.
That's much better. . sorted through and cleared out more junk
and nearly filled my wheely bin. Hosed out the old dustbin I have
laying around full of 'stuff' and cleaned it up and brought it
into the conservatory and put all the sacks of sand and plaster
and cement etc, I have to keep, into it. . can hardly move in the
conservatory again now, but the patio/garden sure feels a little
neater and more spacious. . . BW popped in mid to late afternoon
and halted 'play'. He'd brought the video of him tandem freefall
skydiving in Mexico. Cost him £150 apparantly - actually seemed
like pretty good value for money - the video really was rather
good and almost professional in its production. Amazing keepsake
souvenir. . . rebuilt my pile of bricks a bit neater, hosed down
the patio again, and then sat around out there for ages feeling
as though I'd acheived something . . . BB called . . . got
cleaned up and then walked. Found 7p. Hadn't eaten yet today -
dropped off the milk I'd bought and then carried on with Sally up
to the kebab shop and treated myself to a £4:50 kebab and chips
feast - left a little to mix in with Sallys food . . .Got
feedback from the site Alright
matey, I've been reading your site. It's good. But why dont u get
a bird mate.?. . Huh? What
like a parrot? No noisy squawky things - its work
enough just having Sally! lol . or does he mean like well
BBs my bird isnt she. lol :o) guitarred
in the garden for a bit but ended up having to rush up to the PC
and record the little chord sequence (so I can remember some
other time, cause I can't write music) that went with the two
lines of words (which was all I managed to come up with) that
started off 'She's my bird' .lolololololololol. . . TVd . . .
briefly touched base with LB . . .Some re-laying of pavements has
been going on out in the street these last couple of days.
Bollards and barriers line the pavements. Itll be a miracle
if the drunks dont start throwing those around in the
night! . . sure enough I think a car up the road was damaged by
someone knocking one over. Peeking through the curtains I could
see the neighbour actually moving the bollards and barricade into
their front garden, to prevent further incidents! Why on earth
the contractors have left them laying around despite having
pretty much finished the job is anyones guess! Actually sat
in the FRONT garden with Sally and a coffee for a while around
midnight listening to the not distant enough big
noise from the local pub beer garden. A woman in a micro mini
skirt and tottery heels was walking up the street with her young
son (who should have been in bed by that time of night!) and was
explaining to him that they didnt need his Dad because he
said nasty things to them and theyd do without him!!!!! . .
Wow - saw a police car go by!! Blimey so they still have
some then! . . . TVd/PCd till early. pas
24 - Woken by Sally just after
6am!! . . . walked and found a penny. Very breezy out, but dry at
the moment . . .touched base with Mum but she hasn't managed to
catch her neighbour yet, to confirm the fallen guttering is his .
. . excellent - my back feels a lot better already - still
twingey and achey, but MUCH better than it was. . wrote out a
£110 checque and then walked with Sally up to the main Post
Office in Kingswood and taxed the car. Messed around briefly with
the camera and a couple of the library books on the High Street
and in the park and bagged a couple of the shots I'd yet to do
for the Kingswood site . . . very windy but warm enough for bare
arms (just) with the sunny spells. Treated myself to a cup of
coffee in the funny church hall place behind the main Holy
Trinity Church. Bargain at 25p for a mug - sat on a bench in the
sun in the graveyard with coffee and smokes. Jotted down the web
address of the 'Royal Forest' site on a piece of paper and gave it to the woman
who was serving, after having explained there was a picture of
the inside of the church during the recent flower festival and
'someone' may be interested to have a look. (Not 'entirely' my
ego - figured it was only right that someone connected with the
church should be told that 'captured moment in their time'
exists.) . . shopped a little on the way home . . . cooked up
garlic chicken kievs, chips and mushrooms for a big lunchtime
feast . . . napped for a couple of hours . . . TVd . . . PCd just
a couple of bad pics (Kingswood - Park, High Street ; Fishponds -
Snuff Mills) and uploaded them to the new site as showers poured outside . . . walked and found
4p. VERY quiet out - ghost town like, with everyone in somewhere
watching the football - England playing Portugal. . Watched the
TV show that Mum had rung up to tell me about. All about face
transplants!! Ewwww!! Showed some poor girl who was once by any
standards beautiful, whod been in a car wreck
and burned. Her face, nose, eyelids, fingers all gone!! I
just dont know how some people live with what they have to
endure. Im prtty sure I couldnt. :o( . . turned over
after the program and ended up actually being entertained by the
football!!! Me? Watching football!!?? Whatever next!!
Predictably, England ended up losing on penalties. lol Probably
all the more enjoyable because I really didnt care who won
and probably actually wanted England to lose, just so
there is some better TV to watch! Couldnt quite work out in
my mind what result would be the safest for my car and be the
least likely to cause riots in the streets by the mindless idiots
. . . to bed around midnight. pas
23 - Woken in the night around
3:10am by what sounded like someone insistantly rapping loudly on
someones letterbox trying to wake them up to be let in. Peeked
through the curtains but couldn't see anyone and it soon stopped.
Not the first time I've been woken by that same noise!!
Inconsiderate people! . . . woken by Sally at 7:15am. Annadin
Extra tablet for breakfast. . walked in the rain but just managed
to miss the worst, which poured and blew, soon after getting back
home! Perfect weather to set Glastonbury up for being a mud bath
again this weekend - and for Wimbledon of course!. . . PCd this.
Very autumnal stormy outside! Put in a couple of hours on line
and read through all the 106 posts on the Yahoo AvPD, Dr. Signe Dayhoff
Q&A list. Wow - that Yahoo
adverts thing is annoying. Can't believe they actually get any
custom from them - I didn't read a single one (didn't even wait
for some to load - slow on a dial up) - just had to do lots of
annoying extra mouseclicks to get past them! Grrr. . . . Mum
called to ask questions about rainwater guttering!!!!!! She'd
found a peice blown down into her garden!! Fingers crossed - it
sounds like it isn't hers - blown off a neighbours house
'hopefully'. SO frustrating not being able to just go look and
see where it came from. Long conversation about nothing much -
seems like Mum just needs to chat every now and then, now she
hasn't got Dad to share everything with. :o| . . . corned beef
and salad sandwiches, with two bags of salt and vinegar crisps
for lunch. . . napped for a couple of hours . . . TVd . . . PCd.
Had a good trawl through the main Yahoo AvPD group pages. (Can't log on with my ID anymore??) First
proper look I've had around there since it went over from
e-groups to Yahoo. All seems much the same in terms of the posts,
and the nature of the responses. Don't think I'll be making a
habit of returning - I'm content for it to remain something I
'passed through' en route to a certain level of self
understanding. . I guess I should admit that my pathetic, fragile
little ego, WAS a little bruised by not finding a link to my site
on their links pages (especially when there ARE such links as all-creatures.org,
Pet Haven Adoptable Cats, etc!!?????) . I like to think that putting myself
on (the) line like this over the years, has in some tiny way
maybe helped at least 'some' people in their search for self
understanding, and has maybe raised the profile of AvPD just a
bit. To not even warrant a link on the 'main' AvPD group links
list - yeah, that's bruised the little that is left of my ego.
Ain't I fragile/avoidant! lol :o| . . . walked in the gale and
found 8p . . . BB called . . . TVd whilst PCing this . . . ate
defrosted pastry sausage rolls, bags of crisps and a couple of
bowls of cornflakes . . . TVd till bed around midnight. paaas
22 - Fairly disturbed nights
sleep, half waking with back pain when moving around in my sleep!
. . .up around 8am. Warm sunny morning but the forecast for later
is awful wind and rain! Some difficulty getting out of bed with
my aching back. Good greif - I seem to have damaged my right knee
as well - took a while to hobble down stairs! Blimey - I really
am a bit of a wreck - limping, bent over having trouble
straightening up, holding my hernia in - is this my future?!!
Coughing and sneezing is a horrible ordeal - puts pressure on my
hernia and wracks my back with pain!!! . . . annadin extra tablet
(chewed), coffee and cigarettes in the garden for breakfast. . .
. walked. The tablet took the edge off my back pain and by the
end of the street I was fairly upright, and walked only a little
slower than normal round the field. Poop scooping was a difficult
one knee down, straight backed affair! . . . very carefully
managed to move the sacks of earth stacked up on the patio, to
underneath the patio table, to keep some of the forecast rain
off. Managed to saw up and put some more 'stuff' from the patio
into the bin - bits of metal, old car mats, etc. . . PCd this . .
.TVd and sat around pretty motionless for most of the day,
feeling a bit sorry for myself - again! . . .ate corned beef,
mayo, grated cheese, onion, lettuce and tomato sandwiches with
crisps for a late lunch . . . napped the rest of the afternoon
away . . . walked in rubber and wellington boots and found 9p in
the rain . . . TVd . . . BB called . . .cooked up four
cheeseburgers with all the salad trimmings . . . TVd until bed
around 1:15am. paaas
21 - The longest day of the year.
Woken by Sally at 7am. She jumped up onto the bed and landed
right on top of me! Nasty way to wake up. . .walked and found 4p
. . . bagged up all the 'bird table' rubble in the garden, and -
oh NO!!!! - succeeded in putting my back out again!! Don't think
it's as bad as last time - chewed up an annadin tablet and
managed to finish the job and get everything loaded into the car.
Threw in the old bike frame I've had laying around on the patio -
and sawed up the old door that's been out there awaiting
disposal, and put that in too. Left sally at home and drove to
the Mangotsfield council tip and got rid of everything. First
time I've been there since it was rebuilt - much improved - but
still an unpleasant chore. . . PCd this watching Judge Judy on TV
. . . ate corned beef, mayo, grated cheese, onion, lettuce and
tomato sandwiches with crisps for lunch . . . managed to sleep
through my aching back for most of the afternoon. Not much else I
CAN do - pretty incapacitated again! :o( Likely gonna be worse
tomorrow, based on past experience. . .walked very slowly and
carefully and found 2p . . . guitarred in the garden for a while
. . . TVd and managed to find something to watch that wasn't
football or tennis! England played again tonight and won their
football match. Didn't need to watch it to know they won - every
time they scored a goal, some nutcase in the area let off
fireworks!? . . . BB called . . .ate a bowl of muesli, biscuits,
a banana, almond slices, crisps - lots of junk. . . TVd/PCd until
bed around 2am. paaas
20 - Woken by Sally at 7am again.
. . walked and found a lighter . . . pottered in the garden and
cut up the spikey bush that's been growing across the back gate
and got rid of it in the bin. Trimmed bits and pieces here and
there and eventually managed to overcome my laziness and set
about removing the bird table/feeding station I'd built out of
old slabs. It's proved to be too low for the birds to feel safe,
and it so fills up the garden, when Sally has an upset stomach
and needs 'to go', she can hardly find a place and has to squeeze
in next to it with some difficulty. I figure when I've had my
hernia surgery, she'll need to be going out there for a while, so
it seemed wise to get it gone and give Sally more space. Been
thinking about it for a while but just couldn't face all the
work. Finally got round to it. Ended up with the patio covered in
rubble and sacks of earth, and the garden flat and cleared by
early afternoon, just before it started raining. Good timing.
Looks a bit of a mess - gonna take a while for all that 'babies
tears' stuff to grow back over all the bare earth. If I can be
bothered, those sacks of earth would be VERY useful in Mums
garden . . . trimmed my hair and cleaned up . . . ate grated
cheese, corned beef, lettuce and tomato sandwiches with crisps, a
banana and coffee and biscuits. Struggled to stay awake and
watched the American Grand Prix won by Schumacher. . . walked and
found 15p. . . BB called. . . ate bowls of cornflakes . . . TVd
until bed at 11pm. p
19 - Woken by Sally at 7am and
7:30am . . . walked. Stopped in the newsagent on the way back and
bought SH a birthday card . . .walked all the way down to SHs but
he wasn't there (again!), so just posted the card through the box
and walked all the way back. Found a penny. . . cooked up and ate
four cheeseburgers with all the trimmings . . .slept the
afternoon away . . . Mum called telling me to watch the 'come
dancing' TV show!! Watched a bit of it before walking . . .
walked and found a penny. . .BB called . . . TVd . . .ate some
cold, defrosted cheese and onion pastry rolls with crisps . . .
LB called around 12:20am all tipsy and screaming and wanting
'saving' from a spider that was on her ceiling!! For goodness
sake! Went up (more to save the spider from being swatted than
anything else) and moved it outside and immediately returned home
. . LB popped down briefly and gave me a couple of Thai cakes and
some filter coffee cups, presumably as a thank you!!?. . . to bed
around 1am. ps
18 - Woke around 8:15am . .
.since the new people moved into the old dead couples house
opposite, parking in the street has become extremely difficult.
That house is one of the few in the street that has a driveway
and garage, and yet they never use it, despite them having a
total of three cars for the household! That means that their
driveway has to be kept clear, and three more cars are suddenly
parking in the street - a total of four parking spaces devoted to
that one house! Neighbours are regularly having to park far away,
and even in different streets, and walk all the way back to their
homes. I will actually NOT use my car at certain times of day
because I know if I did, I wouldn't be able to park anywhere near
my house when I returned. Not working I have the luxury of doing
so, and during the day when people are at work, make sure I get
to park usually right outside my house, which makes keeping an
eye on it overnight possible. The fact that the people in that
house don't use their driveway (oh how the rest of us wish we
could park off the street away from the vandal attacks!) has
become a source of irritation to some of the neighbours. It was
with some little satisfaction that I saw one of the people come
out of that house this morning, and walk around their car looking
unhappy, inspecting the broken bits of plastic at their rear
windows which was all that was left of their missing England
flags. They're learning. Wonder how long it'll be until they wish
they hadn't moved into this area, and start parking at least one
of their cars off the street! . . . walked and found a penny and
yet another cigarette lighter . . .muesli and a banana for
breakfast . . . PCd this but just couldn't stay awake and ended
up napping from around 11am till 1pm . . .PCd this - seems like a
lot of it for yesterday! . . . I've had no reply to my 11th June
e-mail to admin@freenetname.co.uk about the recent inexplicable
zeroing of my hit counter, so I made the mistake of phoning the
helpline to try and sort it out. BIG mistake!! Seems like all the
helplines are now staffed by Indians who have such a thick
accent, I could hardly undersand a word they said! Turned out all
they would say is stuff like 'it is something you've done' or
'talk to your web designer' or 'we aren't trained in how to do
that, you'll have to call technical support' etc. I called
technical support - 50p a minute - must have cost me about £10 -
and all they said was the same stuff and 'no, there is no one
else you can talk to' and 'you'll have to write to the office'
etc etc etc. I kicked up quite a fuss and eventually they said
someone would look into it and e-mail me back! Yeah - right - I
bet. Bloody useless!!! Bloody infuriating. This last happened in
early November 2002 and all I had to do was e-mail Technical
Support and they accepted it was because upgrade and maintenance
work had taken place on the Servers and they reset the counter
within a week. Seems like since then, the company has changed,
the helplines have gone to India, and everything has turned to
s***!! Yep - that'll be progress then. NOT! :o( Grrrrrr . . .
added a couple of photos to the Fishponds, Frome Valley 3 page on
the new site . . .walked avoiding the mopeds on the cycle path.
Really is just like any other road now!! . . . briefly touched
base with LB to smile at how the new guy up and over opposite had
just been out and parked one of their many cars in their driveway
(presumably because of last nights flag incident - and I think
they 'may' have lost their wing mirror a couple of nights ago
too!!). LB said she thinks they had one of their cars broken
into, only days after moving in!! Blimey - steep learning curve!
Welcome to the ghetto! :o( . . .put another of the dead potted
fir trees from the garden in the bin . . . BB called . . . PS
popped round for chats till early. . . LB called - looks as
though she's lost another one of her polecats - disappeared down
the back lane somewhere!! :o( Jeeze! Do SO hope she doesn't go
buy a 'replacement'. p
17 - Woken by Sally at 7:45am.
MUCH cooler out this morning . . . fed LBs cats . . .walked.
Walking last night Id spotted a car just down the road with
its passenger window left wide open, right next to the
pavement. Id thought how dodgy that was, but it was very
hot and assumed that maybe someone had just popped into one of
the nearby houses. This morning the car was still there, the
window was still open, and someone had obviously been into the
car and rifled through the glove compartment and everything and
had taken whatever they pleased! Damn - should I have done
something about it when I saw it open last night? Knocked on a
door but it wasnt theirs they thought maybe a couple
of doors down. Knocked on that door and sure enough I was the
bearer of bad news to the guy inside. Said how sorry I was to be
the bearer of bad news and left him to sort out the mess. He was
of course pretty upset. Only later did I pass the car again and
see a sticker on the back indicating it was a courtesy car from
some garage or other! I guess that kindof explains why he made
the mistake of leaving the window open unfamiliar car and
all. :o( . . Found a weird smart card type thing near the school.
Gave it to a passing kid who was late for classes and asked him
to hand it in for me. Turned out it was a card for getting school
dinners!? Picked up the pint beer glass from the middle of the
field and walked it up and left it on one of the benches outside
the pub at the top of the feild. Carried on walking with Sally
via the Kingswood heights building site for a progress photo, up
to the building society to draw out some cash. Shopped just a
little. 45 books of liquorice RIZLA cigarette papers for £12:15.
Groups of young school kids were all doing some sort of survey or
other in the shopping precinct. Couldn't help myself approaching
one of the teachers and giving her a slip of paper with the new
website address on it and explaining it may be interesting for
the kids. Funny how when I first approached her and her group of
kids and asked if she was a teacher, her protective defences were
well up and she was icy cold in her replies. She warmed once I'd
explained. Whether or not she'll look I don't know, but she did
say it was just the sort of thing they were looking at. Be nice
to think they DO have a look. It's changed how I see the world
around me a bit - maybe it would do that for the kids. . .
transferred some money by phone out of my savings and then drove
to Hanham with Sally to renew the library books. Had a look
through the shelves for more photo books, but I think I've seen
all they have down there. . wandered around a bit in Hanham and
bagged a couple of 'now' photos I'd yet to do. Really want to tie
up the loose ends so I can get shot of these books! Popped in a
charity shop and ended up buying a pair of never worn trainers
for £5 (dead man's shoes?!). . back to the car and drove around
exploring, looking for the Hanham Hall place, that used to be a
mental hospital. Eventually found it, parked the car somewhere
and walked all the way back to the entrance road with Sally to
ask the security guard if I could wander around and take photos.
Once again it was funny to see the change in attitude - he was
all icy cold and security guard like until I did my best 'well
spoken friendly guy' act and explained what I was after and
showed him the library book. It then became difficult tearing
myself away as he started telling me all sorts of this and that
about how the NHS pulled out of the place a couple of years ago,
and how the council were infighting over the future of the place,
and how this building over here was listed too, and how they used
the wrong type of stone and render when they rebuilt one of the
wings, etc, etc, etc!! Eventually got his permission to wander
around and take my photos. Amazing huge great area of land (many
acres) all covered in hospital buildings. Reminded me a bit of
Frenchay Hospital. Sally took off chasing some squirrels as I
wandered around in front of the main house trying to get a few
photos. Terrible sad to see the place falling into such neglect!
Can't imagine what the future will be for the place - but SO much
land is there, if they DID get permission to knock it all down,
they'd have enough room to build a new small town!! That must
surely be quite likely - loads of new houses in sought after,
expensive Hanham. What a shame. . . drove down to the Conham
River Park and let Sally out for the briefest of walks and swims
as I bagged a couple more photos . . shopped on the way home.
Made the mistake of going in Lidls and couldn't resist impulse
buying a plain and simple, large quartz wall clock for £1:99.
White face, black hands, metal look outer edge, 12" diameter
- just the type (more or less) I planned would look ok on the
firebreast in the kitchen. .drove to Jollyes for dog food
supplies. 48 tins of Winalot for £18 and a 15kg (+ 2 extra free)
sack of PAL complete for £17:95. . this last few weeks because
of the Euro 2004 football thing, everyone everwhere seems to have
decided to buy one (many people buy a pair) of those red cross St
George flags with plastic masts that clip on the rear windows of
their cars. The latest nonsensical fad. I have no interest in
putting one on my car, but figured it was only a matter of time
before sooner or later I ended up finding one in the street. As I
pulled onto the main road I saw one laying in the gutter - and
felt compelled to have it. Screeched to a halt, leapt out and
dashed back in the traffic and picked the flag up. Got one
(albeit with a broken clip on bit). lol :o) . . . cooked up a
pizza with extra mushrooms and cheese . . . touched base with BB
. . . napped for a couple of hours through the England v.
Switzerland football match. Woke around 6:45pm and caught the
last couple of minutes of the three nil England win. I did NOT
sit and wave my flag! Well - 'maybe' there won't be (such bad)
riots in the streets tonight then . . . walked. A couple of young
kids - a girl of five and a boy of six ended up getting all
chatty as I sat on one of the boulders at the edge of the field
having a cigarette! All totally innocent but felt VERY
uncomfortable and vulnerable! One wrong word from anyone in the
current climate and I'd be likely lynched from the nearest tree
by a drunken football mob for being a strange weirdo single guy
with a dog, type paedophile!! Quickly finished my cigarette and
waved them goodbye and got out of the situation. What a sad world
where one is frightened of even talking to a child. :o( . . . PCd
todays photos. .BB called . . noisy yobs in the street required
some peeking out of darkened windows on several occasions
throughout the evening . . . PCd for hours until around 1am and
added a handfull of new photos to the Hanham 1-4 pages and the
Avon Valley #2 page on the Royal Forest site. . . ate garlic sausage and grated cheese
sandwiches, crisps and a banana in the early hours. . . . .
eventually to bed around 2am but difficulty sleeping. More noise
of rampaging yobs in the street saw me leaping to the window
again at 2:22am. A group of four 'young 'men'(?!!)' were running
down the road, wrenching off all the England flags from the rear
windows of all the parked cars as they went! One guy wrenched at
the neighbours flag as he ran by, but didn't succeed in snapping
the plastic. Incredibly he retraced his steps and had another go,
eventually having to use both hands because for some reason, that
particular plastic mast was more nylon like and wouldn't snap. He
called it quits only when he'd succeeeded in ripping the flag off
and leaving the mast all buckled and bent. The neighbour was
surely lucky not to have had that window broken by the leverage
and extreme force he used! Couldn't see a single flag in the
street once they'd disappeared. Bastards! Really upsetting to
have to stand and watch such mindlessly violent behaviour, and
not be able to do a thing about it. Would have taken too long to
get dressed and out - and what would I have done anyway - except
get myself in big trouble? :o( . I just can't understand why
there is all this antisocial violent behaviour these days. The
news today even told how the latest TV Big Brother nonsense show
was being investigated by the police because there had been a
brawl which had seen the live coverage go off air in the early
hours!! Why oh why do people have to be so violent?!!! I'd like
to give them all a good beating and knock some sense into them!
Ooops!! . . . ended up all awake and wound up, and fantasising
about buying a baseball bat or a stun gun or some mace and
becoming a masked vigilanty cruising the streets late at night!
Couldn't sleep, and more noises out in the street saw me end up
getting dressed and sitting around in a darkened living room with
the curtains open for half an hour or so, before eventually
feeling calm and tired enough to have another go at sleeping.
Eventually to bed as light was appearing in the eastern sky.
Quite a day! p
16 - Woken by Sally just before
7am . . . walked. Still very hot. . . did laundry chores . . .
PCd this. Dug the electric fan that next door had given me, out
of the cupboard. Blimey - that's actually quite a good fan -
although I'm not particularly comfortable having a blowing
sensation on my skin all the time - and it makes me wish I'd done
some dusting and vacuuming - um - this year! lol Certainly makes
sitting at the hot PC a bit more bearable . . . kept the washing
machine running most of the day and rotated loads of stuff on and
off the washing line. At least this weather means it all drys
pretty quick. Balanced my accounts and sorted out paperwork and
such all morning. Phoned the inland revenue about the letter
they'd sent me about not having paid my full NI contributions
since I left work. Apparantly it IS entirely voluntary - and
since I can't really afford the £30 a month, I guess I'll take
the gamble and not pay it! . . damn - car tax renewal notice in
the mail - £110 due by the end of the month, just to be able to
have it parked outside for rampaging drunks to smash up as they
please! Oh jeeze - house insurance is due too! How on earth can
they justify a 10% premium increase - especially when they have
rushed out a new 'terrorism' exclusion to the cover?! :o( . .
.ate garlic sausage, grated cheese and lettuce sandwiches with
crisps and then biscuits for a late lunch . . . napped but woken
within an hour by some door to door Greenpeace activist or other,
wanting I don't know what cause I didn't give them time to tell
me before saying no thanks and closing the door!? Managed to nap
for another hour before waking up feeling a bit unwell . . .
walked and found 3p and a cigarette lighter. The white goo the
yobs spread all over the seat and swings appears to have been
wood glue and has been baked hard and clear by the sun. . . fed
LBs cats. Blimey - place pongs a bit!! . . . BB called . . . ate
bowls of corn flakes . . . TVd until bed around midnight. pa
15 - Woken by Sally around 6am
and then insistantly again with a whine around 6:30am! Got up and
let her out into the garden but that wasn't what she wanted. I
think she must have read my mind that I was intending to maybe do
a long walk today, since the forecast is for a break in the good
weather and cooler more unsettled weather in the next few days.
Very tired. . . out of the house with a rucksack around 7:30am
and walked down through Fishponds to the Oldbury Court Estate and
the river. Took a few photos near Frenchay bridge. Wasted some
money and called the police on my mobile and reported the Audi
car that appeared to be a stolen dumped - the passenger window
had been smashed and the radio was gone and the glove box and
everything gone through. The police guy on the phone confirmed
'they were aware of it' - although it looked as though the broken
window and theft of stuff inside was new to them!! It DID have a
police notice on the window about how naughty it was of the car
driver to have parked it half on the pavement!! Well for goodness
sake - that is like advertising the fact that the car is good for
smashing up to passing yobs! Why on earth didn't they arrange to
get it shifted before that happened? What's wrong with
society?!!! Arrrrrgggghhhh!!! . . . walked with Sally all along
the river, stopping frequently to just sit and smoke a cigarette.
Sally was VERY in the mood to be running around and swimming and
having a good time, despite the uncomfortable and oppressive
heat. She spent quite a while being cool and actually just laying
in the river with only her head out of the water when I stopped
for one cigarette. Funny woofer. :o) Walked the extra through the
long grass up onto Purdown to confirm that no rebuilding work has
yet been done to the monument. Eventually slowly home via
Eastville Park. . . home around midday, so very, VERY hot and
wringing with sweat! My little digital thermometer showed in
excess of 31 degrees C in the front garden at one point - mid to
high twenties in the house. . . fried up four sausages and some
mushrooms and ate them with four pieces of bread and butter . . .
caught up on a few hours hot sleep and woke around 5:30pm . . .
LB called asking me to feed the cats tomorrow evening and the
next day. . . walked . . . BB called . . .PCd a bit of this but
was SO hot in the bedroom with the machine running, I just
couldn't stand it and soon gave up . . .sat in the relative cool
of the garden with the guitar for a short while . . .ate bowls of
corn flakes and then lettuce and grated cheese sandwiches . . .
TVd until around 1am. pas
14 - Woken by Sally too early
again but managed to push her off and sleep on until she insisted
I woke around 8am . . . plenty on the TV news about yobs all over
the country rioting in the streets, burning cars and stoning the
police and such, following last nights football match!! I despair
. . . walked - very hot out! Carried on walking and headed for
the doctors surgery to make an appointment to get the 'review'
prior to repeating my prozac perscription out of the way. Found
20p and a large rawhide chewy bone thing for Sally! Weird to find
one of those laying in the road - and they're expensive?! :o)
Made my appointment (things have really improved - all
appointments are made for the day and no longer a long waiting
list and days in advance) walked slowly home trying to keep my
painful bulging hernia in place with a hot sweaty hand in my
pocket!! :o( Spotted a plumbers van parked up on the side of the
road with the door unlocked and a bunch of keys hanging from the
door lock!! Blimey - he'll be lucky to have much left when he
realises what he's done! Couldn't just ignore it so sat on a wall
next to it and tried calling the phone numbers on the side of the
van. No replies. Pulled the keys out of the door and went and
knocked on the door of a nearby likely looking house that is
undergoing refurbishment. The guy who answered the door said sure
enough, the plumber was working there, so I told him the van was
unlocked and handed the keys over and carried on my way. Good
deed for the day done I think. . . checked on the leaflet and
confirmed that the mobile library van 'should' be visiting
hereabouts today, so figured I'd better sit in and wait - again!
. .called the hospital and confirmed that I actually AM on a
waiting list for a hernia operation (despite having received no
communication whatsoever since my January consultation). The
secretary on the phone was even able to confirm I was down for a
'day case' and a general anaesthetic. She speculated, based on
political rhetoric about reducing waiting times, that I'd be
getting done 'maybe' around the end of August. We'll see - at
least my mind is eased by actually knowing I'm on a list and not
lost in some administrative error, which is what I'd begun to
suspect. . .PCd this . . .at last - the library van actually
turned up in the street. Confessed my crime of damaging a couple
of the books and said I had my cheque book with me. The woman was
very understanding and said it shouldn't be a problem cause they
weren't too bad. Phew. Took most of them out again because there
are just those one or two pictures I haven't yet captured. . .PCd
briefly . . . ate corned beef, lettuce, grated cheese, tomato
sandwiches and crisps for lunch . . . BB called . . .showered and
got all clean and sweet smelling. . .got all up tight and
headachey and had to suck annadin tablets. Left Sally at home and
did the hot sweaty walk back to the doctors surgery for my 2:50pm
appointment. Waited in the waiting room until called in around
3:10pm. A very brief chat to explain that I'd kinda crashed again
(precipitated by trying to give up smoking - and failing) and
that I'd gone back on the prozac again, and wanted to remain on
it for the forseeable future, as we'd discussed and agreed a year
or two ago. He asked me why I'd stopped taking them and I
explained I'd wanted to experience the death of my father and
whatever that meant, without being drugged up! He seemed to
accept that, and reiterated that he had agreed before, that he
felt I benefited from being on the prozac and he was happy to
renew the perscription - repeatable for the next twelve months,
without needing to see him for a review. Excellent. Relief. .
paid the £6:40 NHS prescription fee in the adjacent pharmacy and
waited for my next 60 capsules. Made the mistake of reading one
of the leaflets on the wall about 'prostate' stuff, cause I guess
I'm getting to that sort of an age. Figured it was worth a read
to actually once and for all, enlighten myself as to what the
hell a prostate is. Wish I hadn't! Seems like the symptoms of a
problem are pretty vague, or non existant - and easily
hypochondriac like, assigned to oneself! Suffice it to say, I now
know roughly what and where a prostate is, and thanks to the
explicite diagram of how a doctor examines it (ewwww!!!!), I
refuse to ever have any problems with mine thank you very much!!!
Actually, I always get SO up tight seeing the doctor anyway, I
doubt that examination would be possible without a big dose of
sedative - for both of us! :o| . .Thought Id take advantage
of the free and simple diabetes test that was advertised on
notices. Had to fill out a great big, in triplicate form of loads
of personal details before I could have the finger prick test.
Filled it all out, and then right at the bottom just above where
I had to sign, were sections to be deleted as appropriate. There
was an option, so I withdrew my consent for all those details to
be held on computer etc, by the pharmacy company. Only then did I
see the small print beneath, which said that if Id deleted
that bit, I couldnt have the test! Well what idiot designed
that form?!! That should have been the first bloody question
to save me wasting my time filling it all out Grrrr.
Removed my forms from the pad and screwed them up and didnt
have the test out of principle and irritation really. As
BB pointed out later, under the circumstances, why would I have a
problem with having personal stuff about me on someones PC!
lololol Hmmm she has a point. :o\ . . . as usual, the
effort and stress of visiting the doctor had absolutely wiped me
out, and I inevitably napped for a couple of hours as soon as I
got home and cooled down a little . . . walked and found a penny.
Vandals had done their best to destroy the area around the kids
swings. All the plastic in the bin had been set alight (as every
night) and the melting plastic had been draped around the swings
and everything. A weird white goo had been poured all over the
swings and everything else all around - including the only seat
in the field, which I gain some little pleasure from sitting on
each day for a cigarette half way through the walk. Bastards! :o(
. . . called BB . . .briefly guitared in the garden . . . TVd . .
. ate a couple of grated cheese sandwiches with crisps . . . PCd
until early. A guest book entry from Scarlette indicated a new Yahoo group (http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/AvoidantPersonalityDisorder/)has been set up for a special Q&A type session
with a Dr. Signe Dayhoff!? Figured I'd better go look, but only
ended up spending a ridiulous amount of time messing around with
my Yahoo ID, trying to reactivate it. Guess it just goes to show
how little I mess around on the PC these days. Pretty sure I
haven't even looked at the Yahoo avoidant group for maybe a year
or two!! Didn't feel as though I wanted to have to start 'joining
groups' and ended up bumbling aimlessly around, surfing nonsense.
Seems like EVERYTHING is out there somewhere. There's even a
group devoted to people who have a fear of rubber party balloons!!?? I think I'd swap depression/schizoid/avoidant
for that, given the chance. Ive never been beaten up by a
bunch of balloons. Never found any difficulty in socialising with
a bunch of balloons. Never been compelled to seek out the company
of a female balloon. Never been humiliated by my clumsy attempts
to start a relationship with a balloon. Never felt obliged to go
into a pub with a bunch of drunken balloons. Never been told what
to do by a managerial balloon. Never been rejected by a balloon
although I guess I HAVE had them pop on me. Blimey
theres even groups for people who get their kicks from
that!!!!!!! Tis a strange world I am trapped in. pa
13 - Woken by Sally pawing my
face at some early hour. Growled (swore!) at her to go away and
managed to sleep on until around 8am. . . walked and found 3p, a
disposable cigarette lighter and a nylon womans shoulder/back bag
- the type that has a single split strap that fastens with
velcro, that seems to be the fashion these days. Almost every car
going down the road on this side of the street showed evidence of
a nightime assault on its wing mirror - mine included, but
thankfully it snapped back into place because my car just
happened to be facing the right way to escape having it broken!!
At least three had actually been broken - one was laying in the
road minus the glass - put the remains on the garden wall of the
house I think will be upset - again!! :o( . . .PCd this . . .sat
in the garden in the sun for a large portion of the day. Very
hot! . . . fried up four sausages, potatoes and mushrooms for a
large late lunch around 5pm while watching the Canadian grand
prix. Schumaker won. Again. . . walked and found 2p. Strangely
quiet out. Most everyone appeared to be in somewhere getting
drunk and shouting and swearing at the TV as England played
France in the European football thingy in Portugal. I care not at
all! . . .BB called to touch base . . . I have to confess I was
all expecting trouble in the street again, what with all the yobs
drinking and watching England lose the football match and all, so
at the first hint of some shouting, I was up the stairs and
peeking through the blinds of the darkened bedroom window.
10:25pm, give or take a couple of minutes. A car was pulled up at
the junction, up and over the road, only 'just' visible at an
angle from my window. I could just make out a bit of an argument
between a guy who'd got out of the front passenger seat, and
another figure which the voice indicated was a girl, stood near
the open rear passengerside door. He was telling her to get in.
She was protesting and did not want to. I did NOT see him force
her in, but she was shortly in the back of the car and he got
back into the front passenger seat and the car pulled off, out of
the junction and turning right, away from me and quickly out of
view. As the car pulled round, out of the T junction and into the
street, I saw the rear passenger door open whilst the car was
moving, and could hear the womans voice saying 'No!'. As the car
completed the manouver and straightened up, the rear door closed
and it drove off, out of sight. It crossed my mind to make a dash
for my car - but by the time I'd got outside, unlocked it all,
started it and done a three point turn - no way would I have been
able to catch up with whatever the car was (in the dark, at that
angle from my window, I couldn't recognise the type, colour or
anything about it!). Horrible feeling of 'standing by' as who
knows what was occurring. 'It is necessary' that I should believe
that the girl was simply drunk and being silly, and that she was
with friends who were making sure she was returned home safely.
:o| . . . TVd till early. PCd looking at French property pages
until around 2am. pa
12 - Up just before 7am . . .
walked and found a penny . . . ate a bowl of muesli and a banana
for breakfast . . .pawed over library books trying to work out
directions and distances and then breifly walked down to
Speedwell School and climbed through the gap in the fence and
went out onto their sports field to get a picture in the
direction of the old coal mine pit head. . . felt a bit unwell -
upset stomach and aggravated hernia stuff I think. . . couldn't
muster the energy to do anything and ended up just sitting around
and making trips to the bathroom! . . . slept for an hour . . .
TVd/PCd and just sat around all day!! . . . walked and sat for a
while over the field. All of a sudden Sally took off towarsd the
road??!! Turned out to be a squirrel on the pavement, right there
near the entrance to the field next to the road. Blimey - never
seen a squirrel there before! Where on earth can it live - no
decent trees anywhere near? . . it appeared there was gonna be
some kind of party going on at the rugby club building. A large
group of youths (kids!) were all sat around near the bushes
rolling and smoking their joints. Groups of girls were gathering,
many carrying bottles and all of whom appeared to be rather tipsy
already, and really far too young to be wearing as little as they
were! There is something in the air on such occasions - you just
KNOW there is gonna be late night trouble in the streets,
somewhere - just luck of the draw whether or not you are gonna be
unlucky to suffer in some way as a result! Returned home with a
familiar sense of foreboding . . . drank a can of Redbull as I
meticulously emptied the particles of dust from all the plastic
baggies that I've been picking up whenever I find them over the
last few weeks. Didn't amount to much - but I don't need much -
so it was enough. :o). . . BB called . . . ate the last of the
bananas and a few bowls of corn flakes . . . around 12:30am there
was the noise of drunken hassle in the street and the sound of
what experience suggests was someones car wing mirror being
broken off their car and hitting the floor, and then their car
alarm going off. Leapt to the spy hole at the door and peered out
but couldn't see anything much and whoever it was seemed to pass
on by. I really didn't feel up to leaping out into the street for
more hassle and abuse, and as far as I could tell, my car had
escaped the assault, so I just prowled around inside the house
looking out of darkened windows for a while. Shouldn't have leapt
up like that - with the accompanying surge of adrenalin as I
looked through the door, I seriously wondered if I was gonna have
a heart attack!!! Terrible pounding in my chest! Made me feel
quite unwell for quite a bit!! . The poor young couple from down
the road who'd had their wing mirror knocked off some while ago
(that time I went out and collected up all the pieces) were out
in the street. Oh dear - it was theirs again! I could just about
hear some of the young guys conversation to another neighbour -
about how he was sick of having to live like this - about how he
doesn't sleep well because any slight noise will see him leaping
to the window, etc etc. Poor guy - I know EXACTLY how he feels.
Once upon a time it used to be nice to occasionaly have a nice
warm shower and then just sit around in front the TV being all
snuggly just wearing a fluffy bath robe - or even losing myself
in some music with my headphones on. I daren't any more - I'll
usually get dressed again straight away, just in case I have to
run out into the street to get hit by a drunk - I NEVER use
headphones and mostly have the TV sound only 'just' audible so I
can keep an ear out for trouble - I also leave my coat containing
camera and mobile phone on the sofa near the front door, for a
quick grab and exit as required!!! It's a 'besieged' way of life!
And there isn't a damn thing we can do about it - except live in
fear and continually have to pay the price of whatever mindless
damage we suffer! It's just SO wrong :o( . . . despairingly
looked out of darkened windows and TVd until bed around 2am. ps
11 - Woken by BB calling early
around 7:45am . . . walked and found 11p . . . PCd this . . .ate
big corned beef, grated cheese, mayo, lettuce, tomato sandwiches
with two bags of crisps and a banana. . . felt all exhausted and
napped most of the day away!! I'm starting to wonder if something
is going on with me - being SO tired all the time?!!. . .walked .
. . Mum called to touch base and tell me she'd ordered a very
expensive new bed . . . touched base with BB . . . PS popped in
briefly to pick up a G clamp he wanted to borrow to do work on
his motorcycle brakes . . . ate three defrosted cheese and onion
pastry rolls, some crisps and a banana . . . TVd till early. p
10 - Woken by Sally around 7am .
. . walked and found 9p. Lot of weird goings on next to the rugby
club building huge numbers of cars, trucks, and old buses
all parked in the car park, and people in yellow fluorescent
jackets wandering around!!?? Thought at first that maybe a group
of travellers had moved in!!! :o( Had to satisfy my curiosity and
called out to someone to ask what was going on. Turned out to be
the location base for a BBC film crew. They were
gonna be filming in the neighbourhood for part of the TV
Casualty series! Blimey. Guess Id better stooge
around and see what there is to see, and maybe get some photos.
Asked some of the crew that Id overheard were jumping in a
van to head for the location, where they were going.
Fiveways Junction on Lodge Causeway. Made my way up there with
Sally and sat around for ages watching preparations being made
for the shoot. A brief sprinkle of rain then mostly hot and sunny
for the rest of the day. Spoke to a couple of the crew to get an
idea what was going on, and had to speak lots to other
rubberneckers who wanted to make friends with Sally. The scenario
for the shoot was that an ambulance had developed brake failure
and was careering through a busy junction, having a near
miss. All the signposts on the junction were covered over
with fake Holby City ones. The dialling code of a
phone number on one of the shop windows was temporarily covered
over. A small scaffolding structure was built on one side of the
junction to house the camera and was reasonably well camouflaged
with army type camouflage netting and several small shrubs in
pots. A larger hide was constructed on the other
corner in front of the public lavatories with more green
camouflage netting and potted shrubs. .(One of the many smaller
shrubs had a price tag on it of £15!) This area accommodated
another camera up on a high panning gantry and hid the majority
of the crew and equipment from the intersecting camera
viewpoints. False no entry street signs appeared from
the back of the ambulance that was to do the stunt, and were
carried off and placed somewhere. Small handy cams were attached
to the ambulance. The intersecting of all these different camera
angles meant that the crowd of onlookers had to be ushered well
up the street out of the way, by the security guards so as not to
spoil the shot and for safety in case things went wrong!
Someone had been hired to change the traffic lights as
appropriate. A team of some half a dozen police had been
hired in for the day to close off the roads when
filming took place. They (everyone!) seemed to like Sally, who
was really VERY well behaved and patient with all the sitting in
the sun. Took advantage of the circus/party atmosphere and the
friendly policeman in charge, and got me a silly photo of her in
his hat. :o)
One of
the crew estimated that the days filming had cost in the region
of sixty thousand pounds (getting on for half a million per
episode). The on screen final result would likely be seconds!
'Casualty', Episode 5, to air on the 2nd of October 2004.
Incredible amount of money, people, organisation, and work going
in to SUCH a short piece. He did however make sure I (as a TV
licence payer) knew that the series was sold all over the world
and makes more than it costs. lol . . . At long, LONG last, the
roads were closed (must have caused chaos for miles!) and a
rehearsal timing run was done with cross traffic and the speeding
ambulance. I think in all, three live takes were eventually done.
I got the last two on video on my digital
(278kb) by standing
on someones garden wall. :o) Looked pretty damn close to
me!! Checked with a patient crew member where location 3 was
gonna be, and then dashed home to unload the camera and grab a
couple of corned beef sandwiches, bags of crisps, and a banana
for lunch. Back over the field around 2pm only to find all the
film crew sitting around in the sun having lunch at their base.
Asked one of the poor security guards (jeeze what a mostly boring
job!) what was happening on this shoot and was told it would be
the run away ambulance swerving into the builders yard, and
crashing to a soft halt in a pile of sand. Sat on the
grass with Sally and drank my tin of Red Bull to keep me awake
and waited for things to get going again. Eventually everyone
started heading for the Jewsons yard. Passed a police van on the
way and knocked on the window and handed in the tax disc Id
found last night. Saves me the hassle of getting rid of it
somehow else. At long, long last the stunt was all set up and
ready to go. An articulated lorry was parked on the street as if
being unloaded by a forklift. The road was closed off. A half
speed test rehearsal run up was done by the ambulance across the
car park. Damn the police moved the small crowd of
onlookers way back out of the way so that we wouldnt be in
danger and so that we wouldnt be visible in any of the
cameras. That meant we couldnt actually see the final crash
into the sand!! :o( All we saw was the ambulance disappearing at
speed across the car park and out of sight into the builders yard
and then a loud crump sound. This was shortly
followed by a bit of running around from members of the crew so
it appeared that something hadnt quite gone to
plan. The police held everyone back until some wide angle/long
shots had been done by the film crew. Only then was the road
reopened and we were able to walk into the car park and see where
the ambulance had come to rest in the yard. A fork lift truck was
being quickly driven backwards and forwards placing huge bags of
sand underneath and around the ambulance to make sure it
didnt topple over. Looked very much as though that stunt
very nearly went a bit wrong but they got way with it!
Grabbed a couple of photos here and there and then, very tired of
all the waiting around in the hot sun, headed home. Found 2p . .
.PCd and looked at the disappointing photos but so, SO tired,
couldnt help laying down and napping for an hour or so at
around 5:30pm. Not sure why the day had been SO tiring, but
clearly Sally was exhausted too. My arms have caught a bit of the
sun. . . walked and found 2p. Mum called telling me of a TV show
to watch later. Human Mutants!!?? Turned out to be
not what shed imagined a truly horrific program of
mostly grossly malformed babies in formaldehyde and animal
experiments!! YUK! . . . touched base with BB . . . ate a bowl of
muesli and a banana . . . TVd/PCd until around 3am. Added a few
of todays photos, for posterity, to a second Speedwell page on the new site. Uh oh looks like my homepage website
counter has recently been reset to zero again!?? Ray Charles died
this day. ps
9 - Woken by Sally earlier and then up around 7:30am .
. . bit more cloud and just a little cooler this morning. Walked
and found 4p . . . PCd a bit of this . . .realised the Glenside
Hospital (and Stoke Park mental hospital) museum was open today
so left Sally at home and drove to have a look. Well - it's
finally happened - I've ended up in a straight jacket! Couldn't
resist asking the attendants if there was any chance of putting
one on for an 'amusing' photo opportunity. They seemed eager to
please (actually a bit too eager which was a bit worrying) and
happily took one off the displays and started strapping me into
it. The old guy then had to be instructed how to use my camera
because I didn't have any hands free! He did rather well and I
got my shot. :o) They seemed a bit too eager to give me a guided
tour but I managed to shake them off and wander around mostly on
my own looking at the confused collection of exhibits. Actually
it was a little bit unsettling looking at everything, including
the old electric shock therapy machines, some old photos of
mentally ill patients (inmates!), paintings by a patient,
surgical equipment including what was obviously a skull saw, etc
etc!! Eventually signed the visitor book to keep them quiet and
made my escape. Sadly nothing available with any old photos to
buy . . . drove to Sainsburys at Emersons Green to do a bulk shop
of heavy stuff like coffee, biscuits, sugar, and lots of big bags
of muesli and such. Couldn't resist a big fridge pack of Red Bull
too - lots cheaper than little high
street shops. Spotted a new dent on the car! :o( That'll be from
that idiot hitting it the other day. Poor car - really does look
all battered and beaten up - and it's nothing to do with any
accident. It's ALL from antisocial/drunken/yob attacks in the
street!! :o( . . . fried up some potato, onion and garlic and
mixed it up with a tin of corned beef for a big plate of hash
with some bread and butter for a late lunch. Enough left for more
later. . . inevitably succumbed to sleep real soon after and
didn't wake until around 5:30pm!! Seems to be no limit to the
amount of sleep I need at the moment!? . . . PCd a bit of this. A
sprinkle of rain outside - still hot. . .walked and found 56p and
a tax disc holder from a moped with two months still to run!
Actually wish I hadn't picked that up - guess I'll have to try
and make my way to a police station somewhere to hand it in. Long
way - hassle! :o( . . .BB called . . .ate the rest of the corned
beef hash stuff with four slices of bread and butter. Over full!
. . . TVd/PCd till early. ps
8 -
Woken by the noise of the recycling lorry collection
out in the street around 8:30am. . .walked in the heat and the
sun. VERY warm day. Found 2p. . . TVd and watched a bit of the TV
coverage of the 'once in a lifetime' transit of the orbit of
venus over the face of the sun. Figured I may as well try and get
a real life shot, so experimented in the blazing heat on the
patio with - well - everything really! Binoculars, sunglasses,
welding mask, camera, tripod, parasol, bits of paper, old towels
pegged on an airer for some shade - all sorts of things!!
Eventually managed around 11am to balance my best 10x50
binoculars on top of the tripod and project an image through a
rip in a towel onto a piece of white paper, held at the correct
angle by an old kitchen worktop - and then took a snap of that
with the digital!!! lol :o) Been there, seen that, done that. "There's a little black spot on the sun
today"<singing> . .
.sat in the garden in the sun for a bit. Boy - what a hot day!
Poor old Sally seemed to be suffering a bit and ended up sat in
all sorts of weird places in the garden trying to stay
comfortable. Sat in the sun until I got one of those 'sitting in
the sun' type headaches I usually get! . . . fried up bacon,
eggs, potatoe and beans for a lunch with four pieces of bread and
butter . . . touched base with BB . . . lay down for an
uncomfortably hot nap around 3pm. . . woken by Sally around 8pm!!
Blimey - musta been tired! Walked and found 3p and a drawing
compass . . .hosed the garden and topped the pond up. Brought the
handful of frogs all out hunting :o) . . touched base with BB . .
. returned Mums ansaphone call about a TV show to watch all about
plumbers!! Seems to be theme of the moment! . . . TVd. Ate bowls
of corn flakes. TVd and watched the late night program all about
the venus transit. Blimey - so that little black dot is about the
size of the earth and has huge mountains and valleys and is hot
enough to melt lead and, and, - kinda puts our petty little
existance into perspective doesn't it! Very hard to understand
religion - seems to be mostly at odds with knowledge. Finally to
bed around 1am. ps
7 - Woken by Sally around 6:45am
. . .walked . . .ummd and ahhd and figured I'd maybe do a trip to
Mums. It's hard to just sit here and hear all about her
difficulties with the plumbing and stuff, when I know I could do
it. Messed around for an hour or a couple, sorting out the
network cards and hooking up the laptop to the PC and copied the
new Kingswood site onto it, in the hope I could show Mum what
I've been up to. Turned out to be a waste of time - that old
laptop can't do good enough screen resolution, and the poor old
graphics card can't cope with the photos!! Eventually gave up and
got in the car with Sally and headed out on the road around
10:45am. Stopped for petrol (23.48ltrs @ £19) . .northbound
motorway was all at a standstill after some early morning
accident which had closed the road - traffic was backed up as far
as Almondsbury but thankfully hadn't 'quite' choked the junction
for me heading south. . . clear sunny run down. Arrived around
1pm. Thought Mum was out at first but then heard the lawn mower
noise coming from round back. Let myself in through the garage
and gave her a scare. . .Mum finished off mowing half of her lawn
as I used a little hatchet to chop away at a couple of the tree
stumps that she's had cut down, to try and lower them enough to
eventually disappear beneath the lawn. . eventually had a look at
the bathroom plumbing that's been causing Mum all the concern. I
had to confess that although it wasn't all ' Dad's perfect', it
didn't look 'too' bad to me, and didn't seem worth getting too
upset about. What seemed to be the most irritating to her was how
the bath water seems to drain away slower than before. Shoved the
garden hose up the waste pipe from outside as far as I dared with
the water on, and then brought the hose in through the window and
directed the jet down the plug hole. No way is there a blockage,
so goodness only knows why it's slower. Mum drew the line at
that, so I didn't start taking the bath panel off to look
underneath. In fact, despite fully intending to do whatever work
was necessary and even start driving to DIY stores for parts and
such, it seemed as though there really was nothing I could (or
was allowed) to do. I'd also taken my tree saw down hoping to be
allowed to cut the big fir tree down that Mum eventually wants
removed, but that wasn't to be either. . . suggested she should
take advantage of having the car there and maybe I could deliver
the chair she'd offered to give to Uncle TJ. The chair I'd got
for Dad when he was ill that is now surpluse to rquirements
because her nice new little leather one has at last arrived. Mum
called Uncle TJ and confirmed that would be cool. . loaded the
car up with the chair and managed to cram Sally in behind it and
all drove to Uncle TJs after having briefly stopped for a very
short walk at Battery Gardens, to ensure Sally was empty and
comfy. Dropped Mum and the chair off round the front and then
drove with Uncle TJ to show me how to get round the back to park
. . . all inside (including Sally) for chats and coffees. Auntie
B seemed remarkably ok despite having crutches and having to be a
bit careful. Dads old chair seemed perfect for her under the
circumstances. I was presented with a 10x50g pack of duty free
tobacco they'd got for me when they were on holiday. :o)
Embarassingly they wouldn't accept any payment!! . . . Eventually
said our goodbyes and getting on for 5pm went in search of a
meal. Parked the car and checked out the cafe that auntie/uncle
TJ had recommended, situated right on the breakwater beach
overlooking the sea. Didn't look over impressive until we saw a
sign incredibly saying 'dogs welcome'. That did it - in we went,
Sally and all. The icing on the cake for me was that despite a
handful of people sat outside, we had the whole place to
ourselves! Perfect. Chose a table inside, next to the open
windows upstairs. Pleasantly cool with the sea breeze blowing
through and the whole beach to overlook for entertainment. Sally
WAS welcome despite the waitress and other staff having to step
over her when they passed! SO nice to be able to go in somewhere
with her. Bet that won't last there - must be some health and
safety reason why it shouldn't be. Both ate a huge cod in
breadcrumbs, peas and chips and then a desert with coffee. Very
excellent meal - all very pleasant in deed. Bound to be a popular
place in high season - which of course would probably spoil
things. . . sat in the car in the breakwater car park for a while
just watching the 'beach world' go by. Much evidence of Britain's
growing obesity problem!! . .walked Sally with Mum around Battery
Gardens and down to Fishcombe Cove for a paddle and chase of
thrown pebbles. Sat on seats for quite a while as the relieving
cool of the evening drew in. Eventually back to Mums and fed
Sally. Very 'yawny' - left Mum chatting to a neighbour and popped
up the local store and bought a can of Red Bull drink to pep me
up on the drive home. . sat in the cool of the garden for coffee
and chats, and listening to the frogs croaking. Goodbyes and on
the road around 10pm . . . smooth quick run home, chain smoking
and drinking the Red Bull. Still some trace of light in the
western sky around 11pm!!!! Home around midnight. Touched base
with Mum. Tried calling BB but just ansaphones . . .coffee and
biscuits . . .absolutely exhausted but couldn't sleep and ended
up PC/TVing until around 3am! p
6 - Woke real late, going on for
9am! Seems like Sally was all tired too. . . . walked late and
found a penny . . .watched a little of the TV D-day commemorative
coverage. Impossible to imagine what those people went through.
Overwhelming desire to kinda apologise to them all for the way
things have turned out!! I can't imagine the hurt they must feel
to have lived through all that horror, only to then suffer all
the current mindless anti social behaviour that goes on. :o( . .
. cooked up a big early lunch of baked beans, two eggs, four
rashers of bacon, fried bread and mushrooms. . . somehow ended up
sleeping the day away!! Woke around 5pm!!. . . did dishwashing
chores . . . walked, bought milk, sat on the grass in the sun,
found 2p . . .Mum called to touch base and say all the work the
plumber had done had turned bad!! . . . BB called . . . PS popped
round for chats till early. Ate corned beef/lettuce/grated
cheese/mayo sandwiches with a bag of crisps. A couple of bowls of
cornflakes before bed around 1am. ps
5 - Woken before 7am by the
sound of something weird in the street, which turned out to be
next door washing his car!! . . . walked in the beautiful blue
sky sunny morning and found a penny . . . did laundry chores and
cut my hair etc. . . PCd briefly and reactivated the school
webspace and the old one I've had since I first went on line that
I've tried to keep going. Actually - I'm not sure they were
deactivated - looks as though the connection files on both were
somehow corrupt anyway! Should have checked that first I suppose.
Why on earth does that happen from time to time I wonder? . . .
left the laundry on the line drying in the sun and headed off
with Sally and the tripod and a library book or two. Couldn't
resist popping into the little Speedwell Methodist church hall on
the way past because they'd put a flyer through the door
advertising a morning table top sale and such like. It was nearly
midday when it was all due to be over, but I just wanted to ask
if anyone there could maybe let me have a copy of some of the old
photos of the place that I know exist - somewhere. Turned out
some old guy 'may' be able to scan some and e-mail them, so I let
them have the new site address so they could see what I'm up to. They gave me some
old pamphlet they'd had done back in 1985 to commemorate the
first hundred years of the place. Excellent - at least one of the
pictures in that will be do-able, and should be a neat one. :o)
Someone came and thrust his face into mine and said 'remember me'
all smiling!!! Bloody hell!! CR - he used to be my boss back when
I worked in Mercury House. Small world! Didn't know he'd all got
religion! I have to confess, it DID seem like a very happy,
friendly group of friends in that place. . . carried on walking
to take a picture or two and then somehow rather aimlessly ended
up walking all the way down to Fishponds to explore around the
old Glenside Hospital campus. Damn - that museum place is only
open Wednesday and Saturday mornings. . amazing huge great
complex of beautiful old buildings. Sadly too many huge great
trees in awkward places to be able to get any decent photos at
all! :o( . . .carried on walking and eventually returned home
around 3:30pm via the river and Eastville Park. Very hot and
sweaty - painful bulging hernia all day - even hotter having to
keep pressure on it with a hand in my pocket all the way!! . .
.ate corned beef/mayo/onion/grated cheese/lettuce sandwiches with
two bags of crisps . . . left Sally at home and walked with the
camera and the church pamphlet to try and get a 'now' photo of
Belgium House and colliery in Speedwell. Some guy on a push bike
with a couple of friends was giving me funny looks as I walked
along. 'Remember me?' he said!! I said no and asked him to
enlighten me. Turns out he was the guy on the motorbike that was
stopped in the street, blocking my path the other day!! His cocky
demeanour was that of someone who was proud of his actions!?? I
made the mistake of attempting to explain, in a reasonable manner
what was wrong with what he'd done. He of course didn't see it
that way - there was no reasoning with him at all. Idiot. He
carried on with his friends (laughing at me I think) and I
carried on with my photo mission, but of course was all shaky
with adrenaline and replayed my pathetic conversation over and
over. Feels like being trapped in a B movie 'western' - without a
gun!! I resisted the very real urge to race home and jump in the
car and track him down and knock him off his bike - and maybe
even reverse and go forward over him a couple of times!! :o(
Found a penny . . . scanned in the pamphlet image (damn - you can
see the print through the thin paper) and PCd the photo and added
it to the Speedwell page of the new site. Cool - I like that one.
. . napped for an hour or so, despite being rather too warm for
comfort. Woke around 7pm . . . walked and found a penny. Detoured
to the local store and invested 99p in a can of Red Bull to help
me feel a bit more awake. I'm tired of feeling so tired all the
time. A handful of hot air balloons drifting over to the barking
accompaniment of the neighbourhood dogs. Funny how Sally doesn't
give a damn about balloons. She DID however run out of the field
onto the street, chasing another dog that WAS spooked by them!
Grrrrrrr!!!!!! :o( . . PCd this for the first time in a while and
put in the hours to get back up to date, while drinking the red
bull! It DOES work that stuff. . . BB called . . .PCd yet more
until gone midnight! Takes as long to type this, as live it, for
goodness sake!! All very boring I'm sure. . . didn't feel
particularly tired and ended up PC/TVing until the early hours.
Finally to bed with the morning birdsong! Ronald Reagan died this
day. ps
4 - Woken by Sally at 7am!! . .
. walked and found a penny . . . PCd and messed around with a
couple of the building site pictures on the new site. Split em up
into Kingswood and Speedwell. Wouldn't you know it - the vantage
point for the Speedwell one is gonna be wrong now they are
building so close to the road. The front building is soon gonna
obscure the rest of the site - just like happened with the
Kingswood Heights one!! :o( Funny thing messing around with this
new site - it's changed how I wander around. Can't help veering
towards any planning notices that are posted up on lamp posts, to
see what may be being built in the near future, to see if there
may be a picture opportunity!! Sad, mad man! . .Good grief!!
What's all this? The spam I keep receiving from that damned old
school site has trippled overnight!!!!?? Dunno why they bother
anymore. The ISP seems to have mastered spotting them and labels
them as '***SPAM***', so I've set my outlook express up to
immediately send them to the 'deleted' folder without even having
to touch em. Wish I could get the ISP to delete them, rather than
me still have to download them all - which costs me dial up
charges!! Grrrr. . . . drove with Sally heading to the Lock and
Weir to try and polish off a couple of photos I'd not yet managed
to do. Stopped for petrol (11.78ltrs @ £10) . . .parked up in
the Chequers car park and wandered around with Sally and library
books. Knocked on one of the cottage doors to ask permission to
go onto their land as the lock keeper had suggested I should do a
week or so ago. No answer. Figured what the hell - if they aren't
in they wont know so helped myself to wandering down the private
path and onto the river bank. Damn - STILL not the right vantage
point!? Wandered back and forth and eventually figured it must be
through an old gate which looked very much like someones private
garden entrance!! He who dares - opened the gate and wandered in
making a show of looking at my books. Weird little area of land
with some sort of shack on it!? And I'd thought there was an
expensive house behind that fence and the tall trees! The land
lead down to a railing next to the river where a house boat was
moored up. Tied Sally to the railing and left her behind as I
mooched around taking pictures. Dogs on the houseboat blew my
cover with their barking and rushing out. The old guy on the boat
turned out to be very happy to let me wander around, once I'd
done my polite explaining and showing of books. Got my shots as
best I could - would have been quicker but I just HAD to wait to
get the narrow boat going through the lock. :o) . . sat at a seat
next to the river for a while and ended up taking a rather poor
panoramic, and then set up a time lapse to get me and Sally in
the picture. Encouraged her up onto the table to get her in the
shot. Rushed to sit next to her and waited for the timer to go
click - and just then she started licking my face -
slobber/click!! Ewwwww!! lol :o) . . . eventually drove back home
and ate corned beef/lettuce/grated cheese/mayo/marmite/onion
sandwiches with two bags of salt and vinegar crisps . . napped
but woken real soon by Sally needing the garden again! Spoke too
soon about her stomach maybe improving!. . . walked. LB had
called leaving an ansaphone message about a frog. Popped up and
relocated it to my pond. . . PCd . . . BB called . . . PCd pics
until around 10:30pm and modified the Hanham, Avon valley pages
and added the River avon pan#5 (big slobbery dog tongue) to the
new site. . . ate a couple of bowls of cornflakes . . . TVd until
bed around midnight. pa
3 - Up around 7:30am. Excellent
- looks as though Sally's stomach IS getting better . . . walked
. . . muesli breakfast . . . balanced my accounts etc. SO tired!
Asleep again until around 2pm!! . . . loaded up my rucksack with
the tripod and walked with Sally around 3:30pm to Oldbury Court.
I'd seen the Fun Fair setting up the other day and figured it was
maybe worth a look in case of a photo opportunity. Wandered
around and around but there weren't many people there and it was
all set up in such a way that a decent photo was pretty
impossible. . . . . Someone mentioned in my guestbook the other
day (or was it feedback? can't recall - but I am grateful for
them and DO read them ALL, even though I can't bring myself to
EVER reply these days) how they found it strange that I could
face going into the Kingswood Church with all those people there
and do my photo taking thing, what with my 'avoidant stuff' an
all. I dont see any inconsistency. Importantly for my peace
of mind, even though my mindset is poles apart from such people,
one can reasonably be assured that they are gonna be kinda
nice people, and are very unlikely to suddenly beat
me up! After all, thats what pubs are for! I am there
entirely by MY choice and am therefore somewhat in control
I can leave as and when I please. In such brief, superficial and
controllable social interactions, I automatically slip into my
act, which all being well, will adequately cope with
every likely (much mentally rehearsed) eventuality and
which, chameleon, or maybe more mirror like, normally
gives the impression I am a nice guy. Its a
well practiced act after all, I used to work on a post
office counter, serving the public didnt I! Good
morning - - blah blah blah Im in control of the
situation - I have a reason to be here doing this
Ive done it - now thank you and goodbye. Thats
do-able. Trouble starts when its gotta be more than that.
Despite the relative comfort of that church situation, I actively
shut down any attempts by anyone to actually start a
proper conversation. If theyd been too forward
in saying anything more than a passing hello, Id have been
too uncomfortable and would have left the minute the getting gone
was good. . . . The reason Im typing all this now, is that
the Fair Ground situation felt VERY different to me. Despite the
fact that it was almost deserted, it felt dangerous to me. It was
all flashing lights and loud with music and machinery and diesel
generators, deafeningly droning away non stop, forever!
Everything about every side show screamed Im gonna
try and con you and take advantage of you, sucker. You gonna be a
victim here!. The people running those side shows had a
certain look and manner about them. Easy to imagine
theyd seen every one of the worst sides of human nature
whilst theyd been travelling around doing that job
if you were dieing in front of them and asking for help,
theyd probably all look the other way, as one. There were
families and children because it was early, but here and there
were groups of youths and it wasnt hard to imagine how much
worse it would all be after dark and cans of beer and joints of
smoke and all else. I hated the place! Went and walked a distance
away and sat under a tree on my own for a long while and played
with Sally a bit, before forcing myself back into the
arena, just so I could get a panoramic photo as Id
set out to, and not be defeated. Eventually couldn't stand all
the noise (god what MUST it be like to work there day
after day!) and the feelings of threat any more, so
ended up walking down to the safety of the river and trees and
then all the way along to the tranquillity of Eastville Park and
eventually home by around 7pm. Found a penny. If Id stayed
later until the crowds arrived, or even gone back on Saturday
evening, it WOULD have been a good panoramic photo what
with the brightly painted dodgems, and the REALLY dangerous
childs ride that had no safety barriers, and the pink candy
floss, and the burger bar with its expensive sign writing
advertising bacon rolss and all but I just
couldnt, and I dont think Ill be going back!
:o| . . . touched base with BB . . . PCd disappointing pictures.
Looks like a ghost fair with no one there at all! lol . . .
cooked up the last of the LB donated chilli sausages with
mushrooms and bread and butter. Mmmmmaah :o) . . . TVd until bed
around midnight. pa
2 - Woken by Sally at 6am!! She
needed the garden. . .blue sky sunny morning. Out of the house
walking around 7:15am. Found 8p. Two different chalk written
messages had been written by someone on the ground over the
field, one by the swings and one on the cycle path. Both of
similar content, one read "Lets see how much litter the
selfish and ignorent will drop today". Cool. :o) Wonder who
did that. I'm not the only one to often spend time picking up
litter and walking it to the bin (which is nightly set alight by
idiots). I've seen several people do it. There's a crazy old lady
who actually carries a plastic carrier for the purpose and picks
up lots all around. I figured that despite the irritation and
unpleasantness of doing so, I had to do a bit here and there if
I'm gonna constantly complain about the pigs who drop it. Seems
to me if more people would pick it up, maybe there'd be less
people inclined to throw it down - peer pressure like. Anyway -
I'm just glad someone (crazy!) wrote that message - good to see
that some people around here still care about such things enough
to be so irritated. :o| . . Did the long walk down to Eastville
and along the Frome valley and back via Fishponds taking various
photos along the way. Home around 11:30am . . . PCd pics and
padded out the Frome Valley pages a little. . . Mum called to
touch base and report on the work the plumber had done and say
her long awaited new chair had arrived etc . . . ate a couple of
corned beef/mayo/grated cheese/lettuce/tomato/onion sandwiches
with crisps . . . napped for a few hours until around 6pm but
woke still feeling exhausted. . . walked and found 2p. First
signs of Sally's upset stomach maybe getting better. DO hope so -
for MY sake! Tired of being woken and having to hose down the
garden, and real regrettable/embarrassing not being able to poop
scoop when out, etc. . . touched base with BB . . . cooked up a
few of the LB donated chilli sausages with mushrooms and ate them
with four slices of bread and butter. Different - suprisingly
very nice. . . PCd this until late . . .to bed around midnight. pa
1 - Woken by Sally at 7:10am. .
. walked and found 3p . . . ate a bowl of muesli for breakfast
and then ended up laying back down for more sleep, despite the
drilling and hammering next door. Just feel SO tired! . . . woke
and ate a couple of corned beef/mayo/grated
cheese/lettuce/tomato/onion sandwiches with crisps . . . TVd . .
. touched base with BB . . . napped again for an hour or so! . .
. walked and found 2p . . . returned Mums ansaphone call and
touched base to hear all about her plumber visit. . . BB called .
. . TVd . .ate a bowl of muesli . . . PCd until around 3am
surfing all sorts of mostly local nonsense. p
^Top